#but fandom

The fandom’s prayer

“Let us read.

Our fanfic, that art on ao3,

Horny be thy writing

Thy alphas cum

Doms will be done

In fanwork, as it is in fiction

Give us this day our daily smut

And forgive us our squicks

As we forgive those

Who squick against us

And lead us not into antishipping

But deliver us from censorship

For the lemons, the oranges, and the limes are ours

Now and forever

Ah, men~”

i feel like i’ve always loved david duchovny. my mom is a big the x files fan and she’s been watching it when i was in her belly. she was pretty obsessed with david and she used to tell me that he could have been my father. i was probably around 5 years old when i watched the x files with my mom and brother while we were waiting for my dad to come home from work. i kinda liked that spooky agent and his partner but to be honest, i was too young to understand anything so i simply forgot about the x files. then californication came along and i fell in love with david yet again. and only about 2 years ago i’ve started watching the x files again because my friend got obsessed with it. and i simply fell in love. but not only with the show, but with david and gillian. together and kind of apart. i’ve always been a bigger fan of david but i appreciated both of them because they are truly amazing people. 

and at some point i’ve started rebloging some stuff on tumblr. and that’s why i found out what gillovny is and how many people actually shipped them together. i just thought they look cute together but there were people who believed they were together and thanks to them i’ve started believing it myself. and i’ve always thought that shipping someone was the weakest side of me but honestly? it happened to be the best part of my life because i’ve met you guys. and it’s funny because honestly, i’ve never thought i would meet any of you. i was never a type of girl who would pack her things and go somewhere to meet strangers. 

yet here i am. after meeting a few of you. it’s been the best time of my life because i was never expecting for you to be so good. i thought you’d find me a young weirdo who didn’t get many things in life. and somehow, even if we’re so different, we’re yet the same and that’s amazing.

thanks to you i am a person who is brave enough to meet new people, is open to new things and challenges in life and who makes friends around the world. i wanted to thank you all so much for meeting me, talking to me and giving me so much. i will never forget those 2 moments in my life that i got to meet people that i knew nothing about. i didn’t even know your names. 

thanks for making me brave and curious and i hope i will meet you again one day. all of you.

yours,

If you let someone close, they will run you over, exploit your weaknesses, and make you want to give up ever trying to make friends again.