Author of the Month Q&A: February
We are beyond thrilled to celebrate and showcase the work of our February Author of the Month @caffiend-queenâ. Over the course of February we will be highlighting some of the works of this gorgeous lady that have made us laugh, cry and tremble with fear.Â
We recently caught up with the fabulous writer for a chat about all things dark fics, fan fiction and Tumblr. Â
Any Cute History Behind Your User Name? Â
I hosted morning radio and TV shows for most of my career, so my alarm went off at 4am every day. I discovered the joys of caffeine in pill form within the first year - cut out the middleman and go straight to the source. After a while, our producer started calling me "Caffiend" because he could tell when I'd had my "hit."
How Long Have You Been Writing Fics of Any Kind? Â
Um... Just four years, really. I've done a lot of social media blogging and contributed to websites and magazines for most of my career. But the "fun stuff" started on AO3.
What Was The First Fan Fic You Ever Wrote? Â Â
My first story was "Dr. Laing's Loose End." I have no idea how something as depressing and dystopian as the High Rise became my Tom Hiddleston muse, but there you go.
What Was The First Fandom You Wrote For? Â
My sweet, first true love, Tom Hiddleston - though his Loki and Jaguar Villains will always be first in my heart.
Your First Marvel Crush Â
Loki, Loki, Loki. Though through the pernicious efforts of the women listed below, I've developed an unnatural fondness for Steve Rogers and Bucky, particularly their dark sides.
Your Favourite Fandom Writers Â
Oooo... so many to choose from! @lokilickedme inspired me to write fanfiction in the first place, and the sheer genius of @nildespirandum - who is one of my dearest friends and yet I still secretly seethe with jealousy when I read her work. She's one of the best writers on any forum. I was drawn into Dark MCU thanks to @sherrybaby14â's "Who Am I?" and "The Distraction." Ohhhh ... god. Then @imanuglywombatâ insisted on piling on with "I Brought a Lemon to a Knife Fight," "Concrete Jungle Rapunzel" and "Die Besessenheit" (with the lovely @Sophiria). Then to finally bury me under the lurid adoration of all things Dark!Steve and Dark!Bucky was @jtargaryen18â with "All of Heaven in a Rage," "Waves that Beat on Heaven's Shore," and oh, so much more. I have a huge respect for popular writers who generously give out signal boosts and support to new writers. @sherrybaby14â had to show me everything on Tumblr. I was such a moron. @devikafernandoâ is a very popular, successful novelist who still supports everyone else. I adore @maidenofasgardâ, @ohhhmylokiâ, @pedeka, @icybluepenguin, @latentthoughts, @hurricanerinâ, @emeraldrosequartzâ, @cursedcursingvikingâ, @toozmanykidsâ, @myoxisbrokenâ, @threeminutesoflifeâ, @the-soulofdevilâ, @darkficsyouneveraskedforâ, @devilish-doll, @villainousshakespeareâ, @fanfictionariesâ, @omgviolette12â ... goddamnit. This could go on forever, but I'm grateful for so many talented writers and endless inspiration.
Daddy kink and voice kink. I've loved listening to beautiful voices since working in radio - Sean Bean, the actor - almost reduced me to tears, his voice is that good. Tom's voice, of course, is sex. Pure sex. The Daddy kink I don't quite get, because if I were required to address my dear spouse as "Daddy," I would fall over laughing and never be able to have sex again. But writing it? Daaaaamn.
The "I'm abducting/forcing/trapping you into doing what I want for your OWN GOOD." Loki's especially good for this because you know that vain bastard is quite certain he knows what's best for you.
Maybe not such a secret because I've had to admit this before, but before I realized that Tom Hiddleston was my god, I actually interviewed him at San Diego Comic-Con during the press run for "Thor: Dark World." And I don't remember a goddamned thing. You have to understand, SDCC is hell, and all of your time is spent trying to figure out how to get you and your cameraman and your shit-ton of equipment to Hall H for your next interview within ten minutes without getting impaled on a cosplayer's horn. I remember how tall and beautiful he was, and that my camera guy was going to put me on a box to make the shot look better and Tom widened his legs (!) to get lower for me instead. The true horror of this is that I sell most of our celebrity footage to gossip sites, so I don't even have anything to look at.
It's our sacred "Bubble of Unreality." I've noticed that a surprising number of writers in our community have children with special needs - my twin boys have autism - and I think we create this place and thrive here because we can save lives and fix injuries that are impossible to control in the real world.
What Got You Into Dark Fics Â
There's something wildly erotic about the dark side to such powerful men. They're commanding and hot as balls under any circumstances. But, twisting those characteristics in a way where their willingness to hold themselves back from what they want is gone, is so compelling. Especially if what they want is you.
