#cicadacrtjournal

Im so excited now that I got to see my chest after top surgery I wanna post what my new chest looks like RIGHT NEOW but i am not healed

I need a masochistic sub to corrupt my brain with how much they want me to hurt them. I want them to start out telling me I can go harder, telling me it feels so good but they need me to make it hurt, looking up at me with big trusting eyes and telling me they can take it. And if I still can't turn off the part of my brain that makes me overly cautious and scared of myself? Then they start taunting me into hitting harder, telling me they know I can do better than that and teasing me for being all bark and no bite. They try to keep a straight face but the moment I start really letting myself let go with them they can hardly hold back their giddy smile.

telling another trans guy dom he hits like a girl so that he beats the shit out of me is tgis anything

Took a break from this account because some shitty stuff happened, and I haven't been super horny because of the resulting depression. I think I'm starting to get better, though, so for now I'm back.I'm sorry to the few mutuals who I had just started interacting with regularly :( I didn't mean to ghost y'all.

I don't at all care about the Deadpool wolverine movie but I will say it's been great for the butch transguy with fuckass sideburns community (me)

Breaking news, faggy tguy butch has started crushing on hot, dykey tgirl butch. More at 11.

Finally being able to start the process of finding a surgeon and shit for top surgery has been euphoric in a way all on its own but also. I'm starting to realize that after I do get top surgery my gender presentation is most likely gonna get a lot weirder. And sluttier.