written for asl brothers week 2022 / @officiallyaslâ
Day 1: Kisses
title: without you by my side
summary: It was a simple dine and dash, but when they turn around, Luffy isn't there. Ace finds him in Edge Town and discovers something about himself, whether he realizes it or not.
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They canât find Luffy.
It was a simple dine and dash, something to cheer Ace up because he was in a foul mood â today is a day of celebration, the day the Pirate King died â and they were running, weaving through crowds, and when they turned around, Luffy wasnât there.
Theyâve been looking for hours. They still havenât found him.
Goa isnât particularly large, if you take High Town out of it even less so, but it has winding roads and buildings stacked together, crowds too big for too small streets, alleys everywhere, even in places youâd never look, and, as afternoon turns to dusk and then to night, very few lanterns to light the streets, and scum crawls from their gutters and into bars to raise a ruckus.
And they canât find Luffy.
Aceâs grip on his pipe is tight, has been for a while, and itâs taking everything he has to not go barreling through the streets and smash something, anything, to release the pent up tension. It wouldnât work, he knows, because it wouldn't solve anything, but he still wants to destroy something. Sabo is the one he relies on for sense, to remain calm, and even he has been looking out of his wits ever since the last of the sun disappeared beneath the horizon.
âLetâs split up,â Sabo says suddenly, when they once again come onto a main road. âIf heâs running around, then weâll have more of a chance to run into him if we go in opposite directions.â
âOkay. Letâs do that. Iâll go left,â Ace points his pipe down the road curling into Edge Town, âand you go right.â
Something apprehensive twitches onto Saboâs face. âAce â â
âIâll go left,â Ace repeats through gritted teeth. âAnd you go right. Weâll see each other in two hours at the base. If he's not here, he might be there."
A moment longer of conflict whirling behind Saboâs eyes, and then he sighs. âFine. But donât do anything stupid.â
Anger twitches at Aceâs brow and he scowls. âIâm not dumb, Sabo. Weâre looking for Luffy.â
âI didnât mean â â
âIâll see you at the tree house,â Ace raises his voice over Saboâs and briskly runs the other way.
It smarts, that his best friend, his brother, would think of him like that, as if Ace would risk his brothersâ lives, their safety, for a stupid fight. It hurts even more to know why Sabo thinks so, and that he canât ever set it right.
Ace doesnât dwell on it.
X
Where Mid Town has even pavers, some less kept but still pretty good, Edge town is a mess of cobblestones and broken tiles. Itâs a pain to run on, always at risk of twisting an ankle, but Ace has traversed the shadier parts of Edge Town often enough to know how to get through it without injury. First he'll search the streets heâs most familiar with, then heâll move onto alleys and the most dangerous parts of the town, but Ace hopes fiercely he wonât find Luffy there, and quickly shuts down the horrifying possibilities that spring to mind of what couldâve happened if Luffy did wander into those.
âLuffy!â he calls, more of a hiss, because heâs trying to be quiet. The last thing he wants is to draw drunkardsâ ire, doesnât want to be hindered in his increasingly desperate search for their little brother.
Ace turns right, onto a familiar road, one heâs crossed a dozen times before, since the age of seven, since his talk with his grandfather, and his heart stutters when he sees a familiar figure standing in the middle of it. Yellow light from an open bar door falls across Luffyâs lone figure, shadows even darker at its edges, almost as if theyâre waiting to swallow Luffy whole. Thereâs a glare set like stone on Luffyâs face. Itâs unfamiliar, because Luffy has never looked so enraged. Heâs dripping wet, hair and clothes doused, and the familiar, bitter smell of beer wafts down the street. It takes Ace a moment to identify the shimmers on Luffy as glass shards, and when he looks closer, he can see scrapes all over Luffyâs face and arms. Some of them are bleeding.
Thereâs few times Ace has felt rage coil as tight as it has now, but it winds and winds and Aceâs pipe creaks under the strength of his fingers.
âTake it back,â Luffy says, fierce and steady, and it makes Ace pause. He has never heard Luffy sound like that before.
Someone laughs. A deep voice cut by raspy breaths. Ace canât see him, but then thereâs a large shadow that gets cast over Luffy, and a man Ace recognizes leans out.
âWhat do you want me to take back?â he sneers mockingly. âThat itâs good the Pirate Kingâs blood has been wiped off the earth? Or that any spawn he had deserves to be boiled to death?â
Huh?
What?
âAll of it,â Luffy growls â growls, and it sounds so close to Ace when heâs angry that it scares him.
The man laughs again. âWhy should I? A runt like you comes in here and tells us to shut up, you think you can take us on, is that it? Weâre just telling the truth!â Cheers and jeers come from behind him. âGet lost, pipsqueak. Youâre not the only Roger fan around these parts that weâve taken care of.â
âNot until you take it back!â Luffy yells.
Is Luffy really â ?
"Iâve had about enough of you. The Pirate Kingâs a piece of trash who deserves to rot in the ground. Anyone who shares his blood should be ashamed of being alive and do us all a favor and drown themselves. If you donât like hearing it, go home crying to mommy about it, and do it quick, âcause my charitable mood ainât holding out.â
Is Luffy trying to defend Ace?
And then Luffy scowls, curls his lip back, and spits: âYouâre a dickface.â And Ace wishes for the first time that his own mouth wasnât so foul, and that Luffy didnât copy everything he does, because thatâs something straight out of Aceâs vocabulary.
Red splotches of anger mix with the pink tint of inebriation. Ace sees it coming before the man even reaches for his gun. Blood roars in his ears as he makes a mad dash forward, draws his pipe back as far as he can to gain as much force and momentum as possible, and bashes the manâs face in with a well-timed jump and well-practiced swing. The man goes flying back into the bar, crashing into tables and breaking through the wood, several people crushed under him or knocked over. Luffyâs eyes are wide and surprised, lips moving to form Aceâs name, but Ace can already see the rage drawing across the bar-goers, knows things wonât end well â they didnât the last time something like this happened â so he takes Luffyâs hand and makes a break for it.
Ace knows intimately which corners to turn, which roads to take and walls to climb, to get away from angry drunkards as fast as possible. He never lets go of Luffyâs hand.
âA â Ace!â Luffy calls, stumbling over his feet, but Ace hauls him up before he can fall.
âKeep up, Luffy!â
Theyâre out of breath by the time they slow down, crossed straight through Edge Town and the Terminal, the forest welcoming them with hushed greens and fresh, cold, night air. The forest is bright where the town is dark, the moon and starsâ light able to filter through.
Ace doesnât say anything. Not even when Luffyâs panting breaths start hitching and he presses his lips together in a tell-tale sign that heâs trying his best not to cry. Instead, he takes Luffyâs hand again, far gentler this time, and guides him through the forest.
âIâm sorry,â Luffy sniffles after a few minutes. âThey were saying mean things about Ace, and IâŚâ
âShut up, Luffy,â Ace says without any heat, but his little brother doesnât speak anymore, after that.
They stop by a small river that runs clean through the middle of Mt. Corvo. They learned long ago â only a few months, but it feels like years, the time theyâve spent together â that not letting a Devil Fruit user drown all comes down to the tightness of your grip and your ability to swim. The part they chose is shallow, but Ace makes sure to hold his brother tight as he dunks him fully into the coiling, cold water.
It takes a while longer to pick all the tiny glass shards out of Luffyâs hair. Luffy's clothes are wet instead of soaking by the time Ace gets the last one out. Luffy doesn't shiver. He doesn't whine.
Ace isn't sure why that bothers him.
X
The walk should have calmed him down, thatâs what walks are supposed to do, but Luffy keeps sniffling, and his heart wonât stop hammering, blood wonât stop ringing in his ears, and by the time they reach the treehouse, the only thing the walk has cleared is his anger and instead replaced it with the dread and fear heâd tried to ignore, and thereâs a queasiness taking hold of his limbs because Luffy almost died. He almost died because of something as stupid as defending Ace.
And nothing, nothing, could have ever set that right.
He lets Luffy climb the ladder first. He never does that, usually a scuffle and a dash to see who gets to go first, but Luffy doesnât question him, instead climbs the way up without a word.
Ace wonât, can't, let Luffy out his sight. At least not tonight. Maybe not tomorrow, either.
When his head peeks through the latch, only a few moments after Luffyâs gone inside, he sees Luffy huddled by their beds, turned away, and itâs obvious heâs crying, but heâs still not making a sound. It hurts â because itâs all on Ace.
He doesnât know what possesses him to cross the room and wrap Luffy in a hug, but thatâs what he does. He sits down next to Luffy and draws him close, tucks Luffyâs head under his chin, and maybe itâs to ease his own mind, that he wants to hold his brother close, but the relief that Luffyâs still alive crashes into him like a flood and leaves him feeling boneless and, embarrassingly, wanting to cry along with Luffy.
âIâm sorry, Ace,â Luffy whimpers again. âI got lost, ân I was looking for you, but then these guys were saying mean things about you, and I was so angry⌠Are you mad at me, AceâŚ?â
And Ace canât -
Heâs only seen these things from afar, the movements foreign to him, but he cups Luffyâs head in his hand and places a kiss on his forehead. Luffy stills against him. Ace carefully places another, softer kiss, to Luffyâs temple, and with a sniffle, Luffy relaxes and nuzzles his head against Aceâs hand. Ace's heart swells, his chest feels ready to burst with warmth and guilt and how indescribably happy he is that Luffy is still there. His other hand comes up to cup the other side of Luffy's face, and Ace presses a kiss to his little brotherâs cheek, then to the other, and then another kiss, and another, and another, and soon it feels almost desperate, like Ace needs this, needs to do this. And Luffy lets him. His tears have stopped, the tracks have dried, his hands are buried in Aceâs shirt.
Thereâs no words Ace can say, no words he can think of, so all he can do is hold his little brother as close as he can and hope Luffy understands.
X
Luffy falls asleep not long after, curled up against Ace still, Aceâs arms wrapped securely around him. Immediately after Luffyâs breathing evens out, thereâs a creak of the floorboards, and Ace tenses, but relaxes just as quickly when he sees Saboâs standing by the latch.
âHey,â Ace greets and winces at how rough his voice sounds. âHave you been here long?â
âLong enough,â Sabo says. He looks a little lost, but Ace canât figure out why. âWhat happened?â
âScum from Edge Town. Luffy picked a fight with them. Got there just in time, so I took him straight here. Sorry.â
âThatâs alright,â Sabo replies easily and seats himself on Luffyâs bed, the middle one of the three futons lined close together. His eyes run over Luffy, over Ace, too, and Ace has to fight off any embarrassment.
âWhat?â he mumbles.
It takes Sabo a moment to respond, and when he does, it sound like heâs struggling, but Ace doesnât know if itâs that heâs struggling to say it at all or struggling to find the words. âIâm sorry. About before. I didnât mean to implyâŚâ
âItâs fine.â
âAceâŚâ
âReally, Sabo. Itâs fine. I get it. I donât care.â
Sabo looks conflicted, a small frown tugging at his brows, but he lets it go nonetheless, and Ace is grateful for that, at least.
Silence settles over them. It's not a comfortable one, but it's certainly not uncomfortable, either. Even at night, the forest is alive, and leaves rustle gently next to them, their treehouse nestled so high in the tallest tree they could find. The day slowly catches up to them, and soon Ace, and then Sabo, yawns.
âItâs late,â Sabo says in a bit of a mumble. âWe should go to bed.â
âYeah.â Ace nods slowly, and tries to maneuver without dislodging Luffy. It's harder than he thought it'd be, and he has to shift back up to get into a better position.
âAce.â
Ace hums at the call of his name and looks at his brother, and he stills.
Thereâs a mischievous, teasing grin on Saboâs face that never spells anything good for Ace, because his brother is a schemer and likes to press all the right buttons to make Ace feel embarrassed. He leans in, presenting his cheek and tapping a finger against it, and he cheekily asks: âDonât I get a goodnight kiss?â
Aceâs face flushes red. So Sabo had seen â
âPiss off,â he grumbles, looking away.
Sabo snickers, the bastard.
âThatâs too bad,â he says, and, oh, Ace hates the gleefulness thatâs seeped into that tone. âGuess Iâll have to do without a kiss.â
He sighs, faking deep, weary disappointment, but thereâs no hiding the mirth dancing in his bright eyes.
Ace wonât let him have this one.
He leans in quick and gives Saboâs cheek a rough peck.
âThereâs your goodnight kiss. Sleep tight, asshole.â
But his brother doesnât respond, and when Ace looks again, he notes with victorious delight that heâs frozen in place, hand half-way to his cheek, and heâs turned far redder than Ace ever will.
Itâs Aceâs turn to snicker.
âGood night, âBo,â he says sweetly, and lies down on his side, Luffy still in his arms. He steals one last glance at Sabo, whose mouth is moving like a fishâs on dry land, and he closes his eyes while he tries to suppress a laugh.
Itâs a few minutes later that Sabo settles next to them, and for the first time that day, Ace can truly relax.
He falls asleep with a smile.













