#bye16

I'm really really pissed because he didn't text, or call, not even greet me in person. I just wasn't really important enough. Fuck. That hurts. But it's for the best, right? I can't keep wishing for something to happen between us, especially since he's gotten a girlfriend. He's purely in love with her. I'm purely out of his sight. He's purely out of my league.

But, aside from that, my friends are simply the best in the world. :'( Kasche, Diejo, Rahele, Harallen, Lestrich, Vince, Zariti, and Deuj had the most wonderful surprises. :<

Zariti and Deuj bought me a cheesecake slice, and two guitar picks.

And the rest cooked some dinner for the lot of us, and bought me a capo as a birthday gift. <3

I'm so happy I have them. :'(

You see, I liked you a lot. I liked your smile. I liked the way you played guitar. I liked the Curly Tops you gave me last December, and I appreciated the thought. I liked the way you talked to me. I liked the way you think. I liked you.

It's a big fucking cliche, I know. You've probably seen it so many times: someone falling for you, slowly. But it's never your fault. It's not your fault that you're charming, or smart, or funny, or cute, or everything that I could ever imagine dreaming of. It was stupid, I know. I'm writing this, and it's just so damn stupid. I'm stupid.

But, you know? I enjoyed the stupidity. It's weird. Because I don't think I would ever regret liking you. I don't think I would ever want to forget how you always unknowingly kept me on edge, or the ways you unknowingly made me smile. Mostly, I wouldn't want to forget the way I dreamed of you. You made me dream a lot. And that meant a lot. I wouldn't want to forget how you unknowingly got a grasp of my heart, because that was when I fell hard. It fell into your palm. I don't think you felt it there; I never would've let you. Or maybe I didn't notice dropping it onto your hand, and you did feel it, but it probably didn't weigh much, or at least not more than hers.

12-01-11 THURSDAY

First day of December. Do you feel the Christmas Spirit? :)

Mag-cocount down na ako kase 1 week nalang ang pagiging 16 ko. :) kaya lubus-lubusin na. hahaha :)

DAY 1 BIRTHDAY WISH:

Mag-greet tong mga taong 'to sa'kin :3

Harry Styles, [oh diba, kung mka-hingi parang madali lang ibigay] :)) 

Kuya JM Sabariaga [oh eto at least taga Pinas to]

-eh kasi, wala, idol ko siya sa photography and all.

Ate Nikka (boringsville)

-kasi tuwang-tuwa ako sa mga blog niya at magaling siya sa photography :3