Not sure if anyone in particular will really care about this but I have decided to post my final Evanstan and Stucky works between now and April.
This fandom is clearly not gonna bring me the joy it used to anymore. I should have done the smart thing and left ages ago but I kept hoping I'd get that spark of joy again and that I'd somehow feel safe and happy again. It has become clear to me that that is not gonna happen.
I wanna fulfil some commitments and finish some things I started. But after that, it is time for me to move on.
I think I might delete this blog. I'm not 100% yet. For now it is running on a queue and I'll probably only log in to post fics and such. But you can talk to me if you want and I will try to respond.
I also want to add four more notes:
- I am sorry that I made people unhappy. That was never the intention. I just wanted to feel safe and enjoy fandom again.
- If I block someone on here or on Twitter it is probably because these websites keep recommending blogs / accounts, even when you are trying to respect boundaries, create boundaries or just choosing to not engage. It's not on those people. It's just weird websites not functioning properly.
- I won't be talked out of this. Like I said, I should just have done this a long time ago. I was weirdly optimistic about things and I think it just worsened things.
- I don't know what will happen to @evanstan-daily and @amazingstuckyevents. It kinda depends on whether Seashell, Piper and I make a mod account and on whether Seashell wants to keep running things or not. It's taking up a lot of spoons for us both, especially with Piper leaving and we gotta see if we have those spoons.
Thank you to everyone who has supported me and been my friend. Goodbye and good luck. You'll still see me between now and whenever I finish all my stuff. Just not much. It's time for me to move on.
