#chapter 2a

Shadamy: Am I a Monster? Pages 20-27

Rethinking about how sad and lost her mom should be feeling right now, Ritsuka decided to go back to her house once again.

Sorrrryyy a lot of things have been going on in my life that I put this on hiatus for so long and I know... this is rather short, but I will try to write more for Louis' POV >:D ANDDD have that up soon.

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Louis - Chapter 2A

The next morning I woke up at 8am. I kept thinking about it over and over again. “I can’t be around Louis if he keeps rejecting me like that.” I got out of bed, got ready and headed over to Prince Edward’s office. Once I got there, I knocked on the door.  “Prince Edward?” A maid came rushing over telling me that he left since last night for an urgent meeting. “Damn.” I thought when a familiar voice called out to me.

“My lady!”

I turned to look to see the owner of the voice. “Ah… Good Morning Louis.”

“Um, pardon my rudeness, but will you please tell me what has been bothering you?” He looked at me with puppy dog eyes so full of concern.

I took a deep breath. “Louis…” I stared at him.

“Yes Milady?”

I know I paused for some time. I didn’t want to say it. I didn’t want someone else be so close to him, but this one sided feeling is selfish of me. “Louis, please find another woman to be your mistress. I am unsuited for it.” I started to turn around to make a run for it before I started to cry. As I took a few steps, my left wrist was grabbed and I instinctively turned around.

“Why are you saying this to me?!” Louis yelled.

I started to cry.  It was the first time I ever saw Louis yell, let alone look so frustrated.

“Why do you want to leave me? Why do you want someone else to take your place?” He said, his expression increasingly saddened by the second.

I stared at him, tears streaming from my eyes. Could I have told him? Told him how I felt about him? Would that be right?

Suddenly he pulled me into his arms. “Honestly, what could be going on in that mind of your’s?”

My eyes widened and the tears stopped flowing. My heart started pounding harder and harder as his grip on me tightened.  “L-Louis?!”

He was breathing heavily. “…Please don’t leave me.”

“What?!”

He quickly let me go. “Uh, I mean, I would only wish that you would remain as my mistress. I don’t know if I’ll get along with anyone else on such short notice.”

“Oh.” My heart sunk a bit.

He bowed deeply. “Please remain as my mistress. Please.”

I stood there staring at him for some time. I didn’t know what to say. It hurt to be around him knowing that he didn’t feel the same, yet at the same time, could I really leave him to spend time with another woman?