#caj.irl

Shh, wait, Jaehyun stops you from taking another step forward and instead pulls you into his embrace, burying his face into the crook of your neck.

You melt into his touch but stiffen up when you noticed something out of the corner of your eye. Hey, there are cameras, you try to shrug him off to avoid getting caught and he lets go. We won’t get caught, he smiles, Trust me.

[ 3:51pm ]

I stare at my cup. The hot liquid swirling slowly in the small porcelain container. The memories are floating around in my head. I quickly shut my eyes tight. I don’t want to think of those times anymore. No. A long, drawn out breath escapes my lips. I don’t understand. How could a word so simple and innocent be such sweet, sweet poison? How could a word so small have an impact bigger than the galaxies? How could a word so insignificant hurt me so much?

I can never understand how this works. No matter how many times the cycle repeats, I can never retain a single piece of information. I can never wrap my head around it. How does it work? How does it happen?

I slowly open my eyes and lift my head up, ears ringing with all the noise in the café. I finally pick my cup up and take a slow sip, savoring the flavor, though the liquid burnt my tongue a little. I tilt my head back, inhaling the scent of the coffee beans. Why did my mind have to go back to then?

I can’t change the past, I tell myself, with a slight shake of my head. I wish I could but I can’t. All I can do now is finish my drink and live on. I don’t think I can ever grasp the concept. So with a sigh, I pour the rest of my drink down my throat, pick up my bag and leave. I can only wish that one day it’ll happen to me again.

You were disturbed from your work when all of your friends started parading towards you. You look up from your desk to see them smiling widely at you which creeped you out. You felt a tap on your shoulder and turn towards your seatmate who pointed behind you. Once you turn to look you see a small sticky note with the words ‘I like you’ written on it with small hearts on the side.

You blushed and took the note from your seatmate, scanning for the name of the person who wrote the note. On the corner of the paper, you see a tiny ‘From: Felix’ scribbled down.

You were having another one of those late night talks with your best friend, Jisung, when you started crying out of nowhere after he said the word ‘leave’. He jumps back in surprise but pulls you in for a hug.

I’m sorry, I just... everyone’s leaving and I hate it and it’s just been so hard for me to grasp the fact that nothing’s ever going to be the same anymore, you sob, avoiding his eyes.