#c.asks

Favourites is such a tricky one, but here we go.

Top tier/longterm faves: Katatonia (sad man music 4 lyfe) which surprises no one at all

You’re artsy. Good with your hands. Crafty and resourceful, and you have a good eye for the physical world. Good at putting stuff together, at building. You’re left handed. You like to create. You seem like someone who’s could see a finished project and replicate it without any other information. You seem innovative.

You don’t have the vibes of a military brat, but you’ve moved around a good bit. You like to be outside, specifically around nature. I know you work with plants and produce and I know you like aspects of the job, but I’m pretty sure you like the plants more than you like the people.

(Maybe I’m wrong) You seem like the kind of person that chokes yourself on your own leash, like you want to do everything all of the time. (The backswing of that is a lot of being frozen in indecision) (((maybe I’m projecting. Correct me))) You seem like someone who’s good at a shockingly wide variety of things. Lots of little hidden skills.

I have no proof, but you have the vibes of someone that knows more than one language.

You also have cat vibes. You could have dogs vibes. I thought about this one for a hot minute and I can’t decide. They both feel right and choosing one feels wrong. I don’t know if you have a pet.

This might be a reach, and I mean this as a high compliment, but I think you’re very reserved in your outside world life. Not reserved in the, don’t talk to people and quiet way, but reserved in the, hold your cards close to your chest kind of way. You let people think what they want and are happy to let them be wrong. There’s a certain self assurance required to let the world be wrong.

((I fear I am being weird, but in my defense I have notifications on. I promise I’m normal and chill and just think you’re neat. don’t hate me))

Okay hope you’re having a lovely day <3

I have never been so thoroughly read in my entire damn life what the fuck what the fuck? This is not weird at all I'm just having a moment because I am not used to being perceived to this degree what the fuck. What the fuck. (You are not weird you are not at all I'm genuinely impressed because what the fuck? Are you in my fucking walls???) I am like... jesus christ. I paced around the block for an hour after getting this. (At the risk of being melodramatic I am not used to people knowing things this personal about me how the fuck. Sorry for swearing I am rendered utterly speechless?)

So, yeah. I'm pretty artsy. I paint I craft. Wish I had more time for it. I love putting furniture together and pottery and building things. I love drawing and painting. I sew my clothes. I scrapbook and bullet journal. I even draw in my book annotations. I love writing. So so much. I'm a visual person in general so I need to see things and be given examples and get my hands on things. Also, how the fuck did you know I was left handed???

I was a military brat, more from my mom's necessity at having a very young child and limited options. (She met and married my dad in the military, so I got a dad out of it.) That's not entirely my story to tell. We did move a decent amount, though. I prefer the quieter aspects of my job, you're on the nose about that. I gasped at that, actually. If I could get a job hiding in the corner just fussing with plants I would. I hike and go outside a lot. I've always joked I feel better living by a forest, my best date was a hiking trip and the botanical garden. I go to the hiking trails by my apartment every day.

How are you in my walls. I have horrid overscheduling tendencies. That's so funny. I make lists of things I want to do in my free time, with my work time, I'm constantly multitasking. Do I paint or write or do I dance or do I sleep? I don't think there's enough time to do things in a day. I think I have random skills. I think I'm more a jack-of-all-trades and master of none. Don't think I'm extraordinary at any of my skills, but I know them. I like learning new things and connecting over hobbies and mutual interests. It lead to the whole "bouncing between majors" thing in college. So I have like... several half degrees.

I know a bit of Spanish. Enough I could bumble my way through Spain, because I was friends with my Spanish teacher. I am teaching myself Latin. My parents were linguists - Chinese and Korean. I was learning Russian for a minute there. I know snippets of a lot of languages.

I HAVE A CAT!! My baby girl! I'd love a dog someday, when I have room. A dog I can take on hikes and go walking with and snuggle with and complain about their shedding with. I want a house full of animals one day. As many as I can manage. If I could trust my cat with a guinea pig, I'd get one.

And so uhh finally the bit that gave me a mild crisis is the whole like... reserved in outside world life. I don't mind it. I find that most people need something out of a person or a friendship and they see the things they will, and sometimes you just fall into that. I don't really care too much what strangers think of me, or what peers I don't feel particularly close to think of me. It's actually a very specific issue because people will form opinions without much feedback on my end, make assumptions, and I won't correct them. So they tend to be put off by me like... being myself and I just bounce between groups and mildly altered personalities people just shuck on me. I don't think a lot of people know what I'm like or ask for my input. Which, frankly, I don't mind. That connection takes time, and I know who I am. You put it into words perfectly, actually. I'm really impressed. I was told once I'm very good at being alone and comfortable with myself, and that makes me good at letting go. "Solitude in my loneliness." or whatever. I have two or three people form childhood who know me to my core, and that's fine. The fact that you know this about me is mildly terrifying. I have not been read like this ever in my life??? I had to work very hard to not acclimate to a personality people want out of me to make myself palatable. Even now I catch myself letting that happen. I get more amusement from it than anything. Sometimes I get a little moment of, "god will I ever find an authentic connection I wish I had what these people had" but I don't have the time to unpack that so we soldier on. Figured that will come when it comes.

And god, you are not weird or anything like that. You are very chill and awesome and normal and I appreciate you so so much??? I don't hate you you'd have to like... idk if I can't think of something you'd do to make me hate you. This just threw me because I'm not used to being the one who is being analyzed like this like damn. I feel like a bug with the rock lifted. I've used the magnifying glass and now it's been turned on me and what the fuck. (You are so okay, by the way. I have your notifications on. Which is odd because I usually mute all my notifications. Maybe now I'm being weird. God I'm genuinely thrown right now. Not in a bad way just in a like... "oh huh someone understands this piece of myself I thought I kept neatly tucked away." Wild.

OKAY I HOPE YOU'RE HAVING A LOVELY DAY TOO. SORRY FOR RAMBLING. I ADORE YOU YOU'RE ALL GOOD.