Ok, guys, I guess it's high time I updated you on my life and explained why I weren't here these past few months. It's nothing big I just didn't feel like blogging and being on tumblr for the time being, I needed a rest of it and I got it so I'm back. I had so many things going on in my life and it was like a big metamorphose for me as a person.
So, first of all - I'm single now. I broke up with my boyrfriend in October because I just couldn't continue living like this, lying to myself that I still like/love him. I love him as a friend and he is my best friend even though I start to notice these changes in him lately which I don't like but I hope he(we) will work it out soon.Â
Second, I think I didn't tell you about the youth exchanges thing I got into. So, this is an European programme about young people and one of the things you can do is go on exchanges in other European(and not only) countries with people from many different countries It's awesome, really. So far I've been to England(April), Hungary(June) and Greece(November). I really started to see the changes in myself as a person and how I am becoming more and more confident and I'm not afraid to talk in front of people and to give my opinion anymore. It's easier now to make new friends and to talk to people first (and even make jokes which sometimes happen to be funny). Another European thing I went on was this training in my country and its theme was Antidiscrimination - it was like an exchange but it was only for 2 nights, 3 days and I met about 20 people from the whole country and all of them were part of NGOs or organizations that try to help people and to teach them things like antidiscrimination and how to be better so I learned a lot those 3 days. After I met so many interesting people during these past few months I can say that I really am a better person, a grown up girl. 2013 was my best year so far, no doubt.Â
In 2014 I plan to go on a few more trainings and exchanges (*fingers crossed*) and when I finish high school (yes, this is my last year - I finish in 5 months or so *yey*) I want to do an EVS for 1 year before I start univesity. What is EVS? EVS=European Voluntary Service. I'm going to be a volunteer but not in the sense most of you think - I'm not going to Africa to help children (although I might do it sooner or later). I'm going to another county in Europe (hopefully Latvia, Sweden, Denmark, Holland, Poland or Czech republic) and I will help an orgranization there. There are a lot of EVS projects and I'm looking for something related to media - writing articles, doing journalistic stuff, talking to people and sharing their opinions, etc, etc (yes, I know that media is not about that but I believe that in a perfect world it does this). I want to study journalism later so I think this is going to help me for it and it will definitelly help me grow as a person. ........ Ok, I guess I got a bit carried away, I'll stop now. If you have any questions about this European Union stuff for young people - I'm here.
Now, about my healthy living - It's not there. I really try my best (or not, obviously) to be healthy but it's so hard for me lately. But! I know that I'll get through this soon. I've been going to the gym twice a week since August (although I hardly went there during December because my life was so busy with school and friends leaving my city(and country) for good and Christmas stuff..) I will continue in January (I can't wait actually!!) and I'm getting better and better with the healthy living thing although it's impossible for me to give up chocolate but I'll reduce it to healthy amounts. I can't really go running because the cold scares me so much + we have stray dogs here *yey* and I'm so afraid of them, so I can't go alone and no one wants to come with me because it's like 0 C most of the time lately, but I'll think of something soon.
Ok, this post got kinda long and I really doubt that anyone would read it let alone finish it. (but if you did - you are awesome and I thank you!)Â
Oh, last and probably least - I'm going to henna my hair today and I'm so excited! I hope nothing goes wrong because we're going away for the New Year Eve with friends (same friends as last year which means my ex as well) tomorrow and I'm going to be fucked up if my hair turns up funny. However, I will update you on this matter soon ha-ha
Enjoy the last few days of this year and remember that the next one is going to be better, faster, stronger. You are awesome for trying to be better, to be your best self. I love you all and thank you for inspiring me! Happy New Year!
