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Corruption thrives when silence becomes the easy choice, when eyes are closed to the truth, and when fear outweighs the courage to demand what is just. But the youth were never born to be silent—they are the fire, the pulse, the voice that echoes change. To stand firm against corruption is to stand for the future, to fight not only for ourselves but for generations yet to come. Every chant, every step, every refusal to bow to dishonesty is a declaration that we will no longer be fooled, that we will no longer let greed define the destiny of our country.

So rise, young ones. Raise your fists, raise your voices, and raise the banner of truth higher than the lies that try to bury us. The streets are calling, the nation is waiting, and history is watching. Let courage lead your steps, let hope guide your cries, and let love for your country strengthen your resolve. And as we march forward into the storm, may the heavens guard every heart that dares to fight—a prayer of safety for every soul that will walk the rally, a shield of light for every brave spirit standing for what is right.

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Corruption is more than the theft of money—it is the theft of futures. Every peso pocketed by greedy officials is a meal stolen from a hungry child, a book taken from a student, a bed withheld from the sick. It robs children of the chance to dream, of the right to rise above poverty, and of the hope to live a life with dignity. While officials sit in their mansions, feasting on excess and drowning in luxury, the people they swore to serve are left gasping under the weight of broken promises and bare minimum scraps. The nation bleeds not only from empty coffers but from stolen possibilities, from generations denied the life they deserve.

This cycle of greed will only end when leaders choose service over selfishness, when the thirst for power no longer outweighs the duty to protect the people. The country cannot heal under officials who treat the nation’s wealth as their personal business, who turn the people’s coffee into their own golden harvest. It is time to awaken, to demand accountability, and to remind those in power of a truth they fear most: “comfort the afflicted, and afflict the comfortable.”

LATE POST. 

To be honest, it was a gloomy Christmas again. The weather seems sad, it's cold and I cannot help to wrapped myself with a thick comforter. I stayed home the entire day because I feel like this is the best time I can spend being alone. 

I hust re-heated a left over lasagna and ate some bread as pair. I just watch couple of netflix series, a went back to sleep. 

Even though, it is a gloomy feeling, I still went out to make a small interactions with my relatives. I left home around 7pm and went to church quickly. While I was on  my way to church, I received a message from Ae and he told me he opened my gift already and the shirt I gave him fits him well. I was really hesitant if it will fit on him but gladly, it does. He sounded very grateful so I'm happy. We had quite had a long conversation which is kinda unusual and he told me a lot of things about him. I'm happy to know he is learning to open up a little to me and it's fun to know him personally. 

I enjoyed the time we spend from talking and I wish we could talk more often. I tried to calm down myself and not to be needy or possessive. I just wanted it to be chill. 

Also, I got an unexpected greeting from Buloy and I didn't expect him to greet me really. I'm starting to be shy talking to him since, he became cold to me and distancing himself to me. I felt it so, it was a nice feeling that he took time to greet me. 

After i visited my relatives, I went to my besties house and we had a good catch up. It's been a while since the last time we saw each other and it was fun to see them again. 

Christmas felt different but I'm really thankful.

Love always,

Heyyyy!!! How are you? I hope you do well today. I hope you feel better and motivated today.

Well, my day is running crazy again. I lost my confidence and felt ashamed with myself. I feel like I never done so good this year. I feel like my decisions always lead me to what makes me sad. I don't know why I feel like I'm always defeated. I always take the pain. I always lose all of my battle. Today, I had another with my job and I feel like it slowly melts my confidence and my worth. Sometimes, it made me question my worth. I think everyone thinks that I am not good. Everyone thinks that I am such a pile of errors and someone that they need to carry all the way.

I looked at myself in the mirror. I cannot see myself anymore. I feel like I changed over the years. I changed myself I guess not to be better but to be the worst. I feel lost. I feel lost in a way that why I don't excel at anything? Why I feel like I am always not good? And there will be always someone who can destroy me.

I feel lost.

I tried not to think about it. I tried to carry on but there is an anxiety the sleeps in my head. It feels like I am a wine stained dress that you can no longer use.

I feel like even my boss who believed in me, never really see the growth in me.

I feel defeated because today I learned that I was really out of the context. I feel that I am no longer in the same page where I used to be. I felt like I am no longer be there. I only exist for show but not for real anymore. Maybe he took me out of this list because I was such a toxic person that kept on coming back to him. Maybe, I only felt jealous. Maybe, I felt insecure but one thing is for sure, I still feel the pain. I still feel the same amount of pain. I really got insecure why we can be like that? Why?

I wanted to get out of this feeling and tried to avoid it, but the pain, it kills me. It kills me back and forth. Maybe I was really nothing?

I hope that they are happy. I hope he is happy.

I know someday, time will come, it will be my turn. Or will my turn comes really?

Will it still come?

Love always,

It was another day of undying stress at work and pressure. Itvwas early in the morning m, my project manager called me and discuss about some issues in my job. I wasca little scared and when I got the info, it turned a different way and it helped me to be calm and easy. The entire day I was only dealing with my one job and it really consumed my time changing and fixing the connections of my handrails.

I got few chances on having conversation with Jehan which is good. The entire day we only talked a quite a little unless we are interacting with our other teammates. It was a little weird to have a conversation with him yet sometimes I feel like I wanted to talk to him.

I was a little talkative the entire afternoon and talked about the dried fish I sent them, the food and everything. I feel a little okay with him yet I still feel a little mad at hin cause he left me again in our conversation last night. I don’t know once he is okay, he really forgets me.

Later this afternoon, I went out with my friends and had a party. We ste beef rolls, pork spring rolls, and cream beef mushroom. I had a drink and got s tall shot of rum. After I drunk that drink, my head spins and I immediately stop myself from drinking.

We went home late and we passed by to Mcdo and had a coffee. This is so rare that ai sipped the coffee and I didn’t feel sleepy. I had s small talk with my childhood besties and talked about Jehan and my current status.

Sometimes, I wish all the people assumptions about us is true that we sreca couple. So can pursue myself more and be happy maybe?

I don’t know.

Good night.

Love Always,

It was a really boring Tuesday for me. I was just at home and doing nothing most of the day. I woke up around 8am and I was thinking of something to do. But, I really don’t have plans. I feel bored. I preheated my Tuna Pesto and made an iced coffee. I was playing Mobile Legends while eating my breakfast. Most of my housemates were going to do their errands. Mom went to salon. My Dad when to market. My brother went to Pilar to send my cousin and get something there. The entire morninng I was alone and I was just lying in our sofa.

I just had a heart to heart talk with my bestfriend and talked about how I feel. I feel like crying yet I don’t want to cry over him anymore. I wanted things to stop if possible. I really do not to make drama with him anymore. I am tired and sick of this. I wish I could skip this part already so I can move on.

I went out to get my loan and we went to my friend’s house to buy the gifts for Jehan’s friends. I actually spend so much in there for the fair and heat of the sun. I picked good designs but I don’t know if he likes it. We went to Jollibee and had a late dinner there.

We went to my grandmother’s house and visited Bem. He is so sweet and really funny. He kept on hugging cause he wanted me to buy him the game. So I kept on teasing him and we kept on laughing at him.

I went home around 6pm and went to Watsons to buy skincare needs. It cost me 1700 pesos which is too much for me. I got the lotion and I hope it suits to my skin needs.

When I arrived at home, I sent hom the photos of the PJs. He added more orders and I need to go back there. He was tagging me on posts again and I don’t know why. He started looking at my ‘My Day’ again. I don’t know to him really. He is not really a constant person.

I feel annoyed at him already. He is just there when he needs me. Like, when he needs help, he kept on chatting me but when I do he always saya he can’t. I wish I could learn how to say ‘No’ to him or decline all his invites.

I feel awkward to him. I wanted to talk to him personally. Like to tell him how I feel. But some part of me thought of that it is not worth it.

I am really tired with all these drama. I need an escpape button.

Good night.

Love always,

I didn’t get a good sleep after that night. My chest is bursting with pain while I was drowning in the high of beer and cigarettes. I kept on thinking about what happened and I just got 2hrs of sleep.

I woke up early and I saw him sleeping alone. He is really deep sleeper. He is like a wide opened guy there. His arms on his head and his legs are widely spread. I kept on staring at him but I feel like a pervert guy.

Around 9am and he woke up. I cooked out breakfast and bought some eggs. We ate together and he kept on watching the police killer video in Twitter. We are talking fine and as discussed he will acompany me in Harbor and then we will go to PLDT. I took a bath and when I finished, he told me that, he will not go with me anymore. It loosens my temper and I cannot help myself to be mad. I was really pissed off.

I cannot help myself but to text him to burst my madness. I almodt got teart eyed due to disappointment. I was really mad and I can’t help it. He replied to me sorry and said he will go with me in PLDT. After my errands in PLDT, I told him to prepare already. When I arrived home to dropped by my items, he was waiting for me and already took a bath. I wasn’t talking to him until we went to SM Central. I bought the remaining gifts I need before I went home. We ate in HotStar and I was planning to ask him questions but I stopped myself. Sometimes, I don’t know how honest he is to me right now.

I went home after we ate our lunch, we separated ways as he needs to go home to meet his Mom. I don’t know if its true. I was chilling a little in our house and he shocked me he arrivee early. I wasn’t expecting that at all.

So when he arrives he acted chill and like nothing happened at all. We sat there in the couch and I was attempting to ask him. But some part of me doesn’t. So I chose not to. It was really awkward for me. I wanted to scream but I can’t.

It was weird. But, I guess that’s the calling.

It was another sad Christmas.

Good night.

Love always,