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I genuinely fear talking here, although fear isn't the right word, nor does it have the expression I hope to convey with it, but fear it is. I saw ppl fight and act quite silly for the simplest and munden opinions and what's not, and I, though I may not show it publicly, am a loud and opinionated bird who, in the comfort of hell itself will scream when actors of lack come to knock on my bones.

But, the privacy of the house I adore as well. I won't say that I have illness of thoughts, except which was born from ignorance. And I do seek the cure for now, and then to the grave.

As I said, I just adore learning, and because of that, I just hate, loathe even, witch hunting for the sake of it. Ppl are focusing on policing each other like wolves on thin wires, which stops themselves from stating whatever in that noggin. And I quite obviously, hate such nonsense. Ppl should focus on doing good and speaking good rather than hunting those who speak with the tongue of right, if they are wrong, then correct with care.

Each creature seeks good. It's just the definition of good that changes in an individual level at best, and on a group level at worst. If said change in morals is negative, that is.

And that scares me, throwing me into something akin to pure ill witted dread. Yet, I do want to talk and chant, and tbh I think this rant and the one about aot is my way of easing into it all. I won't say I will go talk about serious stuff or about my personal life simply cuz I like to keep my privacy. Thank you very much. And I, as weird as it sounds to say, have ppl that might look at my work and go sweet field on m', so I wish to not put a precedent that i will chit-chat and clip rings together.

Talking : breakfast, deeply personal problems that need to stay private for your own good, cat on a wall that tells you where my second cousin removed from the left lives, that one time a bird stole my grandmother after she laughed so hard that she floated to the cotton candy moon. I genuinely don't want that, I don't want to sit a line for me to cross later. Like a duck [ well known bread addicts/lh ]

Ofc talking about some stuff is fine, and probably good for all of us. Yet I do think there is a clear line with what should stay private for your own sake, and what you can talk about freely. It's just that this very true fact for safety is mixed with ppl policing each other for frankly silly stuff most of the time. And all of that is souring the whole well for me, turns it rotten even.

what adds to it is simply cuz I do want to talk, and I have really cool friends and acquaintances because of nerd-ing out like a rabid raccoon, so I know me yapping here will be worth it from experience. But ahhhhhhhhh, some ppl are sweet as a coal, and are fun to chat with even if once here and there. Small talks are good for your teeth after all, but then there are those who just idk, look between invisible lines? I just hate drama for the sake of drama. So, amma ease myself into this can of worms. I don't hope for ppl to feel like I owe em something, cuz I don't owe ya something, too. Equality on principle of the broken chair.

Mm-hmm and I literally don't have it in me to talk about fandom stuff, I guess? Idk my person is much angst and horror adorned then my art. Courtesy of my fascinations. So if I did, I would probably talk about AU' I didn't draw yet. Which all are not as sweet as the [ mini cookies ], I will let the masses decide on this one.