to my best friend,
Although I DO miss the only person I can seamlessly talk to and gush about my every day and bawl worthy problems with and the person who knows me better then I do cause she is my total soul sister and can finish my sentences...I can survive without the advice and without the day by day updates on each others lives.
But what I CAN'T live without is spending days beside the pool, tanning, with palm bay and canon balling into the water together and those nights where we finish bottles of wine and then you pass out way too early for my liking. Those times where we get ready together in your bathroom, whiling singing and dancing around in our bra and underwear, for that nights event or party. Those times you drive to my house even though its hard on the gas and sleepover even though I know you hate sleeping at other peoples houses. The snort/laugh that comes out of me when you put on your unattractive faces that you reserve for me cause you wouldn't dare let anyone else see how gross you can make yourself look <3 Those times when we are both too broke or cheap to go out for lunch, so we still go...but go to the club so that it ends up on your families tab instead...and then how we decide, on impulse, to go to cultus lake and then get stuck in ridiculous traffic but don't care cause we're blasting rhianna out of the car. Those days where I'm being a total uncooperative, miserable bitch but you take it even though you feel like killing me just cause you love me and know that i'm just having a phase and that I'll snap out of it and those days where you make me want to pull my hair out because you're being OCD or being a bitch or just simply telling me what I don't want to hear.
Even though I want to be able to run to you with my every tiny problem and have weekly girls nights, I can't. Our distance keeps us apart, but that's okay because these moments remind me that when we are together, all my problems, big or small, take the backseat, cause you replace them; and when we are together, even if I am trying SO hard to be miserable, I CANNOT stop laughing and I have all the fun in the world. Every shitty thing we've gone through, separately or together, fades away and momentarily becomes the past because when we are together, we can conquer and take on anything in the world. You say that I'm the strongest person you know, but you see me that way because when you're beside me with your support, encouragement, stupid jokes, and even angry criticism, I am limitless and everything or anyone that put a frown on my face or a little sadness in my smile doesn't matter cause with you by my side...I know I'll survive because I know that happiness, contentment, and love is reachable because it is right beside me. When people say that you don't need a man or love to be happy, my first instinct is to agree; but I realize that you do need love, but if you are lucky, you can find that love from the person or people that you call your best friend. I could become a single, old, and wrinkly cat lady but I'll still be able to say that I have experienced unconditional, selfless, extreme love because you give that to me and truly allowed me to see what love is truly capable of and that love ran really conquer the world.
You have no idea how much I love you Chelsey Rose Whiteside, and just like that meme... when we are old, wrinkly, and either single or widowed, sitting on the porch knitting and talking about the glory days, I still be able to smile because with you, the glory days will never end.
Absolutely forever and always,
Kay <3
