#bw134

It’s been 3 years since you left us and it still hasn’t gotten any easier. We all still miss you just as much as we did on day 1. Not a day goes by that I don’t miss you. I miss your ridiculous grin, your raspy voice, and your amazing hugs that felt like they could make all the bad in the world go away. I wish you were here Buddman.! There’s so much going on that I wish you were here for.! I know you’re watching it all from heaven and smiling down though.! I just wish you were here with us so I could see that smile of yours. I seriously just miss you beyond words Buddy.! 
I hope I’m making you proud of me; you always followed your heart and your dreams, and I’m trying to take a page from the Buddy handbook and do the same.! I just wish you were here to see it all.! 
I miss you so much Budd. I can’t wait till the day I get to heaven and get to have another one of your hugs, I miss those so much.! 
Don’t stop sending me the little signs that you’re still around, those make my days a little brighter when I’m down. I love you Budd.!🙏🏼💚

Buddy would be been 18 today. But he'll never get to experience adulthood and all the cliché stuff you do for your 18th birthday. Stupid things that seem so exciting at that age, like buying a lotto ticket or cigarettes even if you don't smoke. He'll never do that and that's not freaking fair.!!!! It's not fair at all that someone who had never been anything but an amazing human being, got taken from us so soon and that he's not getting to experience the life he should've had.!!! It's not fair.! 😭💔 I miss you Budman, I wish you were here.! I wish you were with us, celebrating this milestone in your life.! And even though you're not physically here anymore, I see the little reminders of you everywhere. Rainbows after a cloudy day or a "Buddyfly" outside my window, when I'm having a thought time. So I know you're still with us, I just wish we could actually have to here, to touch and hold and talk to again. It's just not fair that you're gone. I can't wait until the day we meet again.! But until then, you're always in my heart Buddy.! I hope you're riding in paradise for your birthday.! Love you little Budman. 💚🏁