#cheolaholic.updates

it's really been a while since i came back on this blog to actually say or post something really. even writing this now feels... foreign... but, i'm sure some of you have been wondering where i've been and without diving into too much details, the best way i can put it is --

2025 was not my year. from the start up to the very end, even bleeding a little into the start of 2026

some time towards the middle of 2025, my mental state was slowly slipping & was honestly really just held together by a frayed thread that's been duct taped together over & over & over... just when i thought things were looking up for me, it somehow manages to just be worse than the last 🫠

i'm not one to be open about my mental struggles, but i figured everyone who's been a dedicated reader of my blog; even the ones that are new, deserve some form of transparency regarding my sudden drop off of the face of the earth.

as much as i wanted to write my fics & post them out, i knew i couldn't put out something half assed with the excuse of -- "i wasn't doing well". you all deserve something better, or at least something of quality -- or maybe that's just my perfectionism talking. still, the state my mental health was in at the time really did get in the way of my writing.

i was rewriting paragraphs.

i was stressed about deadlines.

i was drowning in so much.

eventually, i just... went & reconnected with nature (fancy way of saying i went to touch grass, i know) & believe it or not, myself.

within that grass touching period, i remembered what it was like to do or create something out of love, out of passion. that the reason i write these fics was because i love writing, and i love it even more when people enjoy my writing.

and thus, i'm returning after like... i don't even know, like 8 months??

a fic is coming up, but for my mental well-being, i won't set an actual date. all i can say is that it will be coming out some time this month, march 2026.

hope you're all looking forward to it.

and i hope you still remember me-

and also hope you'll continue to support me ♡