#captureyourgrief2018

Capture Your Grief - Day 29 - Release • There is always a constant swirling of emotions going on inside me - especially while experiencing a rainbow pregnancy. Things come and go or occasionally they sit with me for days or weeks. I have to acknowledge these emotions and process them in order to not feel so stuck. • I know over the course of this month I have worked through and released many emotions at different times, practicing yoga once a week and doing my daily relaxation as part of my hypnobirthing has only helped with this process. • I will be forever holding on to and releasing emotions, sometimes they can come out in unexpected ways which is when I know it’s time to sit in a space and really give myself a chance to feel. • Even though I have struggled to post and write I always find this project beneficial, it is thought provoking and enables me to share my thoughts and feelings while so many other people around the world are doing exactly the same thing. It connects the loss community and allows us to find other parents experiencing similar emotions. • #captureyourgrief #whathealsyou #captureyourgrief2018 https://www.instagram.com/p/Bpg9zffnNmm/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1neff9c8hjq51

Capture Your Grief - Day 28 - Shadow + Light • I think every single person is different - none of us are exactly the same. Every persons grief journey is going to be totally different. • What I felt and need to do along my journey could be completely different to someone else. • I think that their are many things that could be considered unhealthy ways to process all of your emotions. You ultimately find things that help you to move through your journey anything that makes you feel better or able to cope especially in those early days. You need to do what feels right for you regardless of whether or not it could be considered healthy or unhealthy. • YOU are the only persons who knows exactly what YOU need. • #captureyourgrief #captureyourgrief2018 #whathealsyou https://www.instagram.com/p/BpeLG8XnH0z/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=4it7tpt53246

Capture Your Grief - Day 27 - Memory • Zoe - my beautiful baby girl who just loved the water. It was absolutely her favorite time of day and she just loved flashing her cheeky smile to us before during and after her baths. I have no doubt that the bath exhausted her as she would always go straight to sleep afterwards. She must have loved the feelings of weightlessness that allowed her to wriggle around and move her limbs in a effortless manner. Something she was just not able to do with her severely weak muscle tone when not in the water. We have so many bath time photos and videos throughout her short life and I think they are my fondest memories to look back on. • Rory - my tiny yet perfect baby boy. Amazingly delicate in all of your features. It was a joy to feel your tiny butterfly movements and shower you with love. You lived a beautiful life nestled inside of me. • #captureyourgrief #whathealsyou #captureyourgrief2018 • Photo credit @felicitydunnphotog https://www.instagram.com/p/BpbPf9fnaAT/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1gh2ool2604ol

Capture Your Grief - Day 26 - Beauty • In an endless garden of flowers I will always pick you - A.J Lawless • #whathealsyou #captureyourgrief #captureyourgrief2018 https://www.instagram.com/p/BpbPbbaHvIf/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1uez8x0qv0ype

Capture Your Grief - Day 24 - Courage • I absolutely allow people to see my vulnerability, maybe not all the time but I certainly do not hold back in how I am feeling, when it is just all so much, when I am hurting and in so much pain in the journey or grief. • I had to find the courage the past few days to write again, to confront these topics because I was too emotional, I was overwhelmed, I didn’t know what I needed to do to surrender, I just needed to sit with my emotions, to feel them, work through them. • My journey is part of me and I feel as though I owe it to my children to share their stories. The beautiful moments and happy memories as well as my struggles with my grief. • This openness can maybe help others who are navigating similar circumstances, let them know they are not alone. That all of their thoughts and feelings are valid. If I can help just one person by sharing my journey it will be all worth it. • #captureyourgrief #whathealsyou #captureyourgrief2018 https://www.instagram.com/p/BpbPVGSn3AL/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=obd8s52dv5ye

Capture Your Grief - Day 25 - Who • Friends, family members - old and new, wonderful humans whom I have never met but have connected with via social media and of course Scott. • Scott has been my rock, we are navigating this journey together and separately as we walk through our lives after loss. Our bond is special and allows us to be so in tune with each other so we can hold space for each other in our sometimes differing emotions. • My girl gang, my tribe, the women who are always there for me and allow me to talk about my children and who remember them with me have made all of the difference, I am so thankful and lucky to have such special humans in my life to support me. • #whathealsyou #captureyourgrief #captureyourgrief2018 https://www.instagram.com/p/BpbPWiIn9Xb/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=8ed5grznr47u

Capture Your Grief - Day 22 - Empathy • Empathy is a beautiful thing when those give you the space and compassion to tell your story, to share your inner most thoughts and feelings, to hear what you are saying and truly listen. To not fix but listen, hold space for you and feel as your are feeling. • I don’t think you have to be a true empath to allow a friend to confide in you. I think you can show your support and love by holding space and truly listening. Not fixing or doing but just listening and acknowledging that their situation is agonising, painful, hurtful and that you are experiencing those emotions for them and with them. That you recognise that their situation is unfair. • I think if more people were open to listening and not fixing it would be even easier for those grieving to open up with their thoughts and feelings. • #captureyourgrief #whathealsyou #captureyourgrief2018 https://www.instagram.com/p/BpbPSGQHill/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1fek14w8dpqi7

Capture Your Grief - Day 23 - Mortality • I honestly haven’t given my own death that much thought. It doesn’t play on my mind, it isn’t something I am fearful of. It just not something that occurs to me to think about. • What does jump out at me is this beautiful depiction by Marshall Ramsey when Barbra Bush passed away earlier this year... When I do pass away I will finally be reunited with Zoe and Rory again. They will be waiting to embrace me and I to embrace them. • #captureyourgrief #whathealsyou #captureyourgrief2018 https://www.instagram.com/p/BpbPTN5HweO/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=130fcvbgwuey2