#changeisaconstant

Some of us who have been raised in older, more tribal communities may be acquainted with ceremonial rituals.  I came upon it later in life and most recently in the past four years have had many changes disguised as losses, upheavals and passion plays.  In growing through and from them, I had a mentor who showed me new ways to pass through and beyond what needed to be let go of...to shed the old snakeskin and go deeper than I ever had into the transformative process of emotional and spiritual growth.  At the very edge of the old year (2018), I performed a sacred ceremony in fire to bless and release a part of me and my greatest teacher to date.

I share it with you as a template or example of how I put it in words, read what I wrote to that teacher and gave myself and him the honor and love that we both deserved.  After this writing, speaking and burning I drew SoulCollage cards I’d made and asked them to speak to me, speak from me as the chapter was at last celebrated and then closed.  This is so personal and soul defining for me and I share it with you in love, humility and honor.

Here it begins with what i am choosing to call the Compassionate Magical Incantation.  How it begins is how it ends:  

To My Greatest Love “I Love you, I’m sorry, Please forgive me and Thank You.” I realize that there is love everywhere God is all Surrounds us What you think of me is none of my business and I am here to say to you that I accept that this was all perfect. Only the present is real - Now. In it I affirm my love for myself with every breath and I love you in every breath and send you love.  I release myself from the feelings of pain, loss, emptiness, fear, anger and resentment toward you and myself.

I choose love in this moment.  I choose to know that love is ever present and everything else is an illusion that causes pain and suffering.  I release myself from who I was in my past that is no more.  I release who you were and who we were separately and together.  I bring this karmic pain to an end now with no expectations that you must do or be anything other than who you are in every moment.  

I choose love. I choose peace. I choose joy I choose God I release the ideas that you be or you do now and ever anything that you are not called to, but is my ego wanting, lacking and deluded.  There is only Love between us, Love for me, Love for you.  

It is all that is…

I embrace love.  I embrace loving me.  I embrace loving you.  I release all past harms, misperceptions, expectations, judgements and staying stuck as a victim in this illusion that there is anything, anything other than True Love - here, now and between us - Love.  I choose to be love.  I choose to see love in everything and everyone - in you, in me - for the greatest good of all.  I trust God, Love and Myself.  “I love you...I’m sorry.  Please forgive me.  Thank you.

I forgive me. I forgive you.

These are the SoulCollage cards and their words of wisdom in the order they were chosen.  

There are seven cards:

The Empress

Rebirth of the Wolf Teacher

The Wounded Fire Goddess

Your Eternal Lover

The Resurrected Goddess of Redemption

The Karmic Lover and Transformer

The Living Fire Goddess of my Soul

The Empress I am the Empress The one with the true heart I am the Protectress The “you shall not pass” Queen Sun Fuck Who holds my precious heart I am wise and regal, Poised to rule and Stand in my truth I am the fiery beauty Who is not afraid To bare my heart and Trust in the new I am the lioness, The Priestess and the Sage I will carry you on and forward I am amazed

Re-birth of the Wolf Teacher I am the one who is reborn I am always watchful and all seeing. I am the one who buries What must be laid to rest And resurrects the Phoenix Of endless love I am the one who is courageous And wild natured Rainbows hidden in white light Falling snow and starlight I am she and he And all one

The Wounded Fire Goddess I am the one who bears your pain And waits in the shadows to be reborn. I am the Pele of your heart And eternal fire who tends the hearth Of all my children and watches Over them for all time I am the one who has the deepest compassion, the empath Who senses your wounds and Takes them within for healing. I am the one who holds The world in my hands and Also the small child who cries For my love. I am love I am your dearest Inside friend.

Your Eternal Lover I am your precious heart Who writes to you in my dreams I am the one who sees your pain And asks you to forgive I am the one who writes The poetry and blows kisses To you in my pillow I am the one who shouts to You to love me while I push you away. I am the one who remains but You can’t see me I am the one who sees another way And who will hold the truth For all time.  I am the one Who no matter appearances, Love you forever because I love me All ways

The Resurrected Goddess of Redemption After the burn… And finally it is she The transformed The Kundalini rising To the highest high The eternal flame My Pele within Death giving way To Rebirth No longer am I Blindsided She comes and takes back What is hers And I rise I age I become Eternal Immortal All Love

The Karmic Lover and Transformer I am the one who has laid Us to rest amidst the burning earth Aching to be reborn I am the one who reveals Those lifetimes to you and Turns away to start anew. I am the passionate fiery Temptress who could not Say no to the old painful story. I am the one who died and Preferred death to grieving The loss of you.  I am the one Who stands at the final Graveside and mourns The repetitive wheel of karma...I am the one Who at last sets it All on fire And transcends all times...I am love Eternal…

The Living Fire Goddess of My Soul Here I am now Raven in hand Fire and water And molten earth At my feet I am magical And other-worldly Wise and ageless Loving the fire And birthing new land Waterfalls of passion, bliss And joy - embracing Timelessness and change Witchy fire water sprite Grateful to be alive Knowing, living and Being Eternal Love