Hey, if anyone cares, I just wanna brief you on my life rn. Mostly for my headmate’s sake, so they know what’s up too.
I’m working a job that I don’t want, but I have no choice because it’s currently the only place that will take me. And I’ll have to endure for an indefinite amount of time until they fire me or a different place I consent to picks me up. It sounds simple right?
However, reality is that every single hirer that I contact needs to look at my curriculum vitae, and they will see that I missed several years of education. It’s not like they’d know my health history. Do you know what they’d think when they see my CV? “I asked for an abled person to work, so why do you waste my time to bring your face here?” Every single time. I could always hear their unspoken disdain for me being outside of my containment zone. But they simply say I’m not suitable for the job. Right, so what is a job suitable for human trash like me?
I can’t even get hired for physical labour that people get trafficked to do. And every second I breathe I’m just fulfilling someone’s ableist ideas of what my disorders represent. And I really wish I’d just die already to save everyone that trouble, but even I know that it’s a load of bull crap that I’m made to feel this way.
Oh addition to post: I only got this job at all because my dad personally knows the CEO, so he was pleading, and also, I had to be there and listen to all the ableist things he’d say about me to the employer like “thanks for having this kid around even though it’s disabled, it can still work though, if you give it work to do.” How flattering.