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Hallo bb!!!!!!!!! 

I hope that you do not mind me publishing this (as I very much want to keep this forever)--I am currently speechless and am trying desperately to come up with words to tell you just how much this message means to me. This honestly speaks volumes more about you and your vast, loving heart than it does about me; thank you for sticking with me through the obnoxiousness that was my appblr days and through the rough nights and moments of joys interspersed within. Thank you for choosing sympathy/empathy over annoyance at reading those posts riddled with frustration; thank you for sharing the happiness over tiny victories; thank you for being so loving, so supportive, so kind all through these years--and thank you so much for taking the time to write out this message; for letting me know that I had a guardian angel/friend of sorts along the way, this whole time. 

I cannot thank you enough for all of the above, and I am endlessly grateful for the light you’ve brought me in this (wonderful! ineffably heartwarming!) message, and I’ve no doubt that you bring that kind of light to everyone who is lucky enough to know you--and I hope you know that, as well :’) 

baal: if you were a god, how would you prefer to be worshipped?

honestly i would want an entire pantheon dedicated to me with statues and labyrinth bushes and water fountain and a street/town/county in my name idk i’m thinking greek gods lol

lucifer: what are you most proud of?

i think it would have to be either my english degree at a university NOT on my home island bc i actually went out and did things on my own and became independent and experienced life away from all i’ve known and the people i know and trust and love OR still being alive and striving and being real positive and bringing good things in my life and also accepting bad things i can’t work around bc i used to be v insecure and now life is my bitch (most times)

THANKS for the q’s bby i luv you <3

13. Biggest turn ons: i think security in the future is a v big turn on bc it means someone has their life in order or even having ambitions for the future. i know experience and knowlege is one of the biggest turn ons for me (non-physically)

14: Biggest turn offs: indecision. i know i have a lot of that in my life but i look for stability in a partner and not being able to commit to something is so weak and such a turn off

15: Favourite movie: the fifth element/the wizard of oz

16: I'll love you if: you understand my goals and how my mind works and understand (and most likely agree to) my beliefs i'm not at all religious but my beliefs on life and humanity all that

17: Someone you miss: i guess lately i've been missing my mum i don't like to visit her bc i hate her boyfriend with a fiery fucking passion but i've been watching oitnb and claudette reminds me of her and i get so heartfelt during her scenes lol

18: Most traumatic experience: i'm very lucky not to have a lot of traumatic experiences and i defs count my blessings but i would have to say when my friend died in afghanistan a year after high school

19: A fact about your personality: i know it's overrated and everyone says they're like this but i am such a fucking dick like my sis comes home from working at the veteran's homecare and talks to me about her probs and her overall day and i just don't give a fucking shit and sometimes i'm so sarcastic that i piss myself off bc i don't know how to be nice like truly nice and not make snarly comments and shit ughh

21: What I hate most about myself: i think it's me not caring enough about ppl around i don't call/text friends regularly i don't give gifts on xmas or birthdays i'm just not as considerate a friend/person as i'd like to be

22: What I want to be when I get older: i'm currently working on a novel this summer and so far it's been going gr8!!! i have a continuous lucid dream about me publishing my book in new york bc i work at a publishing company (but then again simon nessman is also my bf in that dream so idk how hopeful i should be about it lmao)

THANKS FOR THE Q'S V THERAPEUTIC FOR ME!!!

jennifer is a cute lil girl who is cute n nice LMAo idk

nicole is an amazing human beiNG who i love v much even though i haven;’t seen her in like 4 years kms for being a bad friend she is an angel though srs