#budding creative

trying to be more free⁣

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it’s a hard ass process but learning how to do it has been cool. being angry at little shit and not being aware of the things that set you off is too easy. ⁣

i finally got fed up! bought some crystals and a book on meditation. met a dope ass human in the process. ⁣

i think reconnecting with what makes me feel not only whole but grounded and safe is something i have been ignoring and putting off. ⁣

i had a whole week where i would just break down over nothing!! but in that process i learned to speak about it and get it out of me rather than continuing to hold it in (clearly it fights it’s way out anyway). all in all, i’m in a decent spot right now and i just wanted to say that. for myself and anyone who needs to hear it.⁣⁣

building self awareness⁣⁣

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because if i want to be “that girl” i’ve got to know that girl. i’ve got to be so in tune with my Self that nothing in this world will keep me down. ⁣⁣

⁣⁣i’ve got to understand that it’s ok to be pissed or sad or, dare i say, 𝒹𝑒𝓅𝓇𝑒𝓈𝓈𝑒𝒹 because the feeling won’t last forever. just like being happy or feeling confident or being caught up in love and light doesn’t last forever.⁣⁣

⁣⁣sometimes you feel it and sometimes you don’t and for that reason it is so vital to be in tune and to have an overall understanding that “things will be ok once I decide they are.”⁣⁣