❛ why can’t you just tell me the truth ? ❜
@chtnoirr , 𝑸𝑼𝑬𝑺𝑻𝑰𝑶𝑵𝑰𝑵𝑮 𝑴𝑰𝑵𝑫𝑺 , always accepting !
“chat...” it’s the same song & dance, & they’ve been dancing around it for months now. & she knows that he knows it’ll herald the same answer. just as every other time. like a broken record. stuck on the same chord, left to repeat the verse time & again. what he doesn’t know is that every time he broaches the subject, it proverbially pushes her another step forward. that her resolves cracks & splinters little by little each & every time. chipping away at her very being at the core.
she can feel the give in her shoulders. can feel the way her entire being sags ever slightly under his gaze. & she knows the fact that she’s crossed her arms & turned away from him was just her way of desperately trying to adhere yet another layer of armor to her person. & oh, she can feel the way her body’s broadcasting a silent plea: please stop pushing, chaton.
they weren’t supposed to know each others secrets identities, but she’s at the point where she doesn’t know if that’s the right decision anymore. sure, it had been master fu who forbad it. who enforced it. who stressed that if they knew, they’d have to give up being chat noir & ladybug. & yet that was before he’d passed guardianship unto her. but now? now....she doesn’t know what to do anymore because logically, she knows she’s the one who decides the rules.
-------- & then she recalls the future bunnix had thrust her into. remembers the despair & torment she’d unwittingly pushed onto her partner. the catalyst boiling down to the fact that he’d somehow discovered her identity & she ---- can’t --- won’t let that happen again.
& so she decides to solider on. to weather the storm just as she’s done every time before this, so she looks back to him. makes a point to meet his gaze & squares her shoulders beneath the weight of them. determined to step through the evitable threshold that will saddle her with yet another bout of guilt she’ll have to carry.
“we can never know about each other, chaton. you know that. ”















