#chimerewashington

THAT provides hope.

A new calendar switch is what I call this “New Year” celebration. Nothing has changed from last night to today but hope. Hope for the future. Hope for today. Hope for my now.

Many people say it loud and proud “This is my year!!” Well I scream this is my moment. All of my moments matter and because I am learning to appreciate more {now}moments, I have eliminated the bold, lengthy statements and outlandish resolutions. Yes I have goals and honestly they don’t change because a new calendar is on the wall. They get closer if anything. Everything I receive is manifested by me. Period. Not because the “year” changes.

Why do we have these silly expectations? 

First of all, what is an expectation? 

Expectations (noun) ˌekspekˈtāSH(ə)n/ a strong belief that something will happen or be the case in the future

But you don’t know me. Hell, I am still learning myself. How can you predict my future steps if I don’t even know them? And Vice Versa.. and the only reason why I can speak from this subject is because I am the BIGGEST “psychic” ever retired before the age of 30!!!!! 

Just being honest...

I don’t talk to, have feelings for, don’t have feelings for, etc... made judgements due to the fact that I would hold certain people or everyone to these bizarre out of the world, fictional expectations. And oh believe me when they wouldn’t live up to that of what I (in my mind alone) expected of them then BOOM I am done with them. Literally, Aquarius woman are theeeeee worst. Once you turn us off from our Humanitarian Nature, it’s a cold shoulder that never looks back. 

(a gift and a curse) 

Furthermore, I’ve dealt with myself. I’ve learned to be vulnerable and it is quite comfortable because I am living through it and surviving. I can now say that I was silly. I was wrong. I was terrified of letting people be themselves in my personal relationships. I have to allow you to be you, as I am allowing me to be me. NOW, whether we get along after that to be around each other is another blog post. It Doesn’t Matter. The point is to let go. Let go of “expecting” anything to be the way you have thought they should be or become. Just Accept that this is the reality of things. And that is okay. 

Expectations in our personal relationships strip away the true genuine nature of human nature, of human attraction. I believe that is why a lot of people use the term “Turned Off” because at one point Auntie was living to your expectations and when she decided to continue to do her in a way you wasn’t expecting you became “turned off”. 

That’s a total Joy Kill. Don’t Kill the Joy. Spread it. Allow. Accept. Let go. Proceed. Forward.