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Only Love Can Hurt Like This

The world seemed to be moving in different directions and she needed to decide which path she would follow. Her heart always seemed to tug her in one direction and now, that tug didn’t seem to be there. 

Berat had crossed a line and there was no going back after that. 

The Turk stood outside of a laser studio, something that crossed her mind when she was walking home one night. The next day she was able to secure an appointment for that day. Ayda didn’t want to have many days to dwell on it and somehow talk herself out of it. 

She stood outside of the studio, looking down at her wrist where his name was tattooed. If only she could go back in time and tell the eighteen year old her how life would turn out for her. The mess that she would be jumping feet first in. Would she have continued down the same path?

Taking a deep breath, her hands press against the door and steps inside, a smile on her face. 

“Hello, I have an appointment at noon for a tattoo removal.” The girl behind the reception desk nods her head, taking her name and within ten minutes she is brought to a room her wrist placed out one a side table coming out of the chair.

“This is going to hurt.” The woman told her, getting everything set up. “But with how small it is, we should only have to do one session.” That was a relief to hear. and she sucks in a breath of air, letting out a small hiss when the laser hits her delicate skin.

What is your full name? Walden Jonathan Macnair.

Where and when were you born? November 16.

Who are/were your parents? My mother was Cynthia Macnair, and my father was George Macnair. 

Do you have any siblings? I have one older brother; Walter.

Where do you live now, and with whom?  I live in an apartment in Liverpool with my brother and his girlfriend, near the docks. During the school year, I spend my time in Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry. 

What is your occupation? I am a student in Slytherin house.

Write a full physical description of yourself: Well, I am relatively short with a lean body-type. I have not too short black hair and blue eyes. I uhm.. think that’s all there is to say.

To which social class do you belong? Middle class.

Do you have any allergies, diseases, or other physical weaknesses? I get common fall and spring allergies but other than that, nothing of note.

Are you right- or left-handed? Right handed

What do you have in your pockets? Right now I have my wallet, a bit of change, a lighter, and a mint.

Do you have any quirks, strange mannerisms, annoying habits, or anything of the like? I bite my lip a lot, mainly as a calming mechanism. 

Part 2: Growing Up

How would you describe your childhood in general? It wasn’t the happiest time in my life.

What is your earliest memory? Chasing crows in a park.

How much schooling have you had? I'm in my last year of public education and then I'll decide whether or not to do a degree.

Did you enjoy school? I enjoy Hogwarts sometimes, but primary school is certainly a time I would never revisit.

Where did you learn most of your skills and other abilities? In my third year in Hogwarts.

While growing up, did you have any role models? Gilles de Rais.

While growing up, how did you get along with the other members of your family? I hate all of my family, I've hated them since I was eight. My brother is the only exception. 

As a child, what did you want to be when you grew up? At an early age, I liked the idea of creating horror films.

As a child, what were your favorite activities? I liked to watch animal behavior and how they reacted when I tortured them. Oh, and I was an avid reader.

As a child, were you popular? Ah.. no. I wasn’t very well-liked among my peers; evidently I was too quiet, or too strange-looking, or whatever other reason immature schoolchildren could come up with.

When and with whom was your first kiss? ...Next question.

Are you a virgin? If not, when and with whom did you lose your virginity? Yes.

Part 3: Past Influences

What do you consider the most important event of your life so far? I haven't done anything remarkable yet.

Who has had the most influence on you? People don't influence me, I make my own choices regardless of other people or their beliefs. 

What is your greatest regret? Killing my first ever pet so soon. I could have really made that puppy's life miserable! Alas, what's done is done.

What is the most evil thing you have ever done? Murder...I suppose.

Do you have a criminal record of any kind? No. 

When was the time you were the most frightened?When my father left. I don't get frightened. 

What is the most embarrassing thing ever to happen to you? Embarrassing things don't happen to me, I don't embarrass easily because I don't care what other people think. It's easier to live that way.

What is your best memory? I can't say I have a best memory. 

What is your worst memory? Well, the church isn’t too inviting of a memory.

Part 4: Beliefs And Opinions

Are you basically optimistic or pessimistic? I try to look at most situations objectively.

What is your greatest fear? I don't feel fear. 

What are your religious views? I am not religious.

What are your political views? I don’t usually spend time thinking about it.

What are your views on sex? It's just for reproduction. 

Are you able to kill? Able to kill… Well, all humans are able to kill. So...yes.

Under what circumstances do you find killing to be acceptable or unacceptable? Matters in which killing is necessary to conventional survival. And if you feel like it.

In your opinion, what is the most evil thing any human being could do? To victimize a person who already has nothing.

Do you believe in the existence of soul mates and/or true love? Yes, but I don't believe you ever meet your soul mate. 

What do you believe makes a successful life? I suppose setting goals and achieving them.

How honest are you about your thoughts and feelings? I am very honest. It's always good to tell the truth. 

Do you have any biases or prejudices? Humanists are frustratingly optimistic

Is there anything you absolutely refuse to do under any circumstances? Eat eggs; they remind me of slime molds and just.. no.

Part 5: Relationships With Others

In general, how do you treat others? I would say I’m politely rude. If I don't want to talk to them, I'll let them know as nicely as I can. 

Does your treatment of them change depending on how well you know them? Of course the closer I am to someone, the more relaxed I get.

Who are your friends? Warren Travers. 

Do you have a best friend? I don’t think so. 

Do you have a spouse or significant other? No, and I have been effectively single for a few years, now.

Have you ever been in love? Frankly, I don’t think I’ve ever gone past infatuation.

What do you look for in a potential lover? I prefer less forward women.

How close are you to your family? We don’t speak.

Have you started your own family? No.

Who would you turn to if you were in desperate need of help? I don't take help from others. My brother.

Do you trust anyone to protect you? Who, and why? No reason to rely on anyone; they disappoint in the end.

If you died or went missing, who would miss you? Warren probably.

Who is the person you despise the most, and why? I wouldn't even know where to begin!

Do you tend to argue with people, or avoid conflict? I argue but I don't stop until I've won. No matter how hard it is to shut them up.

Do you tend to take on leadership roles in social situations? No; normally group activities do not hinder to my needs, and thus I could care less who takes the lead. Though, I do like to be the dominant one. I think it's the only time I'll let someone tell me what to do. 

Do you like interacting with large groups of people? Definitely not!

Do you care what others think of you? No.

Part 6: Likes And Dislikes

What is/are your favorite hobbies and pastimes?  Admittedly, most of my time is spent on research, and… I rather enjoy it. However, I also watch a lot of movies.

What is your most treasured possession? My lighter.

What is your favorite color? Burgundy or navy

What is your favorite food? I’m partial to Chinese.

What is your favorite movie/book genre? Horror/thriller/mystery.

What is your favorite animal? I’m not an animal person, but I am particularly comfortable with rats.

What, if anything, do you like to read? I love to read anything from thriller/mystery novels to nonfiction psychology books. I don’t particularly enjoy reading textbooks however, as the format is less enjoyable and the material is usually basic.

What is your idea of good entertainment (consider music, movies, art, etc.)? Mostly film

Do you smoke, drink, or use drugs? I do drink on occasion, and I smoke everyday. Drugs don't really appeal to me however.

How do you spend a typical Saturday night? Saturday nights... I’m in my dorm reading or stabbing a mouse.

What would you do if you had insomnia and had to find something to do to amuse yourself? Well, homework has effectively given me insomnia. I’d probably spend it reading.

How do you deal with stress? I'm a very stressful person and the only way to calm myself down is to lose my temper.

Are you spontaneous, or do you always need to have a plan? I act with haste, I don't think things through. Not my problem though.

What are your pet peeves? The sound of scratching, the smell of pumpkin, people in general...

Part 7: Self Images And Etc.

Describe the routine of a normal day for you: I wake up around six in the morning, get ready for school, have at least two cups of coffee, and then… school. After that, I'll go to the library, usually until late. 

How do you feel when this routine is disrupted? I wouldn’t be bothered; I’m not particularly rooted into routine.

What is your greatest strength as a person? I would like to say my intelligence. 

What is your greatest weakness? My body. I’m not too strong.

If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be? Probably my body. I’ve always been teased for my size. It's hard to be threatening at 5'7" and only weighing 9 stone.  

What three words would others probably use to describe you? Disgusting.. lunatic.. freak..

Are you generally introverted or extroverted? Introverted unless someone angers me.

Are you generally organized or messy? Messy; it’s hard to remain organized in a rush

Name three things you consider yourself to be very good at: Inflicting pain, Potions and...I can juggle.

Three things you consider yourself to be very bad at: Time management, cooking, and despite a very rigorous year of lessons, I am terrible at the piano.

Do you like yourself? I suppose so

What are your reasons for doing what you do? I want to become a better wizard.

What goal do you most want to accomplish in your lifetime? My “goal” truly is impossible.. but I want to have a complete understanding of fear.

Where do you see yourself in 5 years? I honestly couldn't tell you.

If you could choose, how would you want to die? Old age.

Winter, I like the silence that comes with that season.

Do you like music? If so, what kind?

I don't like music. Period. 

What’s your favorite thing to do?

Admittedly, most of my time is spent on research, and… I rather enjoy it. However, I also watch a lot of movies.

Last thing you bought?

I bought a can of pepsi this morning. 

Last person you argued with and why?

A blonde woman who I met last night. She insisted that women should be able to work which is a ridiculous idea.

One of your stuffed animal names as a kid?

Hannibal.

Favorite day of the week?

Wednesday, I like the spelling of it.

Favorite Sundae topping?

I'm a vegan, I don't eat ice-cream. 

Do you play a musical instrument?

The piano. Badly.

Most frequent song played?

I don't listen to music usually but occasionally, I listen to Moonlight Sonata.

Would you rather play football or Quidditch?

Neither. I do not do well in teams. I like to run though so I do a ten kilometer run every morning during the summer. 

Date someone older or younger?

In relationships, I like to be the dominant person so I would have to say younger.

One place you wish you could travel to right now?

Germany.

Do you use umbrellas?

No. There is no need for umbrellas, the rain won't kill me.

If you don’t know the words to a song do you improvise?

I don't sing. 

Favorite cheese?

Once again, I am a vegan.

Movies or TV?

Movies, preferably horror. 

Define a really funny moment that has happened to within the past day.

I'd rather not. Nothing has happened to me that is worth talking about.

Do you prefer Blondes or Brunettes in your preferred sex?

Brunettes.

Do you sleep with the closet door open or closed?

I don't know, if my closet door is open, it's open. If it's closed, it's closed. I don't go out of my way to change the position of a door. It doesn't effect me.

What’s your biggest pet peeve?

People who question my opinions even though my opinion is always right, the sound of scratching and the smell of pumpkin.

Do you count your steps when you walk?

Yes, intentionally. 

Do you ever dance when there is no music?

Dance? You're not serious, are you?

Are you stubborn?

Incredibly so.

Afraid of heights?

No, that's a nonsensical fear. No one is afraid of heights, they are afraid of falling and the pain that would overcome them when they reach the ground. 

Dance in the shower?

I. Do. Not. Dance.

What do you wear to bed?

A t-shirt and a pair of tracksuit bottoms. 

Ever take dance lessons?

Really?!

What profession do you imagine your future spouse having?

I don't imagine myself having a spouse. 

Can you curl your tongue?

I've never tried and I never will.

Ever won a spelling bee?

I don't participate in petty and fickle competitions.

Ever been in love?

No.

Do you want to get married?

I've expressed my dislike of the idea of marriage before so no, I do not want to get married.

Do you want kids? If so how many?

No. But apparently I'm good with children.

Whats your middle name?

Jonathan.

What sports do you play?

I don't play sports.

Whats your favorite class?

Potions.

Whats the last thing someone said to you?