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Buffy was my first fandom and the first fandom I ever wrote fanfic for. The news of Anthony Stewart Head's death this week hit me harder than I would have expected, so I wrote a little something.

Descriptions of ideas/snippets/concepts in my Buffy fic master doc. (Part 2)

Yes!! I have a good idea. Thank you!

If it’s meant to be, it’ll be

Series- Angle or Buffy the vampire slayer

Paring- Female x angel

Summary- Request!! You and Angel are broken up and you’re off to university, but he can’t stand no contact after all.

Warnings- kissing, maybe swearing.

“So- you’re finally moved in” my mum smiled at me, looking round the room. Her arms fell and slapped against her thighs. I jolted. It snapped me back into reality. “Huh?” I replied. Blinking a few times to show her I was confused. She looked across at me sadly, and took a deep breath in. And then walked over to my side.

My head was resting on my knee and I tilted it to look at her. My mother eyebrows were scrunched. “It’s not like you to get like this over a boy?” She raised one, clearly trying to make a statement. “He’s a man” I corrected, shaking my head. “Exactly- and technically he’s a very old man” she whispered to me. Not that anybody was in the room, or could over hear us talking.

I tutted at her rolling my eyes at the card she was trying to play. Her lips had curved into a smile, a small one, but it was still there. “I love him- I can’t stop thinking about- no contact” I whispered bitting my inner cheek. All the memories we’d shared together came rushing through my head once he was brought up, again. My mother looked down and face suddenly became sad. My parents were together however they didn’t have much of a passionate love. Not like Angel and i.

“I’ve never felt anything this intense before- i feel physical pain in my heart when I think about no contact” I stammered, as my eyes began to fill. The more I spoke the more the pools filled with salty water. “You’re going to be alright though Y/n” - “well it doesn’t feel like it” I snapped back at her, and one of the tears finally broke free. Her expression didn’t help how I was already feeling. She was looking at me like I was still sixteen. I’m not anymore, I’m almost twenty.

“You don’t understand- and it’s simply because you don’t have what he and I have, and I know you don’t- because I look at you and dad and I don’t want that for myself either” I told her firmly, staring dead into her eyes. My shoulders swayed a little as I spoke, unconsciously. She pouted and looked to the side. “I understand that” she replied in a small voice. “But at least he’s always stayed by my side- that’s what’s important”. I shied away again. I didn’t have a response.

Angel had left, multiple times. We were very on and off, and we weren’t very consistent at all. And she knew i wouldn’t have a reply. Her arm stretched out and she rubbed my shoulder, but ended up just rocking my limp body. “There will be another boy y/n” she told me. “You’re at university now- I’m going to get out your hair now I’ve moved you all in, you need to get exploring- leave him in your last chapter”.

I thought about that, didn’t she know? Could she not see that all I was thinking of was leaving him behind- and how hard it was. How much I didn’t want to. “No one is him mum” I told her sharply. She had her back to me now as she’d rose from the bed. “No, but there will be another y/n” she repeated with a sigh, before reaching out for her keys on the table.

“Perhaps you should get started sooner than I thought” she smiled weakly turning on heels to look at me again. “Uh- yeah- I was probably gonna meet up with Danielle and Freddie and have a look around the campus” I swallowed, finally standing off the bed myself. "So your idea of a fun uni life is third wheeling your boring friends from collage?".

I snapped my head to look at her. "I am not you, mum", She raised her eyebrow like that's exactly what she wanted to hear. "My uni life is not going to consist of going to the club every night and smoking every day away" I rolled my eyes, remembering all the stories shed told me about her younger years.

"You can't anyway- no one will experience uni like I did" she shook her head but her lips still had a little smile on them. As if I didn't hear all the stories, as if there was some she left out. "But you'll still have a great time, don't waste it- they will be the best and hardest years of your life, you'll see what I mean". There it was again, that knowing smile. The only thing was I didn't know.

"Yeah, sure whatever" I shrugged my shoulders, dismissively. My mother could see the conversation was over. She pressed her lips together looking a little more sad now. Her arms outstretched and she waded her way through the boxes to embrace me in an awkward hug. My arms didn't hug her back. I just blinked at the wall while she stroked my head a little.

"Stay safe baby girl" she whispered in my ear, and then she let go. I looked up at her just as she turned, so I didn't see her face. Just her back a she reached for her keys and handbag. She didn't stop, her feet moved towards the door. "Mum!" I burst out. Tears streaming down my face. She twisted her body to face me and I was already running towards her.

I wrapped my arms around her body and sniffled in her shoulder as I cried. My mother hugged me back tightly, her hand held my head into her shoulder and her other rubbed my back up and down, up and down, repeatedly. "I'm so lost- I'm different without him" I told her softly, still not able to look her in the eye. "He made you different, you had to become different for him" she whispered back to me.

"That's what happens in relationships, especially one as passionate as yours- they move fast", she sounded like she knew everything in the moment. "You'll find yourself at uni y/n, you'll change again, and later on in life you'll change again, its okay to change its natural- you are still you, just ensure you're the best version of yourself you can be, and always will be my baby girl" she told me squeezing me tightly.

I needed a second to process what my mum had just said, but when I did I pulled back gently and wiped my eyes and my cheeks dry. Mum began to help me and then I said "I'm sorry I've been so mean, I feel broken, I don't feel like me". She pressed her lips together again and looked at me with sadness. "You're not broken, but you are hurt, and your wounds need time to heal" her hand dragged down my arm and she took my hand in hers.

"You're going to find yourself again Y/n, with or without him, because you're strong" she clutched my hand tightly, squashing some of my fingers. "Yeah- I am" I nodded subtly, saying it so I'd believe it myself. "Come" I sniffed, wiping my face dry for the last time. "I'll walk you out to the car". She smiled, accepting my proposal, and we headed out of my dorm room.

It wasn't a far walk down the stairs and out of the main doors. We then crossed the campus to the car park. My mum’s white car was parked fairly close to the side, so we could see it as we arrived. “You know you can come home whenever you need right?” My mum’s white car smiled at me, dragging her ringed fingers through some of my hair.

“I’ll be home, I’m not going to just disappear now, you’ll still be seeing me” I warmly smiled back, I could feel myself becoming slightly more excited again about university. About the independency I was going to gain. I really would be a different person again soon. “Good” my mum wrapped her arms around me, squeezing me one last time. “Go and smash it my girl” she whispered before drawing back and looking at me again.

She had this proud look wiped across her face, it was something i didn’t think id see. I did make it to university, but i also messed up a lot on the way. Yet she was still proud of me. My mum kissed my forehead and began getting in the car. I watched her put her seatbelt on and get her music ready. When she looked up at me again, she didn’t smile. Her eyes were wide, as if she’d seen a ghost. Or taken ten lines of MDMA.

I frowned becoming confused but as if by magic, her face changed back like the look had never been there. She waved at me, I waved back, feeling my heart sink a little. She was really going now. My mum reversed out and I stood for another few moments watching her drive off until i couldn’t see the white car anymore. Sighing, I turned around to walk back to my dorm room.

As I did, I almost slammed into a person standing right behind me. I shook my head regaining my balance and looked up at the face getting ready to apologise. “Angel” I gasped throwing my hands over my mouth. “Hi baby” he smiled sadly at me. I blinked a few times taking the gorgeous man in. He was really stood in front of me. That must have been what my mum saw- but she didn’t stop him, she didn’t stop me.

“What are you doing here” I breathed out throwing my arms around the man tightly. He clutched me into his chest. “I made a mistake” he exhaled, stroking my hair. I blinked against his chest trying to take in the words he was saying. “I don’t want you to start this new life without me in it baby- I want to be by your side” he told me whispering into my hair and nuzzling me.

“Angel- you keep leaving- how do I know you mean it this time?” I looked up at him with tears swirling in my eyes. It only took one look at me for his heart to break. “I know- I know baby I’m so sorry” he shook his head and looked to the floor. “This no contact has made me realise I can’t live without you- I want to be with you baby, forever, and you know I really do mean forever” he widened his eyes hinting at his immortality.

His words were overwhelming, tears had already began to spill out over the sides now. “I’m so sorry I hurt you baby, but that’s all over now- I will never leave you again, you’re my girl” he whispered dragging a finger down my cheek. “Do you really mean that baby” I sobbed putting my head back against his chest to hug him again. “I really mean it Y/n, if you’ll have me back I will protect you for the rest of my life, love you with everything I have and kill those who are against you”.

I laughed through all the tears. “There shall be no killing baby” I giggled looking up at him. I felt all the excitement about this new chapter rush through me all at once. I wanted to do this, but I wanted to do it with him. “You were always mine baby, and I was always yours” I told him gently, putting my hands on the back of his neck. I felt his whole body relax after I said those words. “Of course I want you back”.

I’d hardly finished my sentence before angle grabbed me picking me up. I squealed wrapping my legs around his torso with a great big grin across my lips. “I missed you gorgeous” he whispered before leaning in to kiss my lips. I didn’t want it to ever end. He is my person. All it takes is one look at the passion between us and you can see it.

“But if you leave again, you leave for good” I frowned at him when we pulled away. “Now why would I ever leave my wife?” He smirked at me pulling a funny face that made my laugh. “That’s better” I widened my eyes at him so he knew there was seriousness behind it. “Now come on baby, let me show you my dorm” I smiled, kissing his nose softly.

If it’s meant to be, it’ll be. And it is.

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Rules: Make a 24hr poll listing the titles to every wip you want to work on (it's fine if you only have one, still make a post for the vote count). whichever wip gets the most votes, write one sentence for every vote received.

(This is a great concept and maybe it will get me re-started on my very stalled WIPs. Plural…)

Details:

- A Steadfast Rogue (coldwestallen multi-chapter): Iris gets powers, Barry loses them, Len is being stalked by the Oculus, the universe might be broken, and no one is willing to admit they’re together. About half complete.

- Buffy crossover: Leonard Snart and Faith Lehane meet in dingy motels for interesting nights, over several years. Now if they could just stop thinking about the slayer and speedster they’re each totally not in love with, that would be great.

- Lita and Mick in the 1950s: They’re on a mission for a few weeks, and Lita keeps meeting a strange man with a drawl in a parka. Somehow her father never sees him. Probably going to be a one-shot.

- Someone You Can Trust (coldflash angsty multi-chapter): The one where Len got kidnapped. Nearly complete, but I struggled towards the end, as you do. Been on hiatus for a year.

https://archiveofourown.org/works/66020266/chapters/170114305

Yay!