#carter mumbles

i thought my self confidence was getting better until my mom basically said i would disappointe her and that im a bad kid nd yelled at me wh en i went quiet and im sorry i have no drive and i cant do things right im  really sorry

it bothers me to hell nd back that im not in the same group as my friends but i'm not gonna put myself in a situation that'll just make me more and more upset and like no one cares abt me. at least now i can just tell myself theyre not talkin to me bc theyre busy or doing other things because i dont know what they’re doin all the time so i can get away with that

that slowly upsetting feeling that your friends care more about people than you and the realization that being bothered by that is shitty and probably a reason that they don’t care as much about you. because you’re an awful & petty person.