#ch:13

Also wanted to say that this was Sunghoon in chapter 13 actually 🤭

Idk why but that’s how I imagined him. I wanted to ask you if you’d write sub hoon. Everything your write is literally scrumptious but sub hoon written by you sounds amazing. Especially considering his need for control. I know you mentioned you write smut with purpose in mind so that’s one of the reason I’m asking too. I feel like it’s be an interesting dynamic to build on based on both chapter 13 and back to the blindfold scene in class. It’s interesting to me cause mc was the one blindfolded and in a way forced to give up control but it was hoon that seemed to be wrecked by her being in this position. Now, we’ve seen that he whimpers at being marked and also like to call mc “Mrs. Park”. So I wonder if in the greater scheme of things, that is him having to adhere to this perfect image of the future Park ceo and perfect son, he would be inclined to give up control and have mc be in the driver’s seat. It’s also interesting noting how easily he acquiesced to mc’s command of picking up the condom. To me, mc reads more like a switch that a brat and I think that’s cool cause fanfic usually tends to go for the guy as dom, especially for hoon. As such, you writing smut and having them both being commanding creates a really fascinating dynamic. It’s like a tug of war in some way. But they bounce off each other so well so you’re compelled to see how it’s gonna go. It doesn’t seem like they’re fighting for control. Rather there’s this push and pull that makes for a very compelling dynamic cause you can tell they both want the other so much.

Also, mc is so relatable asking ningning if they’re friends and crashing out over it😭 she is me. I am mc actually 😭 On that note, please tell me if I’m ever bothering you. I really don’t want to be bothering you. I love talking to you and you’re really fun to talk to but please do tell me if I’m ever bugging you🥹😭

P.s.: “Let me take care of you” SUMMER, YOU CAN’T BE DOING THIS TO ME😭 when I tell you my heart started racing and I felt myself blush. It’s not even the context of it tbh. It’s just…yeah. You get what I mean. It’s such a flirty but caring thing to say BUT COMING FROM HOON especially. It has layers to it and that’s what makes it even better me thinks🤓

Sorry for the long rant😔

oh my god please never, ever apologize for long rants you could write me a whole dissertation and i’d read it with a hand on my chest and tears in my eyes !!! i adore when you share your thoughts genuinely. you’re not bothering me at all !!!!!! it’s actually one of my favorite things in the world to see someone unpack the story with this much insight and care.

"And the worst part is—he knows exactly what kind of idiot would do that. The same kind who’d sat in a conference room years ago with his jaw clenched, nodding through every rule they threw at him until he’d walked out and done the exact opposite just to prove he could claw back any piece of control for himself."

it fucking KILLS me how much of himself he sees in her like genuinely FUCKING KILLS ME. and the way this circles back to the previous chapter? “anyone but her” because while sunghoon has learned to put on a facade in order to survive, this is all so new to y/n…. and she’s acting the way he did years ago…… i know teeth hoon would never admit this to himself but i bet he’s at least feeling the smallest bit of GUILT for putting her in this situation….. *me at the psych ward* THIS ALL CIRCLES BACK TO “ANYONE BUT HER”!!!!! THIS IS WHY HE SAID IT NO ONE WILL EVER CONVINCE ME OTHERWISE.

"He can’t stomach the sound of his own voice cutting through your softness right now,"

Gawd the men you put on this earth to hunt and go to war are getting caught SIMPING for the girl they PROMISED THEY HATE 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂 FAKE ASS HATER😭😭😭😭😭😭

“Why would I beg for something that’s already mine?” he whispers.

My jaw was on the floor here . “this doesnt mean anything” my ASS😂

“This—” he mutters against your lips between kisses, “didn’t—” kiss “—mean anything.” kiss “You get that?”

Someone needs to smack sunghoon on the head like very hard. i volunteer

also. the entirety of sooha cameo made me so fucking angry i had to get out of the house and touch grass . first of all WHAT DO YOU MEAN SHE LAST SAW SUNGHOON JUST A FEW MONTHS EARLIER. WHAT WHERE ALL THOSE INNUENDOS SHE WAS THROWING THEIR WAY? LIKE I KNOW DAMN WELL THAT GIRL DOESNT MEAN SHIT TO SUNGHOON BUT ON GOD MY HANDS WERE TREMBLING I WAS GENUINELY SO PISSED OFF. ESPECIALLY THAT FLASHBACK??? WHEN Y/N WALKED IN ON HER AND SUNGHOON???? WHAT THE FUCK WAS THAT SUMMER IM GOING FREAKING INSANE.

no because i am actually clutching my face right now like i don’t even know where to start. YOU. YOU. every time you write to me it’s like being hit by a freight train of passion and love and soulmatism and i am addicted to it. i want to frame every sentence you’ve ever sent me. i want to convert it to crack and snort it. please.

you’ve dissected sunghoon’s whole psyche and pinned it under glass. you’re reading between every single line and i want to kiss your brain for it. BUT AGAIN IM NOT CONFIRMING OR DENYING ANYTHING SHIBAL I JUST ADMIRE YOU AND YOUR THOUGHTS OKAY OKAY 😭😭😭⁉️⁉️⁉️🫵🏼🫵🏼🫵🏼🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍

THE FAKE ASS HATER EJWJFOWJWKDKWKKD man’s out here writing dissertations on how much he doesn’t care while actively worshipping the ground she walks on 😭😭😭⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️ bitch ass hoe we saw you in that damn rink!!!!!! (Does He Know) (he doesnt) (he doesnt know he’s a fictional character) (im having an existential crisis) 

summer….. i am speechless. i just…… i let out gasp after gasp….. squeal after squeal….. MOAN AFTER MOAN AND IM SO FUCKING HORNY NOW I FEEL LIKE RIPPING MY SKIN OFF MY BODY i genuinely need to be locked up!!!!!! i told my bestie you updated and she told me « please tell me if they finally fuck » and i was like nahhhh i don’t think they will😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐 i had to run laps around my kitchen again and do some jumping jacks to shake off the monster that wanted to crawl out of me through my MOUTH. i had to put my phone down and crash out every 3 minutes because i just😩 needed😩 a break😩 mind you i ALWAYS ALWAYS skip the tags to not spoil myself I WAS FLABBERGASTED. when i read the tags after reading the chapter….. girl this is an actual list of all my kinks minus the breeding kink THAT’S how fucking ruined i am right now…. you said you thought of me while writing some stuff in the chapter but girl the entire chapter is FOR me you just don’t know😭😭😭😭😭 everytime i thought it couldn’t get worse (better) EVERYTIME YOU MADE HIM DO SOMETHING THAT ABSOLUTELY WRECKS MY ENTIRE REPRODUCTIVE SYSTEM I WILL DIE RIGHT HERE👹👹👹👹👹👹👹

Anyways I HAVE THOUGHTS AS YOU MIGHT EXPECT😃😃😃 let’s go

- « Hoonie my #1. Forever and always. » i’m shedding tears the way he knows exactly where that carving is he doesn’t even have to look. he tries not to think of her :(( he misses her guys he’s GONE

- did he just call her « brat »???????????? does he know i’m insane?????? does he know i’m 100% brat???????? 365 party girl???????

- « Mr. and Mrs. Park » IM GOING TO THROW UP SUMMER THIS IS SO HAWT🤪🤪🤪🤪🤪

- ningning my darling :(

- YASSSS SHE’S WEARING BLACK😍😍🦇🦇🦇 i have JUST the right chanel 90s dress in mind🫦

- you are INSANE describing his body and his rings and his open thighs summer I’m salivating like a rabbid dog AND his MOUTHHHHH Sunghoon actually has no idea how obsessed i am with his mouth

- « especially when you’re supposed to be HIS » AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHRIPPINGMYCLOTHESOFFAHHHHHHHHHHH

- I’m actually surprised sunghoon isn’t the wasted one since he usually is…. maybe because he was too busy staring at her and jake, maybe because he wanted to make sure she wasn’t doing anything too risky????

- HEESEUNG TELLING SUNGHOON HE’S NOT INCLUDED IN THE DICK MEASURING CONTEST LMAOOOOO

- JEALOUS HOON HERE WE FUCKING GOOOOOOO😛😛😛😛😛👅👅👅👅🫦🫦🫦🫦😮‍💨😮‍💨😮‍💨😮‍💨😮‍💨✊🏼✊🏼✊🏼✊🏼✊🏼

- OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG?????????? I MIGHT KNOW WHY JAKE IS PISSED AT SUNGHOON????????? « you hate how it feels huh? » AND SUNGHOON MENTIONING GUILT?????? did sunghoon hook up with jake’s crush or something like that?????🤨🤨🤨 and sunghoon asks jake if he is acting like that because of SOMETHING AND JAKE CUTS HIM OFFFFF

- okay jakey my baby i’m sorry for calling you a snake :(((( speaking up for her like that my darling :(((( i take back everything i said✋🏼😔

- the parallel with the ice skating scene from chapter 12 when she drunkenly says « you got me anyways » i’m devastated she really mourns their friendship

- « I missed…. Miss you so much » THE CHANGE OF TENSE huhihihihihihihihihi my poor baby

- him knowing her exact address guys he is so obsessed with her

- the synecdoque (i believe it is one) of the broken shoe, which really is just an extension of her :((( « you resist for half a second before reluctantly letting go. » « it’s not broken. he LIES, it needs fixing » « i can’t fix it 

- « i don’t want another one, i want this one, i love this one, i don’t want a new one, i just want it back the way it was » and she’s « looking at the shoe but not really » ohhh my ynhoon heart😔😔😔😔

- and it KILLS me because of how he cares for the shoe😭😭😭 he actually uses the shoe to avoid touching her the exact same say « his finger twitches » « gently takes the shoe from you » « he runs his thumb along the cracked leather »

- ughhhhh the way he carries her with ease i’m LEAKING ON THE FLOOORRRRRRR

- BITING BITING BITING 🚨BICEPS 🚨BICEPS 🚨HOONCEPS IM BITING MY PILLOW GIRL

- the way he stops himself from laughing he genuinely loves her fam « a girl with your laugh and your tenderness » im going to collapse i fear

- does she smell….. his perfume in her bed…. did he lie down next to her silently :(((((((((((( i actually know the smell of sunghoon’s perfume and the composition is literally the scents i wear myself it’s so so so fucking good and sexy to me

- i also hate drinking too much for the exact same reasons i feel you girly :(

- the bat emoji in the convo with sunoo :(

- no because sunghoon is SO hyperaware of her and her body and her energy, he knows when she’s nervous even in the middle of a crowd with people shouting and flashes and stuff UGH

- EYYYYYYYYY TELL THOSE OLD SHITS WHO SHE ISSSSS DEFEND YOUR WOMANNNN👅👅👅👅 reducing himself to the accessory goddamn he’s so hot and yes he reminded me of her father with her mom, exactly the relationship she’d want :((((

- Sooha can go fuck herself who tf is she even anyways good riddance

- the way he tightens his grip on her waist and pulls away from sooha’s NASTY FINGERS

- THE ANGSTTTTTT SUMMER!!!!!!!!! i’m BREATHING HARDDDD when he says god you make me so fucking mad I FELT IT IN MY CERVIXXXXXXXX

- THEY’RE KISSINGGJFJFJEJDHSJDBS WHAHT HE FUCKCJCKCJCKCCKKC⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️ SUMMER WHAT THE FUCK⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️

- 🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿

- no because seriously OH MY GOD honestly honestly i did NOT expect them to kiss let alone FUCK only ten hours into the trip😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 they’re so fucking thirsty i’m SCREAMING

- THE DESPERATION MAN HE’S TRYING SO HARD TO RECOLLECT HIMSELF BY HOLDING ONTO HER FACE OMFGGGGGGGGG

- « you’re not thinking » guys this is the first time her brain shuts down like?????????

- honestly i dream of seeing sunghoon shirtless literally every second of every day

- HE BITES HER HE BITES HER SUMMER I FUCKING LOVE YOU OMFGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG IM GOING TO BUST ONE

- big dick hoon😔🚶🏻‍♀️ i would go CRAZY style on it

- BIG BOOBS LOVER HOON LETS FUCKING GOOOOOOOO😍😍😍😍😍😍😍 represent✊🏼😔

- LMAOOOO FINGERING HERSELF SHE IS UNLEASHEDDDDD GUYS IM JDZKZKSNZNZ

- please summer just tone it down when describing how big his body is i will go absolutely fucking insane i want him to headlock me until i turn PURPLE LIKE I KNOW HE COULD CARRY ME SO FUCKING EASILY SHIBALLL’L’L’

- DID HE JUST⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️ DID HE JUST spANK HER⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️ (ticks another one of my kinks✅)

- DID HE JUST⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️ DID HE JUST spIT ON HER⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️ (ticks another one of my kinks✅)

- you just HAD TO HAVE HIM REMOVE HER PANTIES WITH HIS FANGS IM SPEECHLESS SUMMER IM FUCKING SPIRALING HE WANTS TO DEVOUR HER WHOLE PLEASE😭😭😭😭

- i’m actually scared because IS THIS him restraining himself?????? bruh🗿🗿🗿🗿🗿

- i’m gonna throw up

- « He smirks and licks your wetness off his fingers slowly, his tongue dragging along his knuckle in such a cruel way » 😐😐😐😐😐😐😐🤚🏼😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂

- i’m gonna throw up

- no you don’t understand how obsessed i am with them kissing like…. it’s so fucking easy now…. he just grabs her face and EATS it like🫦🫦🫦🫦 his lips🫦🫦🫦🫦 i would want him to kiss me all fucking day

- bro is so desperate he’s willing to tell the entire event to fuck off and spend the weekend drilling her into the mattress😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂 he doesn’t gaf😂😂😂😂😂😂😂 i’m so fucking horny for him😂😂😂😂😂😂

- “I could do this all night, keep you right here, legs open, crying on my tongue until you learn how to fucking behave.”😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐 he’s a eater😐😐😐😐😐😐 bye🤚🏼

- i’m gonna throw up

- HOW TF DOES HE KNOW HOW TO DO ALL THAT SHIT WHAT THE FUCK MAN😭😭😭😭😭 WHAT THE FUCK

- his hand….. looks s-small????????? when he’s holding it?????? i’m about to cry summer i’m about to cry and scream and throw up and rip my eyelashes and my hair and claw at my face and climb the wall and roll on the ceiling like the mf exorcist girl

- 💢💢💢💢🐱

- okay i said my breeding kink wasn’t summoned in this chapter BUT I MEAN SHE WANTS HIM TO COME INSIDE HER SOOOOOOOO🤪🤪🤪🤪🤪🤪🤪🤪🤪 im gonna throw up

- « Why would I beg for something that’s already mine?” he whispers. » AHHHHHHHHHHHHRIPPINGMYINSIDESOUTAHHHHHHHHHH

- bro🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣 tf in this fucking chapter🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣

- the way he breaks the headboard….. i wanna be a headboard

- « i know you can take it » is so fucking EVIL how many times he tells her😭😭😭😭😭 like that’s fucking hot but also kinda supportive he knows he’s big af but i feel like he also says it like he knows she has to fit, like ofc she fits him, OF COURSE SHE’S THE PERFECT FIT😭😭😭😭

- the condom moment…. finger fucking his cum inside of her…………… it’s so so fucking filthy i’m going to bash my head into the wall you should have put up a breeding kink tag because they def got it both and i’m eating my fingers

- NO BECAUSE he loves calling her mrs park or his fiancée and he LOVES the idea of her being his HE IS SO FUCKING POSSESSIVE IM GOING FUCKING MENTAL

- High sex drive girlies represent✋🏼😔😔😔

- « They could set this whole fucking hotel on fire and I’d still keep you here. I’ll fuck you all year if I have to. » DOES V’HE KNOW IM INSANEENENENENENENENENE

OKAY OKAY summer i’m INCAPABLE of thinking straight right now…. now about them kissing, i think they wouldn’t be able to fuck without kissing tbh. about the pace, i was surprised it all happened so early into the trip but when i read the chap a second time, i realized it makes sense ; sunghoon is definitely feeling things and he’s starting to acknowledge that, and his besties are also there to call him out on his denial. i also feel like the events at the party definitely put back something inside of him ; softness. Hearing her tell him she misses him, it always shakes you even more so when the feeling is mutual. The little hoon inside of him peeked his head a little and took care of her. brought her home safely, bothered to remove her makeup and dress her up into her pyjamas, putting painkillers on the bedside table (the small things). and somehow she knows, and somehow she even smells his perfume. and then in the plane, he’s soft again, he wants her close and can’t stop himself. And THATS why i think a kiss makes sense now. He’s starting to lose control, he’s starting to soften.

The way they kiss…… he’s holding onto her face. he’s trying to stop himself from kissing her but he also just wants to simply feel. « It doesn’t mean anything. » He’s contemplating. Making a decision. And then he thinks fuck it, i want her. i want this. i’ve been wanting this for so long, i’m tired of fighting and then he SNAPS. and once they kiss, OF COURSE they cannot STOP. because it feels so fucking good, because a kiss can tell a thousand words. They grab at each other desperately, almost as if they’ll die if they don’t, and he kisses her almost like he wants to get to her SOUL. and when he’s not all over her lips, he’s licking her neck, her collarbones, her breasts, her thighs. That man is STARVING for her. She’s water and he’s been walking in the desert for days.

He keeps saying that she’s greedy and insatiable, but so is he, he keeps giving it to her. As he said, he could do that all night, all day, all year, and i’m pretty sure he means all his life. (his stamina🥵🥵🥵) He’s enthralled because she’s as freaky and thirsty as him. He’s willing to let all his responsibilities go to hell, he dgaf if they get caught by ningning, even interrupted, he keeps moving into her. He dgaf what his dad might do if they don’t show up to their own event. And when he finally finds the strength to pull out of her, he grabs her back, touches her again, grabs her face and kisses her, because it’s so HARD to let go of her. And that fucking « it doesn’t mean anything » while kissing her oh my GOD it’s probably the thing that has wrecked me the most in that chapter. boy i KNOW you’re not really telling HER that, you’re telling yourself that while your actions are COMPLETELY betraying your words!!!!! who the FUCK does something so obsessed romantic when they’re not supposed to gaf???? and they way he slaps her butt as she’s leaving like HELLO WHY ARE YOU GUYS ACTING LIKE A COUPLE I’M GOING😂😂😂😂😂

anyways….. she sees herself on the mirror after a long time…. you mean little yn who was in love with little hoon is happy and thriving??? that dick is bringing people back to life😭😭😭 i’m REALLY REALLYYYY curious as to how the rest of the trip is going to look like….. (ᵢ ʷₐₙₜ ₜₕₑₘ ₜₒ ₕₐᵥₑ ₛₗₒʷ ₚₐₛₛᵢₒₙₐₜₑ ₛₑₓ ʷₕᵢᶜₕ ʷᵢₗₗ ₐᵦₛₒₗᵤₜₑₗʸ ₐₙᵈ ᶜₒₘₚₗₑₜₑₗʸ ᵣᵤᵢₙ ₛᵤₙᵍₕₒₒₙ) and oh my god the way he’s not going to be able to keep his hands to himself…. oh my god the way she’s going to LIMP into the event…… i’m sorry if there’s some stuff i haven’t noticed but my mind is so fucking out of here rn girl BUT i’m SO SO EXCITED SUMMER YOU ARE JUST AMAZING!!!! writing so much and keeping it consistent, entertaining, not redundant????? truly truly really good my queen. i’ll be here for the next chapter as usual, take your precious time and be healthy🖤

- your flutterbug🦇 (i saw your little love letter post and all i can say is i love you?)

oh my beloved bat 🦇 anon… .°(ಗдಗ。)°. how do i even begin….. where do i begin…..

I've just finished reading the new chapter and... Wow just wow it's so good, you blew off my socks... How do you manage to eat EVERY. SINGLE. TIME.?

🙏 if I could marry this fic I would (with your approval first of course) but really... Damn you made a full 5 course meal I'll bow if I have to

Also my freaky side was like... "I'll beg for you", searching up how to be a fictional character in Google🫦 (but shhh that definitely didn't happen)

Anyway thank you for cooking up another scrumptious fic and like Felix said you be "cooking like a chef I'm a 5 star Michelin" frfr.

Good luck with writing and your other stuff as well🥰

ohhhhhhhhh every time i think i’ve hit the limit of how sweet you guys can be someone sends me something like this 😭 ohhh i’m framing this one you guys.