recently i have been putting in little to no effort into everything i do. today i was at least three minutes late to every single thing i was expected to be on time for. then i smoked weed just for the fucks of it, and because i feel that spliff always hits me lovelier than a cigarette. i have been observed and reported to not finish any of my jokes in the last week. i simply roll my tongue over each way that i can and let it split in the middle of my sentence. and i don't explain any of my misfirings because no one asks me to. i blink slowly and less intentionally and i notice that when i make these sluggish movements those around me look away, as if they are saving me from some grave embarrassment.

i cant do dating apps because i can’t afford to gain opps

should i take out my lip piercing or am i a #pussy

nothing is daijoubu….

stupid stupid life where mom is mean to me and my body has no healing powers and im not allowed outside and smoke clogs my lips sad asian faces