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25. could you live as a hermit?

Depends - are electricity and internet available? If not, no, but if so, probably-ish? - I’m relatively okay at cooking and I’m sure I can learn how to hunt and forage and such with time

All in all, I probably could, but I don’t particularly want to - I really do like the little quirks that society at large makes available - junk food, fast food, ready-to-eat food. I like food okay hush - and access to huge amounts of information in the form of internet and libraries

6) how is your life different now from two years ago

I graduated HS, I discovered Markiplier, and I’ve become a much more positive person!

15) what is your favorite memory

my memory is awful I couldn’t answer this if I tried

One of the essays I had to write in HS asked p much this exact question and I had to make everything up okay

I’m terrible at memory questions they’re the bane of my existence bc I can’t remember things manually

something has to prompt the memory

it’s super weird and I hate it @A@

4. What is your favorite word? 

uuuuuuhhhh

Flabbergasted? and in terms of usage, Ridiculous.

idk?? *shrugs aggressively*

16. The last song you listened to?

Stars from Les Misérables

41. What is your favorite milkshake flavor?

idk I usually just go with Cookies n’ Cream/Oreo? but for some reason ice cream and milkshakes make my belly go all gurglyburgly and it sucks bc I really love Cold Stone Creamery’s cheesecake ice cream w/ graham crackers, blueberries, and strawberries and I wish to consume it all

but gurglyburgly

57. What is the last thing you drew a picture of?

aquarius: what's the most rebellious thing you've ever done?

I uh

I never actually did any work in my CE/Senior Seminar class

and instead did anything and everything to avoid doing work

I’d draw most of the time and once I figured out I could I played Flight Rising

There’s also French class, I was always drawing in French. I’m p sure that teacher despised me bc I kept doing it and eventually she just gave up bc I drew on literally every piece of paper available to me but hey I got p good grades ehehehe

aquamarine: do you believe the future is predetermined?

Ah, this one's a little hard to explain! I'm very much a believer in the multiverse theory or w/e its actual name is, where there's a complete separate universe for each and every miniscule decision and event that occurs - so in a way, yes, the future is predetermined, but only to the universe belonging to the specific set of choices you choose in life

I'm not the best at explaining it, but hopefully that makes enough sense?

bloodstone: what words are most comforting to you?

I don't actually really know? It's surprisingly rare that I feel like I need comforting in the first place. I guess anything that shows that I matter, that I've made even a little bit of difference, that I've brought a little bit of light into someone's life - I guess that's why I like markiplier's whole 'I believe in you, you can do great things' message that he shares in so many videos, as repetitive as people may see it. It's that reassurance that yeah, I can do these amazing things if I put my mind to it, I can make a difference just by being me, I can help brighten people's days. I could spread warm fuzzy feelings to 6 million people if I put my mind to it - and I've got a pretty dang good start, there are 352 people following this blog, and I hope I bring a little light to all of your days when I pop up on your dashboards!

Knowing that I can make people happy, that I can make the world just a little bit brighter, that's just. such a precious thing to me.

sapphire: if you could control one element, what would it be?

is matter an element

If we're talking classic elements like earth, wind, fire, water, I'd probably go with fire. I like the idea of not really having to worry about being burnt or experiencing frostbite

Depending on whether they count or not, I'd pick matter first, space second, and fire third, I guess

I just really like the idea of matter manipulation, because everything's made out of matter - if you control matter, you can make almost anything happen. Flight, immortality, waterbreathing, so on - if it involves matter, you can do it

pffft eheheh I think there might be a hint for me in this message here somewhere hmmmm

I used to be this cynical, cruel, me-against-the-world person who despised a lot of things and only ever hung out with the 'outcasts' and spewed horribly offensive jokes and all that, as stupid 14-year-olds are apt to do

And I mean, some habits have still stuck with me - I can still be incredibly cruel, I still have a habit of being wary of new people (which isn't necessarily a bad thing), I'm still incredibly critical about myself and others, sometimes I still make horribly offensive jokes (call me out on this if I do)

Hell, even just a year or two ago I'm guilty of some of these things

But I have grown as a person, I have become better than my past self was, I have become a much more positive and passionate and caring person, and it all was kinda set in motion by actually hanging out with more positive people my senior year - people like Katie who doesn't have a tumblr that I know of and who always has something nice to say about everyone, who was always smiling and caring and bringing light into people's lives. I started noticing the people around me who were positive, like you and Sammi and Michelle, the people who genuinely cared, I started realizing that people in my past were toxic and had kinda conditioned me to be cruel and cynical,  and I moved on from them.

I started letting people like you and Jace and Katie and Sammi and Michelle and Kyra and Janelle and Nellie and so many more in Jazz and Drama bring light into my life and I started trying to be a light like that for the people around me my senior year and everything started being more colorful and I started looking forward to waking up at the ass-crack of dawn because I knew I was going to be surrounded by people who make me feel like home when I got there, doing something I have fun with with people I have fun with

And it's just kinda snowballed now that people've introduced me to markiplier and the fandom and I can look at myself and see that I'm so much more happy and positive and caring and my low empathy's not affecting me as much anymore because I'm using empathy on more than like three people and I'm caring more about things and

It all kinda started with you lot

and I've grown so much as a person in such a short time and

I can never thank you all enough

for influencing me to be better

for opening my eyes to how amazing the world can be

for pushing me towards positivity