Little White Lies — a Patient Love AU (NOW COMPLETE)

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Rating: Explicit

Tags: Alternate Universe - Modern Setting, Alternative Universe - Military, established Dean/Castiel, Soldier Dean Winchester, US Navy SEAL Dean Winchester, BAFM Dean Winchester, Nurse Castiel, War, Deployment, military setting, Drug Addiction, Military base, Hurt/Comfort, Heavy Angst, Whump, Break Up and Make Up, Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder - PTSD, References to Depression, Panic Attacks, Anxiety Attacks, the ever-growing issues of building a relationship when one is always leaving, especially to run across war zones all over the world, Castiel is not ok, to be fair neither is Dean, Sobriety, Misunderstandings, Minor Character Death, Background Character Death, (as in not Dean and Cas), Survivor Guilt, Implied/Referenced Self-Harm, Major Character Injury, Revenge, Explicit Sexual Content, Bottom Castiel/Top Dean Winchester, Top Castiel/Bottom Dean Winchester, author is a card carrying member of, team everyone switches forever

Summary: When Cas OD's, Jimmy decides that the only solution for his twin brother to quit using is that his family stays even closer together. But his plan is suddenly put in jeopardy when a guilt-stricken Dean decides to leave Lawrence to enlist in the US Navy, intending to become a Navy SEAL.

This time, though, Castiel follows him all the way to California once Dean is done with boot camp in Illinois, and then to Virginia where Petty Officer Winchester has to go through Green Team to earn his trident. When Dean is drafted to join Bravo Team, one of the most elite platoons of SEAL Team 6, neither he nor Cas knows what lies ahead.

Will they make it through deployments, loss, navigating injuries and PTSD? Can Castiel hold on to his shaky sobriety through it all? Or will the little white lies they keep from each other somehow make the life they’re building collapse around them?

TL;DR: what would’ve happened if the main plot that changed everything in Patient Love didn’t happen, and what would it mean for Dean and Cas and those they love?

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This is a high honor, Cas thinks to himself, sitting in the passenger seat of a 1967 Chevy Impala, alongside the driver singing loudly to Led Zeppelin. Few others were allowed this opportunity, to sit in this very spot, to share this sacred space with Dean Winchester.

This is a high honor, Castiel thinks to himself, feeling the Empty surge to take him to an eternal sleep, seeing the tears in Dean’s eyes. There are tears in Cas’s eyes, too. A rare few have ever had this opportunity, to save Dean Winchester, to die for Dean Winchester, to be mourned by Dean Winchester.

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