Not The End
Calladashi Week 2, Day 8
Vampire AU this time. I literally just finished this, so Iâll go back and fix any errors tomorrow.
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So this is what dying felt like.
 Robertâs body felt like it was on fire, and his lungs were struggling to inhale air. Did he lie to him? Was this all just a trick? Was he really dying? The world around him began to grow dark, and he was afraid.
âSssh,â the vampire cooed as he gently brushed his face with a cold hand. âDonât be afraid, this is not the end.â He just nodded weakly in response, and let his eyes slipped closed.
 And then just like everyone said, his life began to flash before, and he looked back to all the moments that led up to now.
 Xxx
 Looking back, it was pretty obvious that there was something different about Tadashi Hamada. He is a very pretty thing; deep brown eyes, high cheekbones, raven black hair, and pale porcelain skin. Too pale to be healthy, but Robert thought it would be rude to point it out. The first time he saw him was during a late night in the labs. Robert knew instantly that he wasnât a student, however it didnât seem to stop this newcomer from making use of the schoolâs spare parts.
 As though he could hear what he was thinking, the pale boy put down his tools and turned sharply towards, watching him with a piercing gaze. A tap on his arm shook him out of his thoughts though.
 âHey Professor C,â Fred greeted him casually. âI see youâve noticed Tadashi already, I hope you donât mind that Iâve brought him along.â
 âI donât mind a visitor, but I do mind when a non student is using our materials,â Robert reminded him coolly.
 âIs that so?â the visitor-Tadashi-said. Robert flinched. When did he get so close? âI was told that as long as I made something impressive, you wouldnât mind.â This got his attention.
 âWell, if thatâs the case, then why donât you show me what youâve got?â Robert pushed, trying to get a feel for him. Tadashi just flashed him a toothy grin.
 âGladly.â Tadashi turned on his heel to head back to the machinery he left on the table. Now that he had a closer look, he could see now that what he had build from the scraps was a robot arm, and a fairly small one at that. Tadashi picked up and began to play with the flexibility of it. How did he make that so fast?
 âSo yeah, I drew up the semantics for this a while back, but I didnât have anything to test it out with. So it looks like a basic arm, but what I was really trying to test was this,â he paused to draw attention back to the arm, and then pressed both sides together so that it would collapse in on itself, shrinking the arm down to one sixth its original size. âTada!â He dropped the collapsed arm into the palm of Robertâs hand and awaited a comment.
 âHow long did it take you to fabricate this?â he asked him. Tadashi shrugged.
 âI brought some of the parts with me, but I assembled it here in maybe an hour?â Robert hummed as he looked it over. He pulled the arm out to full size again, and then collapsed it back in on itself. The transition was very smooth and didnât comprise with the function of the limb.
 âWell I would have to say job well done,â Robert told him. Tadashi beamed proudly in response. âWhat exactly did you have in mind for this?â
 âI was thinking about making a collapsible robot, something that can shrink when not needed, and expand on command,â Tadashi explained. âFred told me that he usually hangs out at a lab so I thought I would come around and maybe put my ideas to the test.â
 âYou could do a lot with this here if you were a student,â Robert told him, handing him back his machinery. âWhy havenât you applied yet?â
 âAhâŠâ Tadashi shuffled awkwardly. âI have some complications that prevent that, at least right now. But weâll see.â
 âTadashi just got back in town after traveling for a while,â Fred interjected easily. âHe hasnât taken any tests whatsoever, so heâs got a little work to do before he can apply to college.â
 Robert just nodded simply. He supposed that made sense, but not really. One would think he wouldâve rather gone to school instead. He inevitably decided not to question the lie.
 âOkay then,â he said back. âWell I hope youâll enjoy your visit, and you figure out what you need.â
 He walked away after that to continue doing his rounds. He could feel his gaze on him the entire time though.
 Xxx
 After that though he continued to see Tadashi. Sometimes he would see him in the labs with Fred, talking with his friends. He usually had a laptop with him, and he would work on coding for the robot he was programming. Occasionally Robert would swing around to look over his work, only to find that his work was better than any of his other students. He would then try to tell him that he could easily qualify for a full-ride scholarship, but Tadashi would just shake him off.
 He ended up seeing Tadashi more outside of the labs eventually. When Robert would leave for the night and lock the building up, he usually find Tadashi waiting for him on the front steps of the lab. Conversation would ensue, and he would eventually find that he welcomed Tadashiâs presence in his life.
 Robert couldnât help but to fall hard for him. He wanted to deny it so bad, but he couldnât! Tadashi was smart, and funny, and creative, and not to mention drop dead gorgeous. It began to frustrate him why he would hang around him so much. Did he have some equally adorable, cute, young thing he could be with? What about Fred? Fred was silly, but he nice and a hard worker.
 Tadashi seemed to be able to read his frustrations though because one night the first thing he did was walk up to him quickly, grab him by his sweater vest, and pull him into a kiss.
 Robert was shocked to say the least.
 âWhatâs the matter?â Tadashi had asked him. âI like you, and I know youâre into me. If the attraction is mutual, isnât it worth a shot?â
 âMaybe,â Robert hesitantly said. âI think you would be better off with someone your own age though. Iâm old enough to be your father!â
 Tadashi laughed. And he laughed hard. Robert felt uneasy watching him double over in the giggly fit.
 âIf- HA! If only you knew!â he snorted. He fought to recompose himself. âBut no, thatâs what they always say.â Tadashi gave him seductive glance and Robert couldnât look away. âJust trust me though when I say that age is nothing but a number for me.â
 Robert is still not too sure exactly what happened after that. All he could remember was staring at his face, and kissing him again. But apparently that was when they started dating. Tadashi was still somewhat mysterious, but there was nothing wrong with that right?
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 Dates would happen very often afterwards. They would go to the park and watch the stars, or catch a late movie, go to the beachside amusement park, or even go swimming at his apartmentâs pool. They never got food though, and Robert never saw Tadashi eat.
 When Robert would voice his concerns, Tadashi just waved him off.
 âI have a sensitive stomach,â he would explain. âAnd Iâm super picky on top of that, I just eat what I make at home is all. Iâm healthier that way.â It wasnât Robertâs place to judge other peopleâs health, so he let it go. Other than the pale skin, Tadashi looked to be in good health.
 They would do anything else, as a date, and then the sex at the end of the night would be even better. Tadashi never stayed though, he had work he said, and always left before the dawn. Robert didnât mind this much either. Other people could get fussy, but they were compatible and they understood how the other worked. They were exciting and stable all at the same time, and everything was perfect.
 Xxx
 Abigail died, and everything was terrible.
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 It didnât take long for Robert to fall apart afterwards he saw now as he looked back.
 He didnât talk to-more like ignored-Tadashi for the first week. He didnât leave the house, and he didnât go to work. . He just wanted to be alone and grieve. He went to her funeral alone, and all though he couldnât tell then, everything just ended up getting worse.
 Tadashi ended up finding out about what happened through. Apparently Fred told him? And he was pissed that Robert didnât tell, but was even more pissed that Robert wasnât taking care of himself.
 So yeah, he mightâve been drinking more than he shouldâve. Eating more food would probably have been a good idea too, same with taking his medicine.
 But he didnât want to eat. He didnât want to take care of himself. He didnât want to see Tadashi. He just wanted his little girl back.
 He couldnât see it then, but this terrified Tadashi.
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 His lack of self-care ended up catching up to him though. After his fight with Tadashi he went back to work at the University, and would stay there from opening to closing, doing whatever he could to stay on his feet and not think about anything at all.
 He didnât last a week before collapsing in the middle of the labs with a heart attack.
 The rest of that day was blur of lights and noises.
 He wasnât sure when he woke up, only that it was now nighttime. He felt tired and weak. His body was heavy and bogged down by wires. The room was quiet, except for the soft beeps of the heart monitorâŠ
 And the gentle tapping on the window.
 Robert turned back to the window, and saw Tadashi was there now.
 Well, that was interesting.
 What was more interesting was now his mind was screaming at him that he was on the third floor, and something was wrong.
 And then as if to prove his point, the latch to the window moved on its own, and the glass began to slide open, allowing for Tadashi to float in his room.
 The heart monitor let out a sharp spike.
 âSsh! No! Its okay!â Tadashi reassured him. âIts only me.â Robert tried to speak but no words came. Then he realized it was because he had a breathing tube down his throat. Tadashiâs feet touched the ground and he lightly walked to him, gazing down at his weakened body.
 âYou foolish, fragile human!â Tadashi chided, his tone dark. âWhat have you done to yourself?â His voice was angry, but his eyes were scared. âIâve waited my whole life to find someone like you, it canât end like this!â
 Robert was about to pass out again, he couldnât do this. Tadashi seemed to sense this. He reached into his bag and pulled out a latched box. Inside the box was an empty syringe. Tadashi slipped off his jacket and sweater, and then stuck the needle inside of his arm, drawing out blood. Once it was full, he then injected it again into Robert, pumping all of his blood into his system.
 âThis should help you recover faster,â Tadashi explained. âCall me when you get out, okay? And Iâll tell you everything.â Robert could only nod his head. Then somehow, the most shocking thing came next.
 âI love you.â
 Cold lips brushed the side of his face, and then he was gone again.
 Xxx
 Four days later he was back at home. The doctors were surprised by his quick recovery, but let him go when they saw nothing wrong with him. When the sun went down he called Tadashiâs phone, and waited for him to come.
 It didnât take long for him to come too.
 Tadashi jumped into his arms as soon as Robert had opened the door. Pleasantries followed quickly after.
 âI was so worried! Are you okay? Do you feel okay? How are you?â
 Robert tried to calm him, and for a few minutes everything felt like it did before. But the weight of the situation weight between.
 They needed to talk.
 âI think I understand now what you are,â Robert told him. âI didnât realize it before, probably because most of what you told me was the truth.â Tadashi only smiled sweetly at him.
 âThen what am I Robert?â he asked.
 âI want to hear you say it,â he requested back.
 âAfraid youâre wrong?â Tadashi teased, Robert snorted.
 âWell its not everyday I meet someone like you,â he snarked. Tadashi blushed and ran a hand through his hair.
 âIâm a vampire.â
 So he guessed right.
 âI can introduce myself again,â Tadashi went on. âMy name is Tadashi Hamada, and Iâm ninety-eight years old.â Robert snorted.
 âSo you let me freak out over being the âolderâ one?â
 âI told you age was just a number to me!â Tadashi laughed. âBut you get it now, donât you?â His face flushed a bright red again and he sat down. âIâve wanted a companion for a long time. I do have my brother, but I wanted something more.â
 âIs your brother a vampire too?â Robert asked. Tadashi nodded.
 âYes, I turned him when he was eighteen at his request,â Tadashi laughed. âHe mostly terrorizes the underground bot-fighting rings.â Robert chose not to speak.
 âWhen I look for potential companions, Iâve discovered that I liked older humans better,â Tadashi explained. âWhen I was around your age, and I began to feel lonely, I tried to date someone who looked like me, but it didnât work out, they were just too young. But you though, and people like you in general, have age the same way I do, and I can relate more.â
 âWell Iâm not sure if I can relate to being nearly a century oldâŠâ
 âWell, of course not!â Tadashi laughed. âAnd I donât expect you too. I just want you to be you. Thatâs why I love you.â
 That again. Robert felt his body stiffen. He knew where this was goingâŠ
 âBut thatâs not the important part!â Tadashi quickly spoke out, shaking him out of his thoughts.
 âThen what is?â Robert inquired. Tadashi stared him, fondness growing on his face.
 âThe important part is I found you,â Tadashi urgently persisted. âAnd you found me. And Iâm afraid of losing you.â
 Robert didnât know what to say back. Tadashi moved to sit next Robert on the couch⊠when did he sit down? Tadashi moved one hand to intertwine his fingers with Robertâs. His hand was so coldâŠ
 âI know this must be shocking to you,â Tadashi whispered softly. âIâm sorry. The last thing I wanted was to scare you. I love you I really do, but if you want me to leave I can-â
 âDonât!â Robert snarled. âDonât do that, it only feels more manipulative.â
 âI donât want to manipulate you, I just want to be honest!â Tadashi defended. âIf you donât want what I can give you, then I donât know what to do!â He squeezed his hand. âI meant what I said, Iâm afraid to lose you, I care too much.â
 âBut if I choose not to let you turn me,â Robert slowly thought out loud. âThen you donât want to stick around to watch me die either.â Tadashi nodded slowly.
 âI would never force this on you, its your choice,â Tadashi told him, his hand slipping away. âThink about it and let me know.â
 Robert blinked, and he was gone.
 Xxx
 The next three days were spent in deep thought. He had to make probably the most difficult choice of his life.
 Heâs only known Tadashi for five months, and while the time theyâve spent together was wonderful, deciding to change who and what you are was a big commitment to make. Heâs not even sure if he loves him. He does like him, and he likes him a whole lot,
 Forever was an awfully long timeâŠ
 Not that anyone wants to die, well, healthy people that is.
 And then there was Abigail⊠As a scientist he had no idea what happened after death. Part of him hoped that he would be with her again, was he willing to give up that chance?
 Maybe he shouldnât think of the unknown possibilities. Second guessing what could be isnât going to get him anywhere. He had to focus on what he does know, and the outcomes of those choices.
 A.) He could reject Tadashi, and live the rest of his life mortal. He continue to be a professor until he was too old to teach. Then he would die alone.
B.)Â Â He could accept Tadashiâs offer. He could throw away his life and everything heâs ever known and live forever with someone who loves him while drinking blood to sustain his new lifestyle.
 Honestly neither option looked all that great when one put it into words. But one thought edged its way inâŠ
 What did he have left to lose?
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 âAre you sure you want to do this?â Tadashi had asked him for the fifth time. Robert rolled his eyes.
 âIts almost like you donât want to turn me now,â he joked. Tadashi just frowned unimpressed.
 The two of them were now in Tadashiâs basement apartment. They were sitting on the floor on top of a plastic sheet, each with their shirts removed. Apparently turning someone can get messy.
 âI just donât want you to regret it, or feel as though you were rushed,â Tadashi woefully explained. âYou could kill yourself if you changed your mind, but as far as I know, itâs not an easy experience.â
 âI know,â Robert sighed. âI thought about this long and hard, and this is the choice Iâve made. I want to be with you.â Tadashi smile fondly and raised a hand to brush his cheek.
 âIâm so happy you chose me,â Tadashi dreamily whispered. Robert caught the hand with his own, and placed a soft kiss on his knuckles. Tadashi crawled closer, and opened his mouth, revealing his enlongated fangs. He raised a hand to his wrist and bit down into it. âIâm going to drain you of your blood,â he explained. âAnd when I do that, you need drink as much as mine as your body will allow, and then the change will happen.â
 Robert nodded his head, and Tadashi bit down his neck.
 It didnât take long to get light headed. A minute or two more and he could no longer feel his limbs. Tadashi had to hold onto him while he returned the favor to ingest his blood. As some feeling returned he grasped onto him, and drank and drank and drank-
 Until oblivion.
 He collapsed back onto the floor after that.
 His body burned and ached as it underwent the changed, but he could feel terror come over him as his mind began to shut down.
 The last thing he saw before he faded away was Tadashi lying down next to him, giving him the same loving gaze that he always did.
 Then⊠nothing.
 Xxx
 After everything that had happened before Robert was slightly surprised he even woke up at all.
 The first thing he noticed was that he was no longer laying on the plastic, but on the plush sofa. All of the lights were off except for a few burning candles, and even those seemed to be abnormally bright. He could hear something move behind him, and then he felt a hand run through his hair.
 âHey there sleepy head,â Tadashi greeted softly. Or at least Robert thought he thought was softly; it was a little loud to him. âHow do you feel?â
 âConfusedâŠâ He groggily muttered. âAnd⊠hungry?â Oh yes, he was definitely hungry, though it made sense considering he slept for⊠huh. âHow long has it been?â
 âItâs been a day,â Tadashi informed. âUsually the change takes about twenty-four hours to set in. The change can be quite an ordeal.â Robert sat up on the couch after that, and swung his legs off so Tadashi could sit next to him. âBut how else are you?â Tadashi asked again as he took a seat. âSome sensitivity is normal considering you now have enhanced senses-â
 âOh, that explains the candlelight then,â Robert mused. Tadashi nodded.
 âYeah, youâll get used to it soon enough though, and then we can leave,â Tadashi explained.
 âLeave?â Robert inquired. What do they need to now?
 âWell, yeah,â Tadashi answered as if it was the most obvious thing. âYou are hungry after allâŠâ
 Oh.
 He forgot about that part.
 So much for cheeseburgers.
 âSo how, um, how does that work?â Robert asked uneasily. âDo we just find some random person⊠Oh my God do I have to kill someone?â
 âWHAT?â Tadashi laughed. âOh heavens no, you goof!â Robert just gave him a confused face.
 âBut Vampires drink blood right?â Robert stated. âSo donât we-â
 âYeah, we drink from people, but we donât need to kill him, thatâs highly unnecessary,â Tadashi explained. âNo, weâre going to go see Fred.â
 âFred?â Well now that he thought about it, Fred was the one that knew Tadashi and brought him to the labs.
 âYeah, did I never explain it?â Robert shook his head. âOops, sorry. But no, Fred is a friend and my food source. I feed off of him once or twice a week and we hang out and play video games and stuff. Itâs a good arrangement. Thatâs how it usually works nowadays.â
 âThereâs a lot I need to learn, isnât there?â Robert spoke aloud. âAnd thereâs a lot I need to do⊠What am I going to about my job? I shouldâve moved my assets first and-â
 Tadashi had crawled on top of him to give him a kiss. Robert knew it was supposed to be the classic âshut upâ kiss, but jokes on him! He pulled him closer and kissed back hard. Tadashi seemed to like that though. After a few minutes of the impromptu make out, his maker tapped out.
 âSomeoneâs frisky,â Tadashi teased. Robertâs mouth pulled into a smirk.
 âI guess turning has given me some excess energy,â Robert grinned. Tadashi rolled his eyes and bopped the top of his head.
 âDork,â he giggled. âBut yeah, if you think youâre energized now, you should see how you feel after a feeding. Youâll probably ended up running around on the ceiling.â
 âReally?â Robert asked, raising an eyebrow.
 âWhat do you think?â
 The pair stared silently at each other.
 âWell I guess we need to go see Fred then!â Robert exclaimed, hopping out of his seat.
 âSee now you get it!â
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 Robert was standing by his car door. He needed to get in to go to Fredâs, but he couldnât stop staring at the sky.
 âI can see so much more nowâŠâ He whispered in wondered. âThe stars shine so much brighter now⊠This is real, isnât it?â
 âYou still doubt this?â Tadashi asked. âThe view wonât leave, I promise. We have all the time in the world to admire the night.â
 It shouldâve been unnerving, but Robert found comfort in it instead.
 âYeah⊠We do, donât we?â
 They got into the car and began their drive to the opposite side of town. They did have some work to do before they were home free. Robert needed to pull his money from his accounts, do something about his day job, and decide how and when to fake his death. Theyâd probably have to lie low in San Fransokyo for a while, or leave completely, but that was okay.
 As long as they had each other, nothing else matters. This was not the end, it was only a beautiful beginning.
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Welp, that was Calladashi Week 2. Iâll finish yesterdayâs prompt eventually, it sucks I skipped a day, but Iâm glad everything else got done.Â











