#churchnorth

at this point in the timeline of the au north and church have been fucking for a while as a "just casual" thing. not even really "friends with benefits" bc they're not really friends outside of it. north would like this to change, bc he is very fond of church and every time theyre together he just grows fonder, but church is anathema to the idea of relationships even if he secretly feels the same way.

and this is how church is really with all of his partners. very clearly he has a significant emotional connection with each of them but that isnt talked about. no relationship stuff is ever really talked about, including sex. he is sooo used to partners who just kind of like. he needles them enough and they snap and rough him up and there isn’t really “communication” or “safe words” as much as “if you push church too far he’ll dissociate and go limp and silent and that’s the sign to stop.” church would rather you beat the shit out of him than make him talk about his feelings okay he can’t ADMIT that he WANTS things. you just need to be like tex and be able to read him better than he can read himself. it’s really not too much to ask that his partner knows exactly what he wants without him having to communicate it is it?

the thing is that the "needle until they snap" thing doesnt work with north bc 1) north would not snap in this way and 2) he rather likes things like “communication” and “safe words” and yes even “talking about your feelings.” so even though both church and north very badly want to do weird shit, north won’t just do it without communicating before hand and church won’t just say what he wants. so north has to be like. well until you can properly communicate no more sex. which on its own wouldn’t really bother church. he is a horndog here but he has other outlets for this. church is not exclusive with north nor would he ever want to be and he still maintains to himself that their relationship is purely sexual. so if north doesnt want to have sex anymore then oh well. hes not broken up about it (he is)

so north realizes that the only way to get church to admit he wants to do weird shit is to do other weird shit that denies him of the weird shit. because, sure, he'd like to just have an open and honest conversation but lets be so real for a second. north is just as insane as everyone else in this equation. ethical manipulative girlfriend core.

and. well. chastity belt.

"no more sex until you learn how to say with your words that you want me to tie you up and rail you. if you want me to take it off all you have to do is talk to me and tell me to take it off ”

but of course church is completely convinced he could outstubborn north. and maybe he could in most situations but “having full control over someone” is literally north’s dream scenario, so this is nowhere near as torturous to north as it is church. sure, he's not having sex either but and it is torturous to church. his t-dick is just rubbing against the restraints everyday, driving him up the wall. and hes rubbing himself trying to get relief and just making it worse. just constantly at the edge and never able to get enough friction to get over it. or, well.

a thing about church is like. he's a bitch and he whines and he's combative and prone to hating authority but give him directive? He won't actually break it. like if north told him not to i don't think he would. he could easily get himself off when north isn’t around. its not actually that hard to get chastity belts off without the key. nor would it really be that to but. he’s not. he won’t. don’t mention it don’t question him

he likes to push right up against breaking the rules but just flat out breaking them isn’t any fun. which means that he’ll literally edge himself constantly like he’s doing it to himself. my guy.