Pairing: M Robin x reader

Prompt: “You told me you loved me, you can’t take that back!”

Description: All nightmares had to end eventually, right? Why was it that this one seem so neverending?

Rating: sfw

Word Count: 1135

Notes: I had like 300ish words as a wip for this for like... god months I’ve had this wip for forever... anyways, it sucked, so I completely rewrote everything and I like this much better!

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Being with Robin could only be described as a dream; he was a powerful man, adept with both magic and the blade, was a genius tactician (one who you often counted on to help you lead your own army), kind to his allies and honest to goodness, the sweetest man you ever met. It was all so perfect for a while, you couldn’t imagine a life with him. But… slowly he changed. Your dream man soon became a nightmare, one you couldn’t wake yourself from.

He used his wit against you, making you a puppet in your own army claiming it was all “to protect you.” Lest you try and bond with your heroes he was there, ready to drag you away or claim some excuse to get you away from other people. He became overbearingly clingy, hesitant to even leave you to use the restroom in peace! You feared one day he may not even let you leave your shared bedroom, it had become so ridiculous. You missed the man he was, and more than once, begged him to reconsider what he had become.

Still, even in this nightmaresque life, you had your solace; moments where you could forget the monster that seemed to take over your partner. Those days where he was himself again, lovingly teasing you about tactics, making sure you go enough to eat and drink and plenty of rest. It was almost enough to make you reconsider leaving but not a moment later his antics would begin anew. It was childish, frustrating, and sad; you didn’t want things to end like this…

“…._____? What are you up to?” Curious, Robin watched as you pointedly gathered things seemingly at random, shoving them in a box near the door haphazardly.

“What does it look like?” You snapped at him, face full of frowns. “I’m leaving.” You stated simply after, rather gently tossing in a book of tactics compared to some other things you had thrown in previously. It had been a gift from Robin long before he took a turn for the worse…

“Leaving?” He repeated quietly, as if he didn’t quite believe the words. Diligently still, you were packing away what little things you had in your once shared room.

“Robin… listen.” You said softly, sitting on the edge of the bed, on the other side of him. “I… use to adore you, love you so much even. Lately though… the phrase has left a bad taste in my mouth.” You frowned, not liking the look of sadness that crossed his features. “I wanted this to work between us, I really did. But lately you’ve been making it frustrating to be with you, for no other reason than petty jealousy.” A lump was forming in your throat as you said the words that had been hanging on your tongue for so long now. How dearly you wanted to love him, and wanted his love in return. But not like this.

“You… you said you loved me though, you can’t just take that back.” You tensed, realizing he was beginning to panic a little bit at your own words.

“Did you even hear me you idiot? I’m not taking it back, I still love you so much!” You cried, your own dam breaking. “But I hate who you’ve become! I miss the man I fell in love with!” Your sudden outburst surprised Robin but he was trying so hard to stay calm. “Please, what happened to him, Robin?” You said softly, cradling yourself now.

“He’s right here,” His voice broke a little, tears threatening his own eyes. His hands reached out for yours but your kept them close to yourself. “I… I know I’ve been acting out. And I’m so sorry for it.” Robin sniffled, realizing just what was happening. Remembering just who he was… what he was cursed with.

“Unfortunately, I have to accept… the fell dragon is apart of me...” He sighed and closed his eyes. “Being here, with Grima walking these halls… has undoubtedly had an effect on me. I’m so sorry if it caused you grief.” Suddenly, your face softened. What a fool you had been. Too lost in your own feelings and hurt, you never thought about what even caused Robin to act this way…

“Robin I...” You tears fell freely as you looked upon him, sad smile and all. “Please, forgive me for being so.. so dumb.” You sighed, shaking your head. “I should have guessed this from the start...” You shook your head.

“No, you have every right to be mad. My behavior lately has been terrible,” He let out a bitter laugh. “I’m sorry _____ my love for you… does indeed make me weaker. When I think about how much I love you, how I adore you and want to cherish you… I get scared. Parts of me I don’t want to acknowledge take over and cause us all grief...” He sighed. You scooted closer to him, pulling Robin to you in order to hold him.

“That’s okay, together… we can get through this.” You whispered, you fingers playing with the fabric of his cloak.

“What if… I can never truly escape this side of me? What if I don’t stop becoming this uglier version of myself?” He whispered. It scared you as well, hearing the genuine fear in his voice.

“Well… I suppose then I’ll have to accept that then. Ugly though it may be… that jealous, possessive and mean part of you is a part of you all the same… and I supposed indulging it occasionally can’t be too terrible...” You mused.

“Truly you are too good too me.” Robin turned in your arms, pulling in down and into his embrace on the bed so he could hold your properly, your head close enough to his chest to here his heartbeat.

“I told you I loved you didn’t I? Loving someone means you help them deal with some of the more unsavory parts of themselves… through thick and thin, you know?” You looked up to smile at him.

“I love you too… So much so, I find it hard to share you at times. Can we not just stay in our own little word in this room, where I can keep you safe?” You could swear he was nearly purring in content in having you in his arms.

“...For now, we can.” You laughed, snuggling closer to him. “As long as you promise to let me return to my duties?” You opened one eye, looking to his face for a response.