After discovering Steveâs betrayal, your world falls apart. Heartbroken and doubting yourself, you find solace in the most unexpected placeâŠBucky Barnes, Steveâs best friend. You realise that the love youâve been searching for has been with Bucky all along.
Possible TW - cheating, smut, betrayal.
You never thought youâd find yourself hereâsitting alone in the quiet darkness of your apartment, the remnants of your relationship with Steve Rogers crumbling around you. Youâd trusted him, believed in him, but that trust had been shattered the moment you caught him with someone else. Someone who wasnât you.
It wasnât supposed to happen like this. You were supposed to be enough. But the broken pieces of your heart told a different story.
The sound of a knock at the door pulled you from your thoughts. You frowned, wiping at your tear-streaked face as you stood. It was late, and you werenât expecting anyone. But when you opened the door, you found Bucky Barnes standing there, his steel-blue eyes filled with concern.
âBucky,â you said, your voice hoarse. âWhat are you doing here?â
âSteve told me,â he said simply, his voice low. âWhat happened.â Of course, he had. Steve and Bucky were best friendsâbrothers, even. It made sense that heâd turn to Bucky, though the thought sent a pang of resentment through you.
âCame to check on you,â Bucky continued, his gaze sweeping over your tear-stained face. âYou okay?â
You stepped aside, letting him in without a word. He shut the door behind him, the weight of his presence filling the room as you sank back onto the couch.
âIâm fine,â you lied, though the quiver in your voice betrayed you.
Bucky scoffed, taking a seat across from you. âYouâre a terrible liar, doll.â
You managed a weak smile, but it quickly faded as the silence settled between you. Buckyâs expression softened, and he leaned forward, his elbows resting on his knees.
âYou didnât deserve that,â he said, his voice steady but filled with emotion. âSteve screwed up. Big time.â
âI thought I was enough for him,â you whispered, your throat tightening with the weight of your heartbreak. âBut I wasnât.â
âHey,â Bucky said, his tone firm as he moved to sit beside you. âThatâs not on you. Thatâs on him. Donât ever think you werenât enough, because you are.â
The sincerity in his voice made your chest ache. You looked up at him, and for the first time, you noticed the intensity in his gaze, the way he looked at you like you were the only thing that mattered. It was a stark contrast to Steveâs wandering eyes.
âI donât know how to feel,â you admitted, your voice breaking. âIâm angry. Hurt. But most of all, I feel stupid.â
âYouâre not stupid,â Bucky said, his hand brushing against yours. His touch was warm, grounding. âYou loved him. You gave him everything. Thatâs not stupidâthatâs brave.â
His words struck a chord deep within you, and before you knew it, tears were streaming down your face again. Bucky pulled you into his arms without hesitation, holding you as you cried into his chest. His embrace was strong, steady, and for the first time in days, you felt safe.
Weeks passed, and Bucky was there for you every step of the way. He never pushed, never asked for more than you could give. But the way he looked at you, the way he made you laugh when you thought youâd forgotten howâit all made your heart ache in a different way.
One night, you found yourself alone with him again, this time at his apartment. Heâd invited you over for dinner, and youâd accepted, grateful for the distraction. But as the night wore on, the tension between you became impossible to ignore.
âBucky,â you said softly, setting your glass of wine down. âWhy are you doing all this?â
He frowned, leaning back in his chair. âWhat do you mean?â
âYouâve been there for me, more than anyone else. Why?â Your voice trembled as you met his gaze. âYou donât owe me anything.â
âDonât you get it, doll?â he said, his voice raw. âIâm not doing this because I owe you. Iâm doing it because I care about you.â
Your breath hitched, and he stood, crossing the room to kneel in front of you. His metal hand rested on your knee, while his flesh hand cupped your cheek.
âIâve cared about you for a long time,â he admitted, his eyes searching yours. âBut you were with Steve, and Iâd never do that to him. But nowâŠâ
âBucky,â you whispered, your heart racing.
âIf this is too much, tell me,â he said, his voice barely above a whisper. âBut I canât keep pretending I donât feel this way about you.â
You didnât reply. Instead, you leaned forward, your lips meeting his in a kiss that was soft, tentative, and filled with unspoken longing. Bucky responded immediately, his hands pulling you closer as the kiss deepened.
âAre you sure about this?â he murmured against your lips, his voice thick with restraint.
âMore sure than Iâve ever been,â you said, your fingers tangling in his hair.
That was all the encouragement he needed. He lifted you effortlessly, carrying you to the bedroom as his lips claimed yours again. The air was charged with a mix of desperation and tenderness as he laid you down, his hands exploring your body with reverence.
âIâll take care of you,â he whispered, his lips brushing against your ear. âThe way you deserve.â
And in that moment, you knew he meant it. Bucky wasnât just a rebound or a distractionâhe was your future.
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Warnings: angst. angst. cheating (Iâm sorry). self hatred. Sharon. forms of self harming. Steve and Sharon are scumbags.Â
A/N: i was listening to Adele To Be Loved and this idea came to me
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Everything was in their correct places, she made sure of it. Seven times. It had to be perfect. Today marked three years of marriage for her and Steve, instead of going out they both agreed to celebrate their anniversary at home with a home cooked meal, fine wine and slow music and to top it off with an intimate moment shared together in their bed.
The plan was perfect.
The house was perfect.
The dress she was wearing was perfect.
The meal smelted delicious as it cooked away in the oven.
The only thing now was for her to wait for her love to come home.
She sat at the dining chair watching as the clock on the over tick on by getting further away from the agreed upon time that he was supposed to arrive. Every time she rang him the call dropped straightaway, her messaged just staying on delivered. Fidgeting ever so often trying to smooth out the crinkles of her dark green dress that he told her to wear for their special occasion.
Two hours, still not home.
Three hours, still not home.
Fou- she finally gave up.
Emptying the plates full of now cold food, she turned off the radio, took her heels off and collapsed on the couch.
It had been a long time since she had cried, and that night she cried until her heart started to squeeze painfully.
She cried until sleep over took her weaken body.
She forgave him the next day when he got in at six oâclock that morning. He showed up with flowers and told her that he was sorry, something about a mission brief that ran way too long.
Though she didnât necessarily believe him or his lie but she was just happy he was home so she never questioned him.
She plastered a fake smile and made out that she watched a sad movie and that was the reason for her make up - the same she took time in perfecting - was ruined, not the real reason for the dried mascara tear tracks running down her cheeks.
A week later she walked into the tower finding it strange that no one made their way to greet her like they always did before. She walked into Steveâs room to surprise him, when she got a surprise of her own.
Her husband of three years, the man that she had been with for six years, the man that she had been in love with for eight years was thrusting away like his life depended on it into a woman that she had been insecure about since she came back to work for SHIELD, the same woman that Steve had reassured her that she had no reason to worry or to be threatened by.
Sharon.
She had no idea how long she stood there for watching the scene in front of her until she watched them kiss, it was then and only then she stumbled backwards knocking into the door which caused a noise.
The headboard stopped violently banging against the wall, the mattress stopped squeaking and Steveâs face drained of all colour as he saw his wife catching him in the act of his betrayal.
âB-babyâ he had the audacity to call her whilst still inside of another woman.
Her heart pounded rapidly in her chest as she forced her legs to take a step in front of the other, shaking as she pressed the elevator button her eyes stung as the tears threatened to break over the barrier.
The moment the silver shiny doors open she stepped in repeatedly hitting the close button just as Steve managed to make it around the corner.
This man who she had loved for eight years, the same man that she had just caught cheating had the audacity to look sad at the heart-breaking expression on her face.
A month had gone by since that painful day, and after weeks of him begging and grovelling and profusely promising that he would never do it again, that he would be better. Promising that he would go to therapy to fix his mistakes.
She asked how many times he had cheated on her and he hesitated before telling her that it had been going on for a month before hastily telling her that it meant nothing, just sex - as if that made it any better.
Now please donât judge her, for eight years she had loved him more than she had ever thought you could love someone and for six years he was all she knew. She loved him with all that she had even if he did the one thing that she never thought he would do to her. She took him back.
When the team found out what he had done they rallied around to the apartment she shared with Americas golden boy, all telling her that they knew nothing, Tony had told her that he told Fury that he was kicking Sharon out of the tower and how Fury had made her move to a different SHIELD location. The team cleaned up the mess she had made the night she got back to their apartment after catching her husbandâs betrayal.Â
The team understood why she agreed to take him back though none of them liked it. They thought-no knew she deserved better than their friend, their captain. But they promised that they would always be there if she ever needed them, no matter what.
Steve understood that it was going to take her some time for them to go back to being ânormalâ even though she didnât know if they could ever get back what they once had.
She tried, she really did try and put it behind her but every night when she closed her eyes she was plagued by the memories of him with a woman that wasnât her. Every time she woke up she would look to the right of her to find him facing her sleeping peacefully.
And every night she sneaked into the bathroom to put two fingers down her throat to be sick.
She was trying to be better she really was, she couldnât help but flinch every time he went to kiss her or when he told her that he loved her.
She tried.
God she tried.
The first time they had sex was four months after his betrayal came to light. She hated how much she loved that feeling of him being on her, that feeling of him being close to her. She hated it because the loud banging of the headboard and the squeaks of the mattress took her back to that moment.
After what was normally an act that she once loved and treasured, that had now become a bittersweet moment between the married couple she went to the bathroom and did her routine that she did now after every meal she was forced to eat.
Though she was struggling, she wasnât the only one.
Steve had gotten mad more than once about how she would always pull away from him or how she wouldnât look him in the eyes anymore or how their lovemaking was now him doing all the work. He couldnât understand why she hadnât gotten over it like she said she did - she never said that, she just forgave him.
He had also complained not only to her but to his friends about her weight loss, how he would see her flicking the elastic band against her wrist that she would now wear.
What Steve hated most was when a storm made its way through New York she wouldnât seek shelter in the warm comfort of his arms, no she would now lock herself in the bathroom and sit in the corner with her knees pulled up to her chest, flinching every time the loud cracking sound made itâs way through the apartment.
He had made the biggest mistake of his life and now it was costing him.
A year had gone by, six months of Steve getting solo counselling and another six months of them both going to marriage counselling later they had gone back to being how they once were, donât get it wrong she still sometimes got nightmares about his betrayal but each time she would talk about it to him the next morning and they would talk it over, just like their therapist suggested.
Everything was going perfectly once again they celebrated their fourth anniversary together where Steve took her to a cabin that had a private lake, they spent the nights looking up at the stars that twinkled up in the dark sky and she would giggle when he picked her up and carried her to bed before making love to her over and over again.
Sometimes she would be okay with what happened in the past but then she would find herself thinking if Steve had what they had with Sharon.
It all came crumbling down six months after their fourth year anniversary when Steve announced that he would be travelling with the rest of the Avengers to help out the SHIELD headquarters in London.
Her heart stuttered hearing that.
That was exactly where Sharon had been located to.
He promised that he wouldnât go anywhere near her, said that he would never make that mistake again. Swore that he was so in love with her that he wasnât going to stray away from their marriage again.
She believed him.
She trusted him.
Five minutes after he left their apartment she rang to the bathroom to do something she hadnât done in months. She put her fingers down her throat.
Every day that he had been away he rang her to talk about everything and anything, she had asked him if he had seen Sharon, he said yes but every time she tried to talk to him he walked away.
She believed him.
She trusted him.
When he came home with a massive bouquet of her favourite flowers, neither one of them left the apartment for three days straight. Both had grown sore from their activities.
One night, three weeks after he arrived back from London she received a text message from an unknown number, two photos were attached.
Her heart shattered.
A photo of a sonogram with Sharon Carters name at the top and a screenshot of Sharonâs messages she shared with Steve. Steve talking about how he couldnât wait to be a dad, her saying that their time in London was special and him agreeing.
She looked to the right of her and saw him sleeping peacefully.
And once again she crept out of bed and began her routine she unfortunately picked up again.
He told her he was going on a solo mission and that he would be back in two weeks. She nodded and kept her head down. He couldnât understand why she didnât look at him or how she moved her head to the side so he only kissed her cheek.
She wasnât foolish. She had gone through his phone and saw the messages between him and Sharon, he wasnât going on a solo mission he was going back to London to spend some time with her and the growing baby in her stomach.
Her wrist had now a permanent circular bruise from snapping the elastic band.
She had lost count of the amount of tear she had shed from his betrayal and now that there was going to be a child added to the mix she cried more than she had ever done before.
Finally gaining the strength and courage she went to a lawyer and filed for divorce, it broke her heart to do so but it needed to be done. She could no longer go on like this. She could no longer be made a fool out of.
She needed to finally love herself, once again.
When he came home after being in London with her and their unborn child he frowned at seeing their apartment next to empty, all of her things missing, he saw her sitting on the couch looking just a beautiful as she always had.
âBaby? Whatâs wrong?â
âI know about London and how youâre having a baby with her. Please sign the divorce papersâ
âB-baby no⊠no she means noth-â
âYou told her that you love her. Youâre having a child with her. Please just stop and sign the papersâ
He got down on his knees in front of her begging and crying, pleading with her to change her mind, told her that he would never have anything to do with Sharon or the baby ever, that they could be happy again.
She responded with telling him to sign the papers.
He cried and cried. Telling her how much of a mistake he had made, telling her over and over again that Sharon meant nothing to him. She flinched and grew angry when he said the baby meant nothing to him. Thatâs when she snapped.
âHow dare you! That baby is innocent, as much as I canât stand itâs parents donât you dare say that! Poor child was only conceived because you couldnât keep it in your pants, because you and its mother are terrible people. Yo-you promised me last time and I forgave you, and yet here we are now and youâre having a child with a woman that isnât me. Sign the papers I wonât ask again.â
âP-p-please we can m-make this workâ
âYou honestly expect me to stay with you whilst you have a child with your mistress? No Steven thatâs not happening. I choose to pick me first now, I deserve better, I deserve to be happy. You and your mistress deserve each other, you and your mistress deserves to be so miserable with each other. Just sign the fucking papers!â
He flinched at her swearing, his heart cracking as she pushed the divorce papers into his chest, he admits that he only slept with her once in London and the next morning the regret washed over him like a tidal wave threatening to swallow him whole. He didnât love Sharon, god knows he didnât. He loves the woman standing in front of him. Heck he wasnât even sure if the child was his as Sharon has a boyfriend.
He finally took the pen from her hand and shakily opened up the papers, his heart sinking into the pits of hell seeing that she had already signed it. Gazing up to face her once more he realised that she was dead serious about this, he couldnât let her down again so he signed his name next to hers.
âThank you. Goodbye Steven have a terrible lifeâ
They were the last words he would ever hear come out of her mouth as she walked straight past him and out of his life.
Months later she was behind the counter of the diner she worked at laughing at what one of the customers was saying about something his two year old son had gotten up to, wiping down the counter as another customer chimed in talking about how it only gets worse from here on out with children when the TV that was hanging in the top right corner said something that had a woman laughing.
It was being announced that the baby that Sharon had publicly announced as Steveâs was indeed not his. The baby had been born not even a month earlier and was already infamous by being the possible child from Captain Americaâs affair.
âI still canât believe he cheated on his wife with that thingâ Joey a loyal customer scoffed with a shake of his head.
âWhatâs your take on this sugar?â Lolly - Joeyâs wife - asked as she sipped from her coffee.
âItâs a shame reallyâ you answered keeping your eyes on the small television screen watching as Steve walked out of the courthouse where the camera man zoomed in on Steveâs wedding ring finger, seeing the ring that she put on his finger nearly five years ago still sitting there.
As for her, she finally found was it was like to love herself again. She could look herself in the mirror now and not point out her âflawsâ, she no longer wore an elastic band around her wrist, nor did she force herself to be sick.
She was still sick sometimes but not because she wanted to be.
She was finally happy, her skin was glowing as Kiki - her boss - had kept telling her. Her happiness and self-love continued to grow along with her stomach.
Placing one hand on the right side of her large protruding stomach she smiled up at the screen seeing Steve in his car with tears streaming down his cheeks.
Let it be known that she had survived, and that she had gained the love for herself that she thought she had lost.
