#bumirapih

"Siap dok 😁"

"Allahumma inni as alukal-afiyah"

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Been up for this since 2018, clearly diagnosed in mid 2019

Much needed clarity, after I consciously set my mind to shut off every pain I feel somewhere inside my head until that time.

A bit nonsense, but human mind is more than capable to manipulate their own senses.

Well before, I had a goal and one go,

and I stubbornly continue to finish it as long as the pain doesn't disturb my daily move.

Since then, I fully realized that everything in my body behaves differently, although it looks completely normal from the outside.

Since then, I constantly recalibrating and finding new limit up until now.

Sometimes different symptoms-cases appear yearly, fortunately in lighter manner.

Well, I find it valuable - important for my "trial and error" to understand fully my current capability.

Then consider, pain, whether it is physical or non-physical also serves as a blowing siren.

It alerts us.

It keeps us away from bigger harm.

It directs us to know what is wrong inside.

It endures us.

That is when I truly understood,

your need, your desire are limitless

but your capability is on limit.

Embrace, cause Life will always bring some lemons to you.

Cheers, cause one of the joys of Life is when you find the sweetness in your bitterness.

So,

"Alhamdulillah a'la kulli hal" or

Praise to Our Creator in all circumstances,