#ca asks

i alwways come back to this blog wwhen things are shitty cause i knoww i got people here to back me up an help me out ww shit

i remember howw this blog wwas p much my lifeline wwhen me an kar wwas goin through all a that shit ww bein separated an our green card plans fallin through an not bein able to marry pre doma repeal i wwas so fuckin stressed but bein able to talk about it here made that so much better

since youvve followwed almost from the start you gotta knoww me an kar are real people behind all a this an ninety nine percent a wwhat wwe post is based on our real actual livves an believve me i been through some shit so i figure im probably in a good position to talk to other people equally goin through shit

im gonna havve some days wwhere i dont feel like talkin to no one an wwhere i wwish evveryone wwould just fuck off but if im havvin a good day like i sort a been havvin today then sure i can try to help someone cause fuck i knoww wwhat its like bein depressed as hell an livvin through some shitty ass things

ooh no that's okay! I've covered "what will you do with it when you get it?" so I won't include it but JUST KNOW IT'S THERE. and it goes without saying that I have my goggles and my tinhat firmly on for this

1. "you can just lean against [the tree] and then I'll come towards you and just kiss you?" he's not riffing off anything he just SAYS it. saying the quiet part out loud

2. "I'm just smelling ya hair." he's mesmerised. look at his face?? whatever else, I'm 99% convinced ant had a bit of a crush at this age

3. "what happens now?" "we lick each other's faces off" ha ha ha ha. it won't let me upload the gif, here. thinking about it now it's always dec saying let's just get off with each other, what can it mean

4. ?????? the realistic part of my brain thinks they must have told him to do that or why on earth would they leave it IN THE IDENT but on the other hand that would be so weird. there's also that picture I haven't found yet of dec climbing over ant and putting his hand right in his crotch so I just don't know man. they’re very uh. they’re very comfortable with each other

5. he's joking and then he's not joking anymore he literally can't stop feeling how broad he is hahaha I would do the same. and then he's like ookay I enjoyed that too much let's move on

6. :)

HELLO???

ah hah!! I’m doing this on my phone so I hope the formatting isn’t too weird. also I scouted around for pictures but I know there are some great ones I’ve missed, especially fun ones and proper photo shoot ones

1. OBSESSED WITH THIS who is this?? Suede?? pre-cheese Alex James?? Yeahhhh work it, britpop vibes all day baby

2. No explanation needed I have said all I have to say on the matter except that just sorry imagine you’d never really thought about them much in your life and you walked into this room would you not be like …….. oh right is this …? are they …? actually I'm sure that's what I said when I shoved this picture in front of you hahahaha

3. are they staged this way or. what is it. doesn’t even matter

4. I could have posted a dozen pictures of loving looks, but this one has the Dodgers top

5. I didn’t know what else to put in but I like this one because I don’t know if he really needed to grab his whole hand to look at a picture. also they both looked REALLY GOOD on this show

AH thank you!

1. the bgt hug. I, personally, will never get over it. it looks so warm and safe. they love hugging each other?? sometimes when they do it looks like letting two magnets snap back together I DON'T know how to describe it

2. dec supporting ant in 2018. dec saying that if ant had made any excuses at all for what he'd done he'd have walked away from him (OOF!) but he didn't make any excuses. that's a lot of integrity from both of them, and the fact that their relationship could have broken down shows how remarkable it is that it didn't

3. THE. PICTURE ON THE SOFA. sometimes they do something and you think - this would sound unrealistic in fanfiction. oh when they're just hanging out on the sofa they sit so physically close together their bodies are touching? that's a bit over the top. god bless lisa for the yeah they are actually always like this. anyway with all evidence of dec resting his head on ant's shoulder at any opportunity I am willing to bet that's usually the way it goes as well

4. "he's very quick with his tongue" "what will you do with it when you get it?" sorry literally what am I witnessing here. and as a bonus, all the flirting they've ever done

5. ant & dec on fist of fun!!! and the fact that lee & herring did a&d unzipped in return, or vice versa I can't remember. were they fans?? I don't know .... that would make my day. a clash of worlds. two double acts that have my heart

ooh thank you oh gosh! these are in no particular order and they're all obvious moments really, there must be others that I don't know off the top of my head

1. the award after the rehab year. the look dec gives of SHEER love and pride. squeezes his shoulder and hugs him when he says he's shaking. ant looks like he's about to cry the entire time and the whole audience is happy that he made it through. it's quite hard to watch knowing the year they're about to have but they CAME THROUGH THAT TOO

2. this year's awards. when they're walking up to the stage, ant holds his arm out for dec, dec leans to the side to hug him, briefly rests his head on him for a quick cuddle and ant gives him a squeeze. he looks like a child. it's such a snapshot of that part of their early dynamic. and OF COURSE ant pressing his forehead to dec's so they can have that moment just to themselves

3. when they're getting up to receive the landmark award (I think), ant reaches to hold dec's hand softly and dec slips his other arm through ant's to hold him all in a sort of fluid movement, it's another moment where the intimacy sort of astounds me, the physical affection that comes so easily to them

4. "I love you, man. I love you to bits." obv. they're both feeling emotional about their friendship in that moment and even though dec says "it's a career based on a friendship" so much it's sort of lost all meaning, I just can't imagine how overwhelming it must be for that to be true. like? it must be deeply emotional to know they're uniquely successful because of how well they click and how much they love and help each other

Bit of motivation?

ahhhhhh thank you yes that is motivation!!!! I absolutely love how sad ant looks about being bored hahaha