#caringhurts

Stop caring about the people who don't give a fuck about you. Stop putting them before you put yourself. Stop over looking your self - respect just because you care too much , or are just worried about them. When you put people before your self respect , they don't give you anything back but go behind your back and talk shit about you instead. The people who actually care will show it to you no matter what. At times it feels like this world needs better people , be good , be kind . And when you actually are the sweetest and kindest person , they walk all over you. Let your guard down for once and then it's done. You're gone. Hurt. Once Again. And then comes a point you're like fuck everyone . And that's the point I'm back at again. I'm putting my guard up again. I'll still be the same person I am , but I'm not going after anyone anymore. I come first. I'll be there for you, i've got your back, but I'm just not coming after you. You wanna stay , then stay, i'll be the bestest friend one can have ,you wanna leave. The door's open , you can show yourself out.

you can inform what/how you feel but you can't order it to disappear it's called being human, not a god . . #caringhurts #feelingshappen #itllgowhenitgoes

And the thing is that I cared so much for you, it scared me. And for caring too much, I guess I got hurt. But now that I think about it, I feel ridiculous. Caring too much makes you vulnerable, weak. And I fucking hate it, because I let my guard down. I let you in and I didn't know about the consequences. One of them was of you leaving. Or changing. Or realising what I actually am. I was scared of you leaving. But now you're actually gone, and it hurts. I just want to take it all back. I just want to rip myself apart. I just want to stop thinking. Stop feeling, because it gets me nowhere. I can't go to sleep without thinking about you. I can't wake up without you being the first thing that pops in my mind. It's ridiculous, I know. #caringhurts