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Hello guys! It's a new year! How crazy?!

•Time went by so fast, I feel like everyday is going faster and faster!•

But first of all, I wish for all of us, a very happy, peaceful, productive and blessed 2023! I am feeling so grateful! Sometimes I cannot believe that it's January all over again! May we all be better than we were, smarter, stronger, that we can have more focus, faith, discipline and courage!

One of my goals, this year, is just spend more time disconnected from the social medias. I feel that most of the time I loose track of time, I can't keep focused on the really important things I have to do, and I just postpone my achievements by not having focus! So I am deleting all my social media profiles, and just gonna keep my Tumblr blog on going because I don't come here very often, and don't feel that it is so addictive like the others.

Another goal is loose weight, so I am doing intermittent fast, eating more healthy, and wen all the rain here in Brazil, just stop, I will be doing some running.

And of course, I want to have better grades this semester, so I will have to drink a lot of coffee and just study a lot whole more, because my last semester, I feel I kinda just let it go and didn't even try to be better, and actually learn!

October was not my best month, but not my worst...

So, I know October ended seven days ago (I'm posting this on November 7th), and I'm actually kinda late to talk about how my October went, but for some reason, I just couldn't think about the right words to say anything.

It wasn't a horrible month, but for some reason, I had some sad moody days, where I couldn't think of anything else but my family, and me. My anxiety got the best of me, and I worried about everything, everyday, it was like my mind couldn't get past that urgent feeling of worrisome. My study hours were shorter, and not at all, productive, and I was just fluctuating between trying to study, and leaving all aside to be with my loved ones. It takes, a least the starting of a new month, for me to realize that, it's okay. It's okay to pause and put your mind in place, it's okay to have other worries besides your education, and sometimes, for me at least, it's so easy to forget that I am so much more than papers, works, assignments, articles... I am, and I have so much more than all of that.

And while I was reflecting about all that, my husband was so amazing, so loving, and caring, and helping. He actually would take me by my hand, put me on our bed, with our baby and said:

-Please, rest! Sleep if have to, or just lay there, and rest! This isn't doing any good to you, or to us!

And, oh my! How much I loved him for this! October was definitely not my best month, but was the month that I learned the most important thing about my family and academic life: I need balance! I need to organize myself and not burnout myself! I need to study, to achieve my dreams, but I don't need to loose what I already conquered in the way to realize what I want.

I've officially started my studying for Anatomy Colloquium II. I hope to be able to learn without distraction, and focus completely on this alone. Holy Spirit, I'm counting on you!

If you have something to be done, start now!

I’m fed up with myself. I procrastinate so much because I’m scared of what will happen if I’m not able to study enough. But all this is doing is destroying me and my academics. I’m finally getting my shit together and ready to work my butt off for this Anatomy Colloquium II. 

Chapters I have for the exam:

Back & Spinal Cord  Neck Thorax Abdomen  Pelvis and Perineum

When the exam is: 22 Feb 2018

How many days I have left: 29, excluding today.

By the end of this week, my grace week will be over. By ‘grace’ it doesn’t mean I’m not going to be studying at all. I will do as much as I can, preparing for my upcoming classes in the week and reading and reading and reading for the exam.

Pls pray for me!