not diagnosed but highly suspicious of Being Autistic anyway, i feel like i dont see a ton of people talking about the pipeline of being young and unable to tell when you’re being made fun of/messed with/etc —> being unable to tell/refusing to accept when someone’s being genuine and thinking they’re either taking advantage of you or making fun of you because you can’t trust your own ability to discern between the two
i hc that its a big part of what makes shane so hellbent on the idea that what he and ilya are doing is Just Sex. he’s not going to get what he really wants and he’s going to be made to be the fool if he allows himself to want and hope etc., but after a while he just cannot deny what he’s seeing/feeling yk? idk maybe I’M the fool
