cause i canât stay with someone else
despite wanting to rip his brotherâs head off, osamu sits next to him. âi can already tell the next few days are gonna be a bitch,â he groans while atsumu laughs.
âi donât need ya to keep me company, samu.â atsumu teases, pinching his brotherâs cheeks. ây/n will take care of me. sheâs been lookinâ forward to this fer weeks.â
osamu freezes again, thinking back to how you were buzzing with anticipation before atsumuâs arrival, anxiously waiting by the front door for him. everythingâs going to revert back to when you were kids again. walking with atsumu hand-in-hand while osamu is left alone in the corner.
heâs going to ruin everything.
she's finally here and she's a big bitch. i've been stressing over this for months and it's finally out. would've been here sooner but work, life, and my own head got in the way. so many of you have been asking for this and i was so worried of letting people down. i really hope you like it and put my lil brain at ease đ„ș
words: 8.1k (i'm sorry)
cw: fem!reader, bullying, name-calling, jealousy, insecurity, fingering, floor sex, slight dubcon, slight somnophilia, multiple orgasms, overstimulation, unprotected sex, lots of italics, very long-overdue love confession, let me know if i didnât tag anything, minors dni
disclaimer: on this blog, we discuss and explore toxic relationships/situations/ just because i write about these themes does not mean i condone/support these types of relationships nor do i do them in my own personal life.
these are fictional characters in fictional scenarios and nobody should be taking real-life advice or mirror the actions of the characters in these stories!
âThe fuck ya smilinâ so much about?â Osamu says when you show up at his place that day. Youâve been so giddy the past few days, practically bouncing with every step. Osamuâs harsh words didnât even phase you, it was almost as if you werenât even listening to him.
âYou seriously donât know?â you ask, barely able to contain the smile on your face. Osamu eyes you curiously, youâre never this expressive (unless Osamu did something particularly mean to you) but Osamu doesnât feel like playing your games today.
He turns on his heel to head back to his room. âIf yer not gonna tell me, Iâm takinâ a nap,â he grumbles, hoping youâd join him but youâre sitting on the couch looking at the front door every once in a while. Osamu stops for a second...Couldnât be. He thinks before continuing back to his room to shut his eyes.
His sleep doesnât last long. About an hour later, Osamuâs stomping back into the living room ready to yell at you for waking him up with your shrieking. But he stops dead in his tracks when he sees you in the arms of someone else.
Atsumu.
Itâs as if you leaped into his arms after he walked through the door. His bags are dropped near his feet as he holds your weight, laughing along with your excitement. You donât even spare him a passing glance as you bombard Atsumu with questions about how training camp is going. During your rambling, Atsumuâs brown eyes flick over to his younger brother, smiling at the grimace on his face.
âYa said ya werenât cominâ back for another week,â Osamu says, crossing his arms. You finally turn your head to where heâs standing and your eyes widen for a secondâfear?âbut Atsumu curls his arm tighter around your waist and offers his twin a shrug.
âVacation started early,â he smirked, walking towards the couch while still holding you. He plopped down, with you in his lap. âThought Iâd surprise ya.â It was a surprise as far as Osamu was concerned. He thought he had more time until the hurricane that was his loudmouthed brother eventually came home.
It had been a few months since Atsumu had been back. He had been off at training camp since graduation. At first, he came home every other weekend but as the training became more intensive, he decided to stay at camp longer to focus on his regimen. Osamu remembers the day his brother left. Atsumu had been your best friend since childhood and when he went off to camp, you couldnât stop crying. The never-ending flow of tears pissed Osamu off to the point that he eventually did something about it.
It ended up with him fucking you in Atsumuâs bed.
Since then, it was Osamu whose shadow you were always in. Talking to him so sweetly and doing whatever you could to please him. He didnât have to share you with anyone but now his biggest competition is back and it isnât even a fair fight. Five minutes in, and youâre practically straddling him talking nonsensically about all the things you can do now that heâs home. Osamuâs fuming but he doesnât react, heâs been in this position before.
âOh, youâre probably starving. We should get some food,â you say, moving off his lap to grab your phone. âI bet youâre not in the mood to cook, Samu. Letâs order something!â Atsumu hums in agreement, never taking his eyes off you as you walk out the room to figure out what to eat.
Once youâre gone, Atsumu turns his attention back to the upset man in the room. âNot gonna give yer brother a hug?â he asks, comically holding his arms out.
But Osamu is ready to clock him in the jaw for that stunt he pulled. Most people know to stay away from you if they know whatâs good for them. Osamu was never too far away from you most daysâwalking you to and from class with an arm wrapped around your waist. Any guy who was dumb enough to try to get with you usually became well-acquainted with Osamuâs fist. But Atsumu is the only person he couldnât face, not when you looked at him as if he hung all the stars in the sky.
Osamu always locked up when Atsumu was around. Everyone favored his brotherâhe was the nicer twin, the life of the party, people loved being in his presence. You were no different. Osamu can think back to all the times you ran into his brotherâs arms, much like you did today, after âbig, bad Samuâ hurt your feelings.
With his brother gone, Osamu showed a different side of him. Sure, heâs still calling you an âidiotâ every other sentence but Osamu noticed you leaning into his touch, asking for kisses, and holding his hand absentmindedly. Things you never did when Atsumu was around.
âSo ya told her you were cominâ back but not me?â Osamu asks, ignoring Atsumuâs request.
Atsumu feigns a sad look. âShe wanted to tell ya, but I thought this was funnier,â he smirks. âI was right.â
Despite wanting to rip his brotherâs head off, Osamu sits next to him. âI can already tell the next few days are gonna be a bitch,â he groans while Atsumu laughs.
âI donât need ya to keep me company, Samu.â Atsumu teases, pinching his brotherâs cheeks. ây/n will take care of me. Sheâs been lookinâ forward to this fer weeks.â
Osamu freezes again, thinking back to how you were buzzing with anticipation before Atsumuâs arrival, anxiously waiting by the front door for him. Everythingâs going to revert back to when you were kids again. Walking with Atsumu hand-in-hand while Osamu is left alone in the corner.
Heâs going to ruin everything.
~
Osamu had been right when he said his brotherâs visit would be exhausting. For the past few days, you and Atsumu were joint at the hip. If you two werenât cuddling on the couch for a movie night, you were probably in the backyard tossing a volleyball around which usually ended with the two of you rolling around in the grass. If Atsumuâs need to be touching every part of your body wasnât bad enough, he wasnât shy about giving you compliments whenever Osamu walked in the room.
âYer so pretty when ya smile like that,â Atsumu cooed one morning while Osamu was making breakfastâit took all his energy not to fling the skillet at his brotherâs head. To make it worse, youâd blush every time he threw a stupid line like that. Osamu tried to ignore it but it seemed as though Atsumu made it his mission to shower you with affection.
âYouâre mad,â you pointed out. Atsumu had left the house to hang out with some of his former Inarizaki teammates, leaving you and Osamu alone. You crawled into Osamuâs bed, mumbling the words against his lips. âDonât beâŠâ
He lets you kiss him, lets you run your fingers through his dyed locks. Osamu wonât admit that heâs missed your touch but when he inhales your scent, all he can smell is his brother. âWhy didnât ya go off with him?â he grunts, pushing you off before rolling on his side.
You donât give up, though, wrapping your arms around him to be the big spoon. âDonât be upset. Itâs been so long since weâve seen Tsumu. Obviously, I want to spend time with him,â you explain, doing little to soothe Osamuâs bad mood. âYou should too, heâs your brother.â
âIâve hung out with him enough to last a lifetime,â he huffs. Osamu can feel your hands wandering, stopping just as theyâre about to slip past his pajama bottoms. Part of him wants to let you continue, but he canât bring himself to. With his brother around, Osamu hasnât had the chance to get his hands on you. Every time he turned a corner, you were perched in Atsumuâs lap, laughing at whatever bullshit he spewed out. When he was younger, Osamu would just get pissed off and sulk in his room but things feel different now. Heâs been able to have youâheâs seen you writhing underneath him, moaning from his touch, and screaming his name. To see you hanging off his brother now stings a bit more. âCan ya fuck off? Go spend time with Tsumu since yer so worried about him.â
Osamu shoves you away, nearly pushing you off the mattress. He hears you whine in discomfort when your phone goes off. âH-hello?â you mumble, rejection heavy in your voice. Osamu doesnât have to try very hard to know that itâs his brother on the phone. His annoying voice came through the speaker. âUh, no, Iâm not doing anything...yeah, I can meet you there.â Osamu caught the hesitation in your voice but tried not to dwell on it, you were still leaving him anyway. âNo, you donât have to come get meâoh, okayâŠâ
The call ends a few minutes later, Osamu hears your footsteps fade as you leave the room. He wished you said something before you left but you were probably too scared that you would piss him off.
âIs she datinâ anyone?â Atsumu asks later that evening, once again bothering Osamu while he was cooking. You were next door at your place, grabbing a few things before returning for dinner. You must have been exhausted with the way Atsumu dragged you around everywhere.
âExcuse me?â the younger twin asks, staring at his brother incredulously.
Atsumu rolled his eyes. ây/n, stupid. I was askinâ Kita about it but he wouldnât give me an answer. Figured if anyone knew itâd be ya.â he said, leaning on the counter. âYouâve been takinâ good care of her since Iâve been away, yeah?â
Osamu feels his face heat up, thinking about the last time the two of you had sex. You looked so cute in the new skirt you had on and Osamu couldnât help himselfâhe had to embarrass you by flipping it up and showing off your pretty pink panties in front of your friends just to see the tears form in your eyes. You had bitched at him all the way home, crying about how mean he was being.
He thought you looked so adorable when you were upset, leaning in for a kiss in the middle of your ranting. âYa ever shut up, ya fuckinâ brat?â he asks condescendingly, running his hands along your body. âWill ya stop cryinâ if I stuff you with my cock? Fill ya up âtill all ya can think about is me?â
The way your eyes light up when Osamu talks like this never fails to amaze him. Such an innocent façade you put on for the rest of the world but only Osamu knows what a cock drunk little bitch you become, begging for âmore, more, moreâ when he has you under him. He knows he doesnât have to do all of this just to get you in bed but thereâs a sick pleasure Osamu feels when he does something to make you upset. It makes you more eager to please, so submissive. Thereâs no better sight than you fucked dumb, whimpering how âitâs too much, samuâ.
âEarth to Samu,â Atsumu grunts, snapping his fingers in front of his brotherâs face. âHave ya been listeninâ to me?â
Shaking his head of his lewd thoughts, Osamu grumbles a response. âSheâs not my fuckinâ problem. How should I know if sheâs with someone?â he lies, going back to his food that, thankfully, hasnât burned. âWhy so concerned all of a sudden?â
Atsumu sighs dramatically. âIâve thought about askinâ her out,â he muses, eyes giving his twin a once over before continuing. âYa think sheâd say yes? Sheâs always so affectionate when Iâm around, itâs cute. Wondered if ya figured sheâd be interested.â
Osamuâs ability to keep his composure has to be some kind of record. He can feel his vision blur and his hands clenching. For once, he thought he could have something to himself. Something Atsumu couldnât ruin for himâlike heâs done all his life. You might have been Atsumuâs friend growing up but the ârelationshipâ you and Osamu shared was something his older brother could never understand.
He was going to mess it up, just like with everything else.
And Osamu couldnât muster up the courage to tell him to back off. He wasnât your boyfriend, something heâs made that clear to anyone stupid enough to ask. That never stopped him from getting jealous, though. Getting pissed off at you for letting another man flirt with you at a party or getting antsy when you ventured off too far from him. All heâs ever wanted was your attention but Atsumuâs always been the brighter, shinier one of the two.
âDo whatever ya want,â he says. âNot like I care.â
~
You started feeling tired after dinner, mumbling something about heading back home to rest. Atsumu offered his bed for the night but Osamu shuts it down quickly. âShe can sleep on the couch,â he barks, shoving past his brother to get extra pillows and a blanket. He doesnât miss the pained look on your face. Itâs normally Osamuâs bed you sleep in, wrapped up in his arms every night. However, every time you tried to initiate something with him, Osamu pulled away. Itâs to the point where he wonât even kiss you anymore and each time you get too scared to go any further.
But now, hours after both you and Atsumu had gone to bed, Osamuâs sneaking into the living room. You always looked so peaceful when you were sleeping. Normally, you were at your witsâ end, exasperated by Osamuâs revolving door of mood swings. So innocent, so easy to corrupt. Just the way he liked.
He curled up behind you, pulling you to his chest. The movement doesnât seem to bother you as your form snuggles into him, as if you knew exactly what to do. Osamu takes a second to hold youâthe past few days felt like an eternity and Atsumuâs words rattling around in his head have made it worse.
âIâve thought about askinâ her outâ
The thought of you in Atsumuâs clutches was too much. Youâd fall so easily for his charms, everyone always did. Heâd sweet talk youâfill your head with praises and promises to get you into his bed. He may have been your friend but Osamu staked his claim on you ages ago. Would that mean anything in the end?
Osamuâs hand is already down your shorts, fingers collecting the essence from your cunt. The familiarity of it all makes him groan in your shoulder. Softly, he runs his fingers along your slit, spreading your legs a bit for easier access. The constant prodding has you stirring in your sleep.
Still, Osamu refuses to slip inside you just yet, he wants to make you work for it a bit. Thereâs nothing you could have done to prevent Atsumuâs arrival, but heâll gladly take his anger out on you. You slightly raise your hips, hoping for some relief in your slumber. Osamu holds you down, makes you take it at his pace. âAhhhâŠâ a sigh falls from your lips.
âI know,â he whispers, finally entering your warmth with two fingers. Your body tenses, mouth opening as a whine escapes. He shushes you as he angles his digits to reach for the sweet spot, the one that makes your walls spasm with pleasure.
âSamu,â you whimper, hands balled into fists. Thatâs right, he thinks, better know who you fucking belong to. He could tell youâve been needy for him with how your slick coats his fingers. Osamu grinds his clothed cock against your assâoh, how he wishes he could fuck you how he wanted, send you into a deep sleep with a belly full of cum. But you get so loud when heâs inside, tears running down your cheeks while getting railed.
What would Atsumu say if he saw? His precious y/n getting fucked by his younger brother whoâs always been nothing but a menace to her since they were kids. Maybe Osamu should tell him how he took your virginity the night Atsumu left for training camp. How Osamu dragged you to his brotherâs bed and had you bouncing on his cock. He should talk about how pretty you looked, cumming over and over until the only name you could remember was Osamuâs.
The sound of your cries brought Osamu back to the present, he had been ignoring your clit all this time and you were desperate for your release. Feeling generous, Osamu grinds the heel of his palm against your neglected bud, offering the stimulation youâve been craving. Your head leaned back as another gasp escaped. Your hips started jolting, pitifully fucking yourself on Osamuâs fingers to reach your high.
Your eyes shoot open when you cum, creaming around Osamuâs hand with his name falling from your lips. He can feel his cock straining against his sweats as he feels your juices drench his fingers, the filthy sound of your pussy fluttering makes him harder with each passing second. He stops when your hand reaches for his wrist, your body shuddering from sensitivity.
Osamu shifts you around so youâre facing him, your breathing is still heavy as you try to calm down. âJust looked so pretty while you were sleepinâ, dummy,â he hums against your lips. âCouldnât help myself.â You sigh into his mouth when he kisses you properly, holding him close with your still-drowsy limbs.
He sucks in a breath when he feels you press your center against him, silently asking for him to fuck you. âCanât,â
âBut youâre hard,â you whine, moving your knee in between his legs to tease him more. Osamu moans at your touch, the pressure inside is telling him to push you on your back and have his way but he canât bring himself to do it. Not when heâs upstairs. âPlease?â
âNot tonight,â he says. That rejected look is back on your face before your brows furrow. To Osamuâs surprise, you return to your original position with your back facing him. âDonât act like thatââ
âGoodnight, Samu,â you bite back, not willing to hear him out anymore. For once, Osamu doesnât have an insult to hurl at you, the urge to put you in your place isnât there. Instead, he peels away from your form. He takes one last glance at you but you refuse to look at him. Feeling unwelcomed, Osamu heads upstairs to his room. He stops for a moment when he spots the door to Atsumuâs room and wonders if youâd say yes to him if he asked you out.
He shakes the thought away and continues down the hall.
~
Osamu ended up sleeping in the next day, the clock reading half past noon when he woke up. He doesnât like being in bed that late and he wonders if you had breakfast in the morning.
He turns over to find you standing by his door with a hard-to-read look on your face. You shut the door behind you, crouching by Osamuâs bed. This feels wrongâyou should have been in his bed last night, he should be holding you right now, whispering in your ear with a softness that was reserved for this time of the day. Osamu even made space for you on the mattress but you wouldnât take it.
âWhatâs your problem?â you asked with a ferocity in your eyes that heâs not used to seeing. âI mean, really, Samu. Ever since Tsumuâs been here, youâve been pushing me away. Did I do something?â
âWhatâre ya bitchinâ about now?â Osamu groans, rolling over to ignore you but your hand on his shoulder stops him. You keep it there, forcing him to face you.
âIâm serious, youâve been so nasty to me...more than usual.â youâre looking at him in the eye, something else heâs not used to. âAnd last nightâthat was the first time youâve touched me in daysâŠâ your cheeks flushed, thinking about Osamuâs fingers plunging in and out of you.
He thinks back to how you looked last night, delirious from sleep and his hand down your shorts yet still so willing to get him off. Even right now he wants you underneath him, to hold you close and feel every part of you. After hearing his lack of response, you puff out your cheeks and Osamu smiles softly. Heâd never say it out loud but he finds your small defiance cute.
âUm, me and AtsumuâŠâ you start and Osamu feels his stomach drop, fearing the words that are about to leave your lips. âWe made breakfast this morning because we wanted to let you sleep and we started talking.â Your eyes flicked over at Osamuâs, the attitude you had completely disappeared. âHe asked me out on a date.â
The sinking feeling in Osamuâs stomach starts to burn. He can feel the rage building up inside but he canât take it out on you, he needs to think first. âExcuse me?â
Your cheeks flush, hands shaking a bit. âIt came out of nowhere! We were talking about how heâs going back to camp soon and he was saying how much he missed meâŠâ Itâs as if youâre choosing your words carefully, worried what Osamuâs reaction might be. âAnd then he said that we should get dinner and at first, I thought he meant the three of us but⊠He said he wanted it to be the two of usâlike a date.â
âWhat did you say?â he asks through gritted teeth. You stare at him sympathetically and Osamu knows you said yes. Once again he comes in second place to Atsumu, the golden child. How could he compare? He sits up finally, towering over you crouched on the floor, bracing himself for your answer.
âI told him Iâd think about it,â your answer doesnât make him feel better. You shouldâve told him no right then and there. But then again, rejection has never been in Atsumuâs vocabulary. âI wanted to talk to you first.â
âWhatâs there to talk about, y/n?â
You shoot him an incredulous look. âI figured youâd have some opinion on it sinceâyou knowâŠâ
âBecause I fuck ya?â Osamu can feel the venom bubbling in his throat. He didnât know why he was acting this way. âIf ya wanna fuck Atsumu too, go ahead. I canât control ya.â
âYou know thatâs not what Iâm talking about, Samu!â you snap, catching him off guard. âJust tell me you donât want me to go.â
âI donât care what ya do,â he says, getting out of bed and shoving past you.
But you, persistent as ever, followed him down the hallway. âYou donât care? You always seem to care when you think someone is flirting with me. Or when you caught Suna staring at my ass that one time.â you stand in front of his path to get his attention. âI know you donât want me to go, just say it!â
Youâre giving him a way out. I donât want you to go out with him, he wants to say. I want you to stay here with me. But the insecurity creeping away at him wonders if part of you wants to be with his brother instead.
âIâm not yer boyfriend,â he says, his go-to argument. One that youâve heard a million times.
âGod, Iâm so fucking tired of hearing that,â you reach for Osamuâs face, forcing him to stare back at you. He doesnât want to talk about this right now. It would be so easy to brush you off and act like this conversation never happenedâheâs done it so many times. But the look on your face tells him youâre not standing for it. âSometimes I wonder if I actually mean anything. Am I just someone for you fuck, Samu?â
No, he thinks. Osamu can feel his hold on you, the one heâs worked so hard to keep, slipping away. Shouldnât you know how he feels for you at this point? Why does he have to put a label on it?
Osamuâs the one who takes care of you when youâre sick, snapping at you for being so reckless with your health. Heâs the one who picks you up at the bar when youâve had too much to drink, who holds you when youâre having a bad day and all you want to do is cry. Why couldnât you see that part?
But then he thinks of how youâve been looking at him lately. Your arms reach out to touch him, to hold him, and he slaps them away. Brushing past you as if you hadnât said anything. And every time he does it, you end up going to Atsumu. Itâs history repeating over and over and Osamu doesnât have the nerve to stop it.
Your frustrated sigh breaks his trance. âYou canât have me whenever you want and then act like you donât care. Either I mean something to you or I donât.â
He softens in your embrace. âYa mean a lot more than just somethinâ, y/n,â he says, fingers tugging at your shirt to bring you closer to him.
âHow would I know that?â
Thereâs nothing Osamu wants more than to kiss you right now. Heâs deprived himself of your touch for so long and he wants to drown in it. Youâre mine, he thinks, youâve always been mine, not his.
And who should round the corner at this very moment? âAm I interruptinâ somethinâ?â Osamu peers over your shoulder and there he is, smirking as if he knows a joke that everyone else is privy to. Osamu feels your body tense up and your hold on him waver, itâs subtle but he notices it immediately.
Heâs suddenly shoving you away from him. You would have fallen on your ass if Atsumu wasnât there to catch you. âHey!â Atsumu scolds as your body falls into his arms. âThe fuck is wrong with ya?â Brown eyes shoot daggers at Osamu.
But he can only focus on how you look as if youâre about to burst into tearsâeyes rimmed red and lip quivering. Why did he push you away again? Why was he always bringing you back into Atsumuâs grasp? Osamu opens his mouth to apologize, something he rarely ever does even when he knows heâs in the wrong. But the sad look on your face starts to harden and youâre staring at Osamu with a wave of anger heâs never seen before.
âI never answered your question, Tsumu,â you mumble, turning in Atsumuâs hold so youâre facing him. The blonde is a little confused at first but he catches on after seeing the small smile on your face.
âReally?â he asks as if he wasnât furious just seconds before.
âYeah,â you look up with a sparkle in your eyes that has only been reserved for him. Osamu wants to pull you away but he freezes upon hearing the last few words that leave your lips. âIâd love to go out with you.â
~
Osamu is in the kitchen when the two of you leave for your date. He wants to rip Atsumuâs head off when he wraps his arms around your waist. Heâs never seen you look so excited about something and wonders if youâll have a good time.
He distracts himself by drinking with friends but he canât have a good time knowing that youâre probably giggling at one of Atsumuâs stupid jokes right now. His brother must be a blushing mess by now, bashfully admitting how heâs always wanted to ask you out. Would you fall for his lines and admit that youâve always wanted him too?
What would happen when Atsumu eventually had to go back to training camp? Would you end back up in Osamuâs shadow, hoping for a sweet word from him? No, he thinks. Heâs ruined any chance of that by now. He so desperately wanted you all to himself and he let you get away.
Not because Atsumu was better than him. Not because you didnât want him. But because he couldnât show that he had given a shit about you.
Osamu stares down at the amber liquid in his glass. He canât remember how many drinks heâs had tonight, he just keeps asking the bartender for more. Taking his glass in hand, Osamu knocks back whatâs left, feeling the alcohol burn in his throat.
âGeez, how drunk you trying to get?â Suna snorts, pausing the conversation he was having with Ginjima.
Osamu considers Sunaâs words for a second, starting to feel the effects of the liquor in his veins. But he can still picture your hand on Atsumuâs chest, leaning in closer and closer untilâŠ
âDrunk enough to forget tonight,â he grunts, motioning the bartender to get him another drink.
âDonât you think youâve had too much?â Ginjima asks, a worried look on his face as Osamu sips his alcohol. But the fact that heâs still sober enough to remember that you and Atsumu are out on a date right now means that he needs more. Osamuâs looking to get absolutely shitfaced if it means he doesnât have to see your face in his head anymore.
Somewhere in his haze, Osamu must have brought up the situation with Atsumu as Suna lets out a very fitting âYikes,â and the mood shifts. Everyone knew about the strained relationship with the twins and how you were always in the middle of itâboth of them tugging on your arm like you were a toy to be fought over.
They saw how Osamuâs demeanor changed when Atsumu went away. Sure, he was still an insufferable grump who saw red anytime another man so much as breathed near you. But when he was with you, he was softerâthough heâd never admit that. You were the only one that could quell his anger and stop his emotions from getting the better of him.
He was so secretive at first when the two of you started fooling around. Nobody could know what went on between you but after a while, Osamu would tell on himself constantly with the firm grip he had on your hand. Heâd hold you close, whisper in your ear, and eventually start kissing you in front of everyone but somehow expected his friends not to ask questions. Weâre not dating. Heâd say one minute before punching some dude at a party for thinking he could dance up on you.
âFunny,â Suna quips, nursing his own drink, though itâs still the only one heâs had all night. âI canât believe Atsumu would ask her out again,â
âAgain?â
Sunaâs brow quirks. âYou never knew? Astumu asked y/n out back in high school. Caught him crying in the locker room when she turned him down,â
Atsumu had asked you out before? And you turned him down? You had never mentioned anything about that to Osamu but, to be fair, the two of you werenât exactly friendly to each other back then. As soon as Atsumu left for camp, Osamu made him a taboo subject to bring up in conversation. Most girls would have killed to be with his brother back thenâeven now, Atsumu can light up a room better than anyone else. But you had rejected him. Why?
But then Osamu remembers that you went out with Atsumu anyway while heâs sitting at a random bar. Whether or not you turned down Atsumu and why you did it doesnât matter all that much.
He swallows the remainder of his drink and immediately orders a round of shots. Ginjima groans while Suna, eager to get drunk as well, claps him on the back. But Osamuâs not trying to have fun tonight, he wants to forget how badly he fucked everything upâuntil your face is no longer etched in his brain.
Itâs the middle of the night when Osamu makes it home, or he thinks so at least. Heâs not sure how he managed to leave the bar but suspects Ginjima called him a cab. He stumbles through the front door, knocking into furniture with every step. Heâs usually good at handling his liquor but thatâs because youâre there, making sure heâs limiting himself.
His blurred vision prevents him from noticing everything blocking his path, bumping into chairs and tables as if he doesnât know the layout of his fucking house. Going upstairs to his room would be too much of a hassle by now so, in his drunken state, he makes his way toward the couch to sleep there for the night.
At least, he tries to.
Osamu, the drunk idiot that he is, bangs his knee into the coffee table and crashes to the floor. âShit,â he grunts, holding onto his knee in pain. It doesnât help that his head is pounding and the room is spinning too. Osamu thinks he might have drunk too much tonight but, unfortunately, youâre still weighing heavy on his mind which means he didnât have enough.
âSamu?â says a shrill, familiar voice. âWhat the hell are you doing here?â
A lamp flickers on and Osamu groans as the light hits his eyes. He waits for them to get used to the light before directing his attention to the source of the voice.
Youâre at the foot of the stairs, scowling at the boy curled up on the floor. âYou look like shit. Do you even know where you are right now?â
Osamu furrows his brow. He forces his eyes to focus on the living room. Only then does he realize that nothing looks rightâthe coffee table doesnât have the broken corner on it from when the twins were play-fighting a few years back and the pictures hung on the wall look different.
This is your house.
It doesnât take much brainpower to figure out that Osamu must have wobbled his way to your place instead of his. Your houses were right next to each other and heâs always had a spare key.
âShit,â he grumbles, feeling stupid. His body is too sore to make the trek back home. He decides heâll leave in the morning.
Youâre next to him in seconds, kneeling at his side and helping him off the floor. âLetâs get you to the couch, okay?â Osamu grimacesâwhether itâs from the pain in his knee or the fact that he can still smell the faint scent of your perfume, heâs not sure. He takes in the sight of you, your hair slightly tousled and framing your face, eyes full of concern, and lips plump and soft. Heâs angrier than heâs ever been but more than anything he just wants to kiss you. Thatâs when he notices youâre wearing pajamas. A t-shirt thatâs much too big for you and your cute sleep shorts. Only this one doesnât look like his.
As you guide him across the living room and sit him down on the couch, Osamu grabs a fistful of the shirt and pulls you forward. âThe fuck is this?â The force of him snatching you sends you down to your knees, staring up at him.
âItâs yours,â you say quickly, hoping heâs too drunk to notice that youâre lying. But youâre preaching to the choir. Osamu doesnât own anything that looks like thisâhe knows someone who does, though.
âIs he upstairs? Did ya bring him here to fuck him?â That tried and true anger of his is festering in the pit of his stomach. His grip tightens, threatening to rip the fabric off of you.
âSamu, you reek of booze,â you try to reason, small hands fighting against him. âNobodyâs upstairs, okay? Nothing happened tonight.â
âDonât believe ya. What the fuck would ya have this on, then?â Youâre his. It didnât matter if Atsumu got his clutches in you already, you always belonged to Osamu, even when you were little. Before you can open your mouth with some stupid excuse, Osamuâs pushing you to the floor and hovering over you. âHow could ya hurt me like that?â
You scoff. âLike you havenât been hurting me? What do you want from me, Samu?â
âYa still donât know?â Osamu pulls the ugly shirt off you, revealing your tits in the warm, dim light. He can tell youâre frustrated by the deep blush spreading across your cheeks. Heâs refused himself of your body for so long. Heâs going to devour you.
Osamu latches onto your breast, biting down on your bud. The whimper that leaves your lips goes straight to his cock. He shouldâve done this days ago. âSamu! Youâre too drunk, we shouldnât.â Of course, one of you has to be responsible, Osamu figures but heâs not stupid. He can feel you grinding on his cock.
âSo tell me to stop,â he says against your chest, hand slipping down to cup at your clothed cunt. He takes note of how your body tenses up when he does it. âThatâs what I thought.â He sucks on your breast while his hand creeps past your shorts. Already so wet, he chuckles, running the tips of his fingers along your slit.
You canât stop gasping, unable to grab onto anything to ground yourself, and balling your hands into fists. Itâs so cute how you hump Osamuâs hand, eager to get off. He fumbles to undo his own belt, freeing his half-hard cock with one hand before he starts jerking himself off to the noises youâre making. It only makes you more desperate, cries leave your lips as you reach out to touch him.
âOh, ya want my cock, dummy?â he coos, tugging your bottoms down and leaving you fully naked under him. He doesnât miss how quickly you nod, yelping when his fat cock slides against your folds. Osamu ruts into you while he continues his assault on your titsârolling your nipples in between his fingers and sucking at the sensitive skin. He makes sure not to catch the tip of his cock on your clit so you wonât be fully satisfied.
âSamu!â you whine, just like he knew you would. Your fingers tug on his hair, pulling him away from your chest. âDonât tease me, please.â
The tears forming in your eyes make Osamuâs dick twitch. âTell me how bad ya want it,â he orders, snapping his hips against your center so your thighs tremble. But youâre hesitating, eyes not meeting his as if youâre afraid to say whatâs on your mind. Suddenly, Osamuâs heart is sinking to his stomach. Had he gone too far? Did he say something wrong?
His intrusive thoughts are interrupted when he feels your soft hands cradle his face. âI just need an answer, Samu. Am I yours or just someone you fuck?â A few tears run down your cheeks. âI canât keep doing this anymore.â
Osamu presses his forehead against yours. âIâm not good at this,â he says, pinning your hands above your head, fingers intertwining. âBut youâve always been mine, y/n. All Iâve ever wanted was you.â With a kiss, Osamu sinks into your cunt and has to get used to how tight you areâit really has been too long.
The sensation drives you crazy as well, arms wrapped around Osamuâs neck, sobbing in pleasure. âSay it again,â you cry against his lips, ignoring the slight pain of getting used to having him inside you again. âTell me Iâm yours again, please. Wanna hear it.â
Both of you sigh when Osamu finally bottoms out. He looks down towards your stomach, where itâs slightly bulging. âMine, and only mine, yeah?â he breathes, taking a few seconds to get used to your walls squeezing down on him. Slowly, he pulls back a little before grinding back into you. âFuck, Iâve missed ya so much.â he gasps, hands reaching underneath your thighs to press them to your chest.
Your high-pitched cries fill the room as Osamu pounds your sweet cunt. Youâre trying your best to keep your eyes on him but each thrust knocks the wind out of you. âFeels sâgood, Samu. Missed you tooâfuck!â Your walls choke his cock, thigh shaking as your orgasm comes crashing down on you. âGonna cum, gonna cum!â
âCum for me, then. My sweet lil dummy, yeah?â Osamu growls, quickening his pace until the sound of skin slapping is overwhelming. The force of your orgasm nearly pushes Osamuâs cock out of you. Cries leave your lips while you come down from the high. Your eyes are red and puffy from all the tears youâve shed. Osamu takes a moment of his own, staving off his own release.
Osamu sits up, shedding the rest of his clothes before pulling you into his lap. You grimace when you feel him lining himself up to enter you once more. âSensitive,â you mumble, face in the crook of Osamuâs neck.
But you donât fight back when heâs inside you once more, cock stretching you out until your hips finally meet. âYa can give me another one, hm? For me?â Osamu kisses along your jawline, giving you a breather before heâs fucking you proper once more. âYouâre mine, remember? Gotta fill ya up nice and good with my cum, yeah?â
His words have you moaning against his skin, unabashedly fucking yourself on his cock despite your poor cunt already spent from your last orgasm. âLove it when you say that,â you cup his face between your palms, kissing him over and over. âWant your cum, Samu. Want you to fill me up, please, please, please.â
Seeing you so fucked out, bouncing in his lap and begging for him triggers something primal in Osamu. He snatches your hips, nails digging into your skin. Tears flood down your face while the rhythm Osamu sets becomes brutal. âGonna ruin ya for everyone else,â he snarls, feeling the precipice of his own release. âThis body was made fer me, yeah. Just meâŠâ His hand slips between both your bodies, catching your clit to send you over the edge once more.
âJustâjust you!â you cry, chanting Osamuâs name like a prayer when you cum for a second time, making a mess of both of you. The way your walls convulse around him as Osamuâs cock twitching before heâs spilling inside your warm, willing cunt. Itâs not long before youâre whining from how full you are. Osamuâs cum has always been thick and too much but heâs been pent from not fucking you for what felt like ages. âFullâŠâ you whimper.
âYa can take it,â he shushes, keeping both of you in that position until heâs sure youâve milked him dry. Youâve relaxed in his arms, body exhausted from a rough and thorough fucking. He pulls out after a while, his cum seeping out of you and he has half a mind to finger it back inside but he restrains himself and gets you both cleaned up.
He must have sobered up at some point by how efficient he is at getting the two of you in your tub, cleaning off the sweat and cum from your bodies before dressing you in fresh pajamas. Thankfully, he always keeps spare clothes in your house. Osamu carries you to bed, ready to curl you into his side and doze off into a peaceful sleep. But somehow, with tired limbs you climb into his lap, arms wrapped around his neck.
âYou meant what you said, right?â you ask, sleepy eyes staring up at him. âYouâre not going to push me away again?â And Osamu can see the fear in your eyes, the worry that he might take his words back in the morning and send the both of you back to square one. He canât blame you, heâs had his moments where heâs been inexplicably sweet to you just to go back on his word.
You continue, âI didnât mean to hurt you, Samu. I only did it âcause Iâve been hurting for so long. I thought maybe I was wasting my time here because you wouldnât commit to me,â You play with the ends of his hair, softly tugging on the freshly-washed strands. âI just wanted you to tell me not to go on the date because you wanted to be with me. Sometimes I just feel like some girl you caught dibs on or something...as if you donât actually care to be with me for me.â
Osamu sighs, he thought he was already showing those things for youâin his own way. But what you wanted was validation, something concrete to show that you meant something to him. Maybe thatâs why you sought comfort in Atsumu whoâs never been shy about expressing how special you are to him.
âIâm sorry,â he says, the words feeling foreign in his mouth. Your eyes grow wide with shock. Osamuâs never apologized to you before, for anything. There were moments when he wanted to but something, pride or stupidity, always stopped him. When heâd upset you, heâd cook your favorite meal, buy a gift or fuck the anger out of you. But he knows that canât be his default anymore. âI shouldâve seen that I was hurtinâ ya butâŠâ
Osamuâs afraid of what he wants to say next, afraid of what your reaction might be but itâs something he needs to do.
âThe truth is seeing ya with Atsumu makes me so scared. âCause...youâre just so happy when heâs around and I get worried that maybe youâd prefer him over me. Most people do...â he feels your hand cup his cheek and he leans into your touch. âI wanted to make ya happy like that but seeing you with him made me so angry that I just took it out on ya instead.â
Now or never, Osamu thinks. âYouâve never been just some girl. Youâre the only girl thatâs ever meant anything to me. Iâve been in love with ya since we were kids and Iâve just been too fucking stupid to realize it. Iâve always loved ya and all Iâve wanted was for ya to love me backânot cause yer stuck with me or somethin' but cause ya actually mean it.â
His body is shaking and he feels like heâs going to vomit from nerves. Somehow, Osamu musters up the courage to look you in the eye and he sees that youâre crying again. But these are different tears because youâre leaning in and kissing him feverishly. Again and again and again. It isnât until he feels your fingertips rubbing his cheeks that Osamu realizes heâs crying too. Fuck, heâs actually crying.
âI do love you,â you proclaim with the biggest smile Osamuâs ever seen. âAnd Iâll keep saying it until you know itâs true.â But Osamu just needed to hear it only once to believe it. You love him.
And he loves you.
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âYouâre indulging him,â Osamu complains, pulling you into his lap as the two of you sit at the bottom of the stairs watching everyone else mingle in the living room.
âHe wouldnât shut up about it if we didnât do it,â you remind him for the hundredth time. âJust be nice tonight, okay?â You kiss the pout off his face but Osamu still grumbles under his breath.
Atsumu was leaving in the morning but he, of course, wanted a going away party to see him off. Osamu thought it was a bit dramaticâhis brother would only be gone for two months tops but Atsumu always craved the spotlight.
As usual, he charmed everyone with his stories from training camp and all the amazing athletes and coaches heâs working with. How heâs already being scouted for professional teams. Just a few more hours, Osamu thinks.
The one highlight is that this is Osamuâs first official outing as your boyfriend, something he feels a bit smug about since it takes some of the attention away from his idiot twin. Some people were surprised when you two finally made it official. Others, Suna and Kita, werenât as shocked and wondered why it took so long to happen in the first place.
âWhat is the grumpy Miya Osamu thinking about right now?â you ask, head leaning against his shoulder.
Osamu kisses your temple. âHow much Iâd rather be in bed than listen to Atsumu tell this story again. What about ya?â
You smile at him with a sparkle in your eye that Osamu knows it's just for him. âHow much I love you,â
Osamu snorts, hoping it covers the blush thatâs most definitely on his cheeks but heâs sure you see right through him. âI love you too, dummy.â
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