#cf personal

Decided to name my Pawmi after my hamster, Cleo, as soon as the design released, but the night I was set to pick up the game, my hamster’s health took a steep downward turn… she was older and slowing down visibly, but I figured I had at least a little more time…

She passed a few days later and tbh, the game kept me sane during the few days she was in the process of dying. Got to be with her in her last moments which was terrifying, but I like to think my presence was a comfort.

Well, apparently the game has a feature where once you max out a Pokémon’s friendship, it gains a title, so, out of the blue, sent out my Pawmot and the game says “Go! Cleo, the Reliable Partner” and I BAWLED.

So yeah, Pawmi is one of my new all time fave lines and I’m glad Cleo’s spirit gets to live on

As much love as I have for my old username (that I’ve owned since like 2008), I felt it was pretty outdated at this point and I wanted something I felt was a little more clever and current.

Like he’s been punished and abused his whole life for circumstances out of his control and yet he still maintains his kind heart and fighting spirit. Then he meets this rag tag group who he learns to love and who support him and fight alongside him and there’s this moment where he’s brought to his lowest point and he’s breaking down but then his resolve just Hardens and he’s like “He took everything from me... but I’m going to steal it back.” And my feral brain started playing the Persona awakening music like YES BOY GO GO GO.

He gets SUCH a satisfying and cathartic conclusion too— heist shenanigans, takes down his abuser, learns to let people love him for who he is, holds to his ideals but like those ideals include making explosives for his mob boss leader friend and threatening the dude who tries to flirt with his boyfriend, and is so so soft but in a “I can mess you up if I so choose :)” sort of way.