#buffu

aaww toasty uvu Things are going p fine UoU i’ve just been paralyzed by my own expectations again. drawing all the cute things helped a bit.

i just…feel like at this point, i should’ve have made a big improvement on something. i guess ive made a step forward w animation bc of hw and animation projects but i feel like i’ve made a bigger step back by neglecting more illustrative studies. so ive been dilly-dallying  on posting stuff and feel kinda bummed that i cant contribute anything more than sketches. i want to show people that i’ve improved, but it’s awful to rely on that to feel good about myself.

it’s such a dumb thing to feel. because at the same time i understand that I am 500% busier than ever and need to prioritize on rl. but i guess i just can’t help feeling bad about it. X_X i should just chill about what i assume people would like to see from me and focus more on improving on my own terms.

so yeah that p much sums up my feelings for awhile U~U sometimes i get out of it and be very kind and patient to myself, but the self guilt-tripping has been a battle that i’m experiencing more often. learning that life is this cycle of the same problems coming back to get you over and over again.

but ye...thanks for listening u0u You are a super amazing friend and I really appreciate being given the opportunity to open up about these things. it certainly takes some stuff off my chest and helps me adjust to better deal w these mental blocks. A good place for me to start is to stop relying on *crowd’s feedback so much and have more 1-on-1 critique. UuU anywho, don’t let my personal troubles weigh on you! I’ll always come back up! 

*vibrates with excitement*