#chess post

It’s SOOO EMBARRASSINGGG to think all my friends hate me when I know better. I am mature I trust and have faith in the people i care about and the people i talk to but the feeling persists regardless

Not to brag but I have two buttholes

I love drawing something and going “oh, I like this!” and then posting it in five different discord servers

The anguish of being Badly obsessed with your friends’ ocs is that the amount of stuff of those ocs out there is very limited and you can’t just bother your friends to constantly talk about their ocs. i am so patient but also AURGHHH [becoming a beast]

I hate callout posts and the culture surrounding them so much it’s despicable lmao. I hadn’t seen one in a long while but sometimes you still stumble across things. And it does upset me. The format can be useful under very specific circumstances (ie documenting a scam) but otherwise it’s just. No forgiveness no room for nuance or mistakes Sorry you’re not a person anymore you’re just a topic , and one people have a moral imperative to take a stance against. I hope people doing these also grow up and realize how fucked up it is but the damage is still done.

my artistic motivation has plummeted which is like whatever. i assume it’s the time of year. i’m still drawing, pretty much exclusively doodles of me and my friends’ ocs to amuse myself and them. i don’t really have a conclusion to this im just giving a #statusupdate

But yeah it has finally sunk in that the intensity of my interests is pretty much dependent on the time of year in which I start getting into it. I hope I can find something that brings me the kind of joy I felt at the start of my rain world interest- renewed passion for the interest would also be fine. It isn’t that I am not still a fan of rw and rw fan characters but it no longer feels like doing drugs to engage with, yknow? lol