#ceaum

You wont find many people that take your abuse like I do. :P

There are few days i remember clearly. Or events in that day that make it clear. But it is rare for me to remember most of the day as if I was yesterday. One of the days i remember correctly is The first day i was with you after you asked me out. That whole day was bright. i woke up with the hugest smile on my face and it was the fastest I've ever gotten ready. I was so ready to be in school. I was ready to see you. And when i got to school you were there in Ms. Benzies room and I almost ran to that room. And when I saw you, I warmed up. It started in my chest, and spread like wildfire threw my body. And I don't think I could have been any happier with my life as I was that day. And I didn't concentrate all day. I couldn't! the first kiss where you misses my lips and kissed the corner of my mouth. And While I was siting in my first class I giggled a little and the person next to me looked at me.  And Class flew by. And i rushed to you when class was done. And then we had our first real kiss. With lips touching and oh god i was in heaven. Your lips were so soft and warm. So loving. As the day progressed, our kisses progressed. And by the end of the school day, we were making out in front of the school and got in trouble for it. And i went home and plopped down on my bed and texted you. It was the best day for me. And So much has happened since then. Very important things. And Usually, when I'm feeling down and depressed and i have a knife in my hand, I stop. And I think about that day. Like i did tonight. And Sometimes, I get this warm feeling in my chest. And I can remember how your kisses feel. And how it feels when you rub your hands down my body. And I can hear you tell me you love me. And that warmth once again spreads threw my body. Consuming everything in its path. And I feel good for a few minutes. I forget my depression. I forget what has been done. I forget the hurt. Other times it doesn't work as well.. I still think of you positively. Even when everyone else doesn't. And It's because I love you. And I don't want you to be down, or lonely, or anything but happy. I miss you. And You told me you missed me to.. Even if it is just a little bit. There is a part of you that misses me.. And I love that.. I love you. And I'm here for you. <3

Don't you love thought nights when you sleep with someone you like. And Every time you wake up, they are snuggling with you. <3

I bought cam his Christmas present! I'm pretty sure he will LOVE it :D