#chaosing

unyielding insularity takes itself to the arena of its own closure, the quasi-incantatory expending of the 'I' towards the crossroads of its own necessary undoing, an over-exhaustion of the Self to the point of its irrelevance, its self-excising, its reflexive desolation. Moreover, annihilation would by right represent the most volatile engagement with sacrifice by virtue of conjecturing a province of consciousness that executes its own fragmentation, seizing upon the force of self-destruction so as to renovate terminality not as a distanced and alien negativity but as an invariably creative manifestation of the desire for ungoverned cessation/resurgence. In this sense, the transition to the chaotic via annihilative subjectivity would also drastically reconfigure the concept of finality, wrenching it away from its conventional standing as a ruinous juncture of the mortal condition, an inevitable descent towards nothingness, and instead casting it into the dynamic region of a becoming. Beholden to a performativity that extends beyond the abstractions of idealism and transcendentalism, the unreality of annihilative subjectivity, in its accelerated open-endedness, in its eternal ambiguity, can then convert itself into the very hallmark of existential resistance, the site of an ultimate confrontation with the ordered, self­ devastation now a battlefield upon which consciousness orchestrates its own erosion as an act of cataclysmic transgression. In consideration of this combative stance, the assertion will be advanced that such an unmediated experience of the end projects consciousness into an unruly sphere of suspension whereby its own fading enjoins an irreparable blurring of the demarcation between possibility and impossibility. From here, with the concept of the Self now disenfranchised, the work will elaborate an involved analysis of 'divine fatality' as a transformative happening through which subjectivity assumes a godlike disposition only then to be consumed by the fury of that very state

- Jason Bahbak Mohaghegh, extended abstract to The Chaosing: The Annihilation of Consciousness, Shadow-Becoming, and the Midnight of the Unreal, Columbia University, 2004