I turned my feelings off forever ago. I haven’t cared. I haven’t cared at all.
I have my deep rooted connection with my daughter and absolute love for her no matter what.
I turned those off when I left.
I separated myself from the physical.
I focused on the kind of man I want to attract.
I found so much of myself while I was gone.
Moving to another state really changes your perspective on things.
I couldn’t give you the bucket to my well
The first I gave the bucket threw it in the well no rope attached
The second put it on the dresser because it was too fragile
The third gave me a ring in exchange
But he didn’t care about my well
So i threw the ring inside
My bucket is hidden in the corner of my closet behind things I don’t touch
I can’t trust anyone to draw up my well of knowledge, emotion, and power
You won’t treat my well or my bucket properly
I sit here with last years knowledge
This Has to stay just physical
It’s just the chemicals
I didn’t even get to finish
You didn’t even kiss me
I don’t have any emotion to give into that
So why the fuck do I miss you