#cardiotrim

so i’m back to try some more darebee stuff. i took a break for reasons. doing this one with andy to ... hopefully motivate the both of us. 

link to darebee cardiotrim workout  

part 1 + bonus go 5 sets of: 40 march steps, 20 high knees, nonstop + 60 high knees

part 2, 3 sets of: to fail (10, 16, 12) push ups 10ct pushup planks 40 punches 20ct elbow plank 20ct raised leg plank 20ct side plank

my arms feel nice and tired. the to fail push ups were new and challenging. 

i know i talked about running my first 10k this year but i doubt that’s going to happen. i just haven’t been into things this month and it sucks but it is what it is. i’m going back to the gym tomorrow for active class and well, there’s always darebee every day. 

i got the stuff for the zombiesrun virtual race but it turns out andy forgot to even sign up. i spent $70 to do this thing on my own... great. i’ll likely run the 5k and try the 10k but not kick myself over trying to jog the whole thing. i’ll accept walking some of it. 

we’ll see. 

i guess i just feel really negative right now but i feel like i have to put this somewhere:

i see my reflection (face, body) and hate it. i look down at my fat (stomach, arms, body) and hate it. even taking stupid selfies now. i’m so conscious of just...fat. and that never really used to bother me all that much but coupled with feeling myself slowing down and having trouble doing simple things, it’s so miserable. i’d say at this rate it’s like 75% vanity and 25% health concerns. vanity includes looking good and wanting to fit into shit i used to fit into, right? lol. i’m almost afraid to weigh myself at the gym tomorrow.

it needs to be done though. if i don’t know, i wont be able to set a clear goal (not that i’ve ever been able to achieve losing any weight, says the dark pessimistic voice in the back of my head) to complete in the first place.