A/N: I'm just gonna post some one-shots I had already posted on AO3 for those of you who prefer to read on here instead. This is one of them. enjoy :)
NSFW (18+) MDNI | One-Shot | Evan Buckley x Reader
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Youâre restocking the ambulance with medical supplies, going through your checklist with Chimney, when Buck offers a hand.
âNo way, Buckley. You lost your clip board privileges a long time ago,â you decline. He just shrugs and bounces away, the smile on his face never faltering, âSuit yourself.â
âHe somehow seems moreâŠpeppy than usual,â You say to Chimney absentmindedly.
âRight?!,â he agrees, âI said that to Maddie a couple days ago and she was acting so weird. I think she knows something. He probably told her a secret and made her swear not to tell me.â
âA secret, huh? Oh, that slimy motherfucker,â You snicker to yourself and Chimney, âNow we just have to figure it outâ
As the shift goes on, Buck seems to be in a great mood. He even lifts weights with a slight grin. Itâs almost unsettling, you think to yourself, frowning from where you were trying to subtly spy on him. You catch him upstairs while heâs cooking for the team.
âHey Buck, what are you cooking?â You ask innocently, trying to sniff him out.
âIâm glad you asked. Iâm making baked ziti for lunch, and a special little batch of my chocolate chip cookies,â He explains.
âInterestingâŠâ You say, internally cheering at the fact that youâll be having your favourite foods later today.
You decide to push your luck and see what you can squeeze out of him. âSo, whatâs got you so âŠgiddy?â
âMe? This is just normal me I guessâ
âNope. Youâre the firehouse golden retriever sure, but this is a bit much, even for you.â
âIâŠuh, I donât know. Do you really hate seeing me happy this much?â He teases.
âNo, I justâŠI need to know,â You take a beat ââYou know, a little birdie told me that you have a secret. Does this have anything to do with that, maybe?â
âSecret? Thatâs ridiculous. Iâm an open book, I donât have secrets,â He says, way too fast and completely unconvincingly, earning a stern stare down from you. âFineâŠMaybe,â He caves.
âA secret, huh?â You say, circling him, when your phone buzzes. Itâs a text from Chimney that says: âNew intel: apparently Buckâs got a crush. Thatâs all I managed to get.â
You smirk up at Buck, âSo this is about a crush!â
âWhat? How did? Did Maddie say something? Ugh I swearâŠWait, how much do you know.â
âOh, I know everything,â You bluff.
He laughs, âSo you donât know anything apart from that I have a crush?â
âIâll figure it out. It only takes one social media deep dive these days,â You play nonchalant.
âWell, good luck with that,â He says, seeming too relaxed. You were determined to find out who he was crushing on. Something in the depths of your stomach made you feel like you had to know more than anything.
By the end of shift, you were exhausted. The last few calls were rough. The only thing that saved the day from being a complete disaster was the fact that your stomach was full of baked ziti and chocolate chip cookies.
âSo, detective, did you figure it out yet?â Asked Buck, somehow still cheerful after that difficult day.
âNo,â you answered, defeated, âNot yet, but I am determined.â
âYou know, I was gonna go to a bar tonight with some people. Maybe you should come, meet her there.â
âMaybe I will,â you replied, âAlthough I wonât make any promises. Iâm so exhausted I feel like I need a bath and then a 24 hour nap.â
âYeah, just come by if you feel like it,â He said, still sporting that goofy smile.
Later that evening, you were already set on staying home, but then you decided that the feeling in your stomach, the one that made you want so badly to find out who Buck was crushing on, was too strong and there was no way you could live with that curiosity. You hopped in the shower, then put on a basic but cute outfit, with the limited amount of time to get ready. You still managed to make yourself look good, sporting all black as you so often did. You shot Buck a quick text, realising you had no idea what bar you were supposed to go to. He replied almost instantly and soon after that you were in an Uber on your way to some bar youâd never heard of.
By the time you got to the bar, it was late. The bar was packed full of college kids and you hoped Buck was not crushing on some sophomore student or something. You pushed through the crowd, looking for Buck, your eyes scanning the room, until they fell on a booth in the corner. It was empty apart from a human golden retriever, sitting alone sipping on a glass of beer. Your heart dropped. Was this a date and the girl he has a crush on was somewhere around here? That would be weird, right? Youâd be a total third wheel. Or even worse, had she stood him up? Your heart ached at the thought. You decide to march to the booth, quickly sitting across from him. He smiled when he realised you had arrived.
âWhen you said drinks with some people I assumed there would beâŠyou know, multiple people. Where is this girl, anyway? Did she not show up?â
âGood evening to you, too,â He chuckles
âYeah, yeah. Good evening. Seriously though, Iâm meant to be taking a bath and a long nap, if this chick didnât show up, I swearâŠâ You grumble
He just shook his head, the smile still plastered on his face.
âWhatâs so funny? Is there no crush? Did you and Maddie and Chimney conspire against me just to make me feel insane? Oh, you are good. The Buckleys gang up against me, and they use my fellow paramedic to do it? This is sick work,â You complain.
He takes your hand, âCalm down, thereâs no conspiracyâ He says, âWell, there kind of is, but Maddie and Chim are not involved.â
You tilt your head to the side, unsure of what heâs getting at.
âDo you remember what you said to me the first time we met?â He asked.
âSpecifically? NoâŠâ You pondered, âSomething about how if you get me in trouble I would make your life a living hell or whatever?â
âWell, yes,â He laughed, âBut thatâs not what I meant. You told me that you would only ever cry in front of someone if they were on their death bed and it was their very last dying wishâ
âYeah sounds like me. So I was kind of an unfeeling dick, so what?â You asked, unsure of what he was trying to tell you.
âYou said, that the only other time you could ever see yourself crying in front of another human being was if you were fully, head over heels in love, which at the time you meant as a joke implying it would never happen, butâŠâ
âBut last week I cried in front of you in your car,â you finished his sentence, finally catching on. âSo, youâre dying then?â You asked, trying to lighten the mood and rid yourself of the knot that was forming in your throat.
He shook his head softly, âYou felt comfortable enough to be vulnerable with me, something you swore you would only do if you loved someone,â He explained, stating what you already knew, now forcing you to deal with the truth.
âThatâs why youâve been so happyâŠbecause you think I love you?â You asked, staring at the glass of beer on the table, avoiding his gaze at all costs.
âDonât you?â
You nod silently, unable to speak the words out loud, and even with your gaze averted you can feel him smiling. âLook at me,â he commands. You look up sheepishly. âI know you have all these walls up, and that this is hard for you to even talk about, but I like you and you like meâŠso why pretend?â He goes on.
âItâs not that simple,â You protest
âWhy not?â
âBecauseâŠIâm not the person you want to be with. You just want to feel like you managed to crack the tough nut, but when you actually realise whatâs inside, youâll get bored. You wonât like me anymore. Then weâll just have awkward coworker tension until this job kills one of us.â
âDo you really think so little of me?â He asks sincerely.
âWhat? No, I just know that Iâm not what you think I am. What you want me to be.â
âHow about I decide what I like and you just act like yourself?â He says, sounding slightly harsh.
âIf youâŠIf you opened me up and then didnât like what you sawâŠBuck, that might kill meâ
âIâŠI do like what I see. I always have. Your walls have already come down. You donât realise it but they have. And I have never liked you more,â He explains. âListen, I donât know if weâll stay together forever, but if we donât it wonât be because I get bored of you or I donât like who you really are. It wonât be. I promise you that.â
ââŠSo just to clarify, thereâs no crush coming here for me to meet?â You ask, desperate to lighten the mood.
He sighs, clearly frustrated, then throws a ten dollar bill on the table, grabbing your hand and forcibly dragging you out of the bar. When you make it out of the loud, crowded establishment and onto the quieter street, he catches you off guard when you feel his arms pulling you to him. You standing chest to chest, or chest to neck since he is quite a bit taller than you are, your faces in close proximity, not quite touching. Youâre faced with reality. There is nowhere to hide. Nowhere for you to deflect to. His hand cups your cheek and he hesitates for a moment before planting a soft kiss onto your lips. You canât help but melt into the kiss. Regardless of your fears, you have dreamt of this moment, although you would never admit that to anyone, especially not to him. The kiss deepens a little, both of your tongues coming into play. When you finally pull away, he keeps his eyes locked on yours.
âTell me you donât want this,â He pleads, âTell me to stop.â But you canât do that. You canât lie to him. You want nothing more than him. Now, later, always. Youâve tried to suppress it, to bury those feelings and pretend that you just didnât have function in the part of your brain that regulates romantic attraction, but right now you canât deny how badly you want him, even if you tried.
He takes your silence as permission, once again bringing your lips together, this time kissing you with more fervour. The kiss deepens quickly, and both of you are exploring each other with your hands, while your tongues fight for dominance. Your teeth clack together, both of you too lost in each other to hold back. Your mind is in overdrive. You decide to be reckless. To act with your heart and forget your head, just for right now. âTake me home.â
The drive to your place is quiet. Thereâs a palpable tension in Buckâs range rover, as he drives the short distance which seems to take forever. Both of you are unsure as to what happens when you get there. He heard you ask to take you home, but there was no promise of anything beyond that in your words. Even if there had been, he would never expect anything from you, despite the ache he felt deep within, his body yearning to have you.
When he pulls up to your place, the parking space right in front of your building is empty. You think it must be fate, or some sick twisted joke fate was playing on you. Either way, you know he is staying over tonight. In an effort to be brave, you reach over the centre console, grabbing his face and kissing him.
He seems to have had the same idea, which leads to an awkward collision between your noses rather than a romantic kiss. You both break down laughing, your hands on each otherâs faces. This is the first moment thatâs felt normal since the words he uttered at that bar. You feel safe again. You remember now, that this is your friend Buck, the guy you love spending time with, your favourite coworker, the only one who can make you laugh on your bad days. This, this, is the man youâre in love with, and for some reason unbeknownst to you, he seems to love you too.
âBuck?â You say, still giggling.
âYeah?â He answers, his ears perking up at the sound of your voice.
âDo you want to come upstairs?â You ask.
âI doâ He answers, his smile back to its rightful spot on his face. He runs out of the car, racing to your side of the vehicle, helping you out and closing the door behind you. The two of you go up to your floor, hand in hand, giggling like school children. It still feels slightly unusual to be holding hands and acting like this with him, but it also feels exactly right. He stops you right before you get to your door, his hands on either side of your head on the wall behind you, pinning you there. He leads in, his soft, buttery lips kissing you so sweetly and tenderly it feels like your heart is going to explode. When heâs finally done with you, you unlock your door, and he wastes no time getting you into your apartment, making sure to lock the door behind you.
He wraps his arms around your thick thighs, swiftly lifting you up in the air, and setting you down on your kitchen table. You crane your neck to kiss him, your head reeling from everything thatâs going on. Heâs eager. You can feel it in his movements. He seems almost nervous, his body slightly tremors as he runs his hands up and down your bare legs. His fingers make their way under your dress, and he pulls your panties off. Your stomach is doing backflips but you donât want the first time you have sex with Buck to be on the kitchen table. This was more than just some drunken hookup or a meaningless one night stand. You should savour the moment, and wait a little bit longer, at least to make it to the bedroom. You place your hands on his muscular shoulders, both to steady yourself and both to slow him down. Heâs a little puzzled by it but he goes with it.
âEverything okay?â He whispers
âYeah,â You nod, âbut I think itâs time for you to take me to bed. Like my actual bed, not my kitchen.â He blushes, wasting no time to pick you up, carrying you to your bedroom. Those muscles were clearly not just for show, as he carried you with relative ease. He gently lowered you onto the bed, understanding, as you did, that this was an important moment for the two of you. Although it had not been an hour since you two confessed your feeling for each other, this was the start of something real between the two of you. He grabs your ankle, kissing the inner part of your calf, like he is worshipping you from the bottom to the top. His fingers run up your body, covering your skin in goosebumps. He flips you over, unzipping your dress, then helping you out of it. Soon, you are left completely naked, having foregone a bra under the particular dress you were wearing. You blush a little, feeling exposed as heâs still fully clothed, but you hear him undressing and when you flip yourself on your back again, heâs in nothing but his boxer shorts, which were looking extremely tight on him.
He climbs on top of you, kissing your neck as his fingers cup your dripping core. He slips a finger between the folds, quickly finding your clit, and rubbing circles on it. You throw your head back in response, giving his mouth more access to your neck. He catches you off guard, slipping a finger into you, hearing you moan as the sensation hits you. Adding a second finger, he pumps in and out of you, getting you wet and loose, prepped for him. After a few blissful minutes of him fingering you, you start feeling bold, no longer shy or awkward.
You put both hands on his chest, pushing him off you. Heâs not sure what youâre doing but instantly lets you push him up on his legs, so that heâs now standing over you next to the bed. You get up too, standing to kiss his neck, then down to his collar bones, and finally kneeling before him. His throat goes dry when he realises what you are about to do.
You pull down his boxer shorts, exposing his aching length, already glistening with precum. His size is intimidating in the best way You take him into your hands first, but quickly begin to use your mouth on him. You make sure your mouth is full of saliva, running your tongue over the tip, then swallowing his cock down your throat as far as you can, which is a feat considering how big he is. His hands grab your hair, holding it out of your face in a makeshift ponytail, helping you bob up and down on him in a rhythm. He fights the urge to fuck your mouth, not wanting to push you too far. He moans as his grip on your hair tightens and you, not wanting him to finish before the main event, take your lips off him, using his hands as leverage to stand up. He immediately kisses you, grabbing your hips roughly. He pushes you and you fall backwards landing on the mattress, and he follows on top of you.
Your legs wrap around his body, desperate for him now. He can feel how wet you are for him, ready to be stretched by his cock. He locks eyes with you as the tip of his cock presses against your opening, slipping all the way inside you in one move. Your eyes widen and you gasp loudly, the intense pleasure hitting you like a brick. He lowers his head and groans, your foreheads touching, and he begins to thrust into you.
Youâve never experienced anything like this. His size is incomparable to your past experiences, making you feel things you never knew you could. Every thrust makes him hit the right spot, causing your mind to black out, with nothing but pleasure on your mind. A few times, he even makes you squirt out a little bit of water involuntarily, which makes his head spin. He loves how well youâre taking him but more importantly, he loves to see how your body is reacting to him. Your heaving chest, your quivering legs, the parted lips. He is mesmerised by you. He is sure heâs not going to last too long. You also feel your orgasm build, the pressure in your lower abdomen threatening to blow. You grab onto him tightly, your eyes squeezing shut.
âLook at me, baby. Please,â He pleads. You make an effort to open your eyes, âGood girl. Thatâs my good girl. Are you getting close, baby?â All you can do is nod in response.
The sight of you is too much to handle and he groans, âOh, fuck, Iâm comingâ He says breathily into your hair. You feel his cock twitch as come spills from his body, filling you up. The sensation is all you need, sending you over the edge, and you hold each other as you come together. You canât say a word, your mind going at a million miles a minute. Is this even really happening? Your hole is full of Buckâs cum. Heâs on top of you. He loves you. Itâs all so overwhelming, in the best way.
When he finally gets up and pulls out, he grabs a rag and wipes the come that dribbled out of you off your thighs, then cleans himself up. He gets back in bed with you, snuggling up to you, his big arms pulling you as tightly to his chest as possible. Your heart flutters. You hate what a sappy softie he turns you into with just a touch, but you want him to turn you into a sappy softy forever if possible. He kisses the top of your head, taking in the familiar scent of your hair. Just hours ago you were theorising about a mystery woman he could be in love with, only to find out it was you all along. You should have known.
âI meant every word,â He says, breaking the silence
âWhat?â
âIâŠI love you. I do. I want us to be together. I know we kinda fucked it up withâŠuhh, thisâ
âWe didnât fuck anything up,â you say, cutting him off, âand for the record, I love you too.â
He smiles, burying his face in your hair, his arms wrapping around you even more tightly. Your phone buzzes and you reach out to see whatâs happening. Itâs a text from Chimney that reads: âMaddie finally caved, youâre not gna guess who Buck's crush is on! :O!! 911!!.â
You shoot him a quick text back,
âactually I think I have a pretty good guess ;)â
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A/N: Hello, friends! Sorry I keep disappearing. Uni somehow gets harder every year...crazy. This is a bit of a shorter one, but I hope you like it still <3 (and yes, as the title suggests, it's mirror sex) Leave a comment if you want, I'd love to hear your opinions. Or even better, send an ask!!!! Requests are welcome (even if it may take a little while)
Evan Buckley x Reader | NSFW (18+) | One-Shot
Itâs been a year since the first time you went on a date with Buck. You can barely believe that the nervous guy you had met for coffee, who kept tripping over his words and putting his foot in his mouth, is the same man who you woke up next to this morning.Â
For your one year anniversary, Buck surprised you with a weekend getaway at a nice hotel. He thought you would appreciate a couple of days of R&R, picking the place specifically for its spa amenities. However, ever since the Buck wheeled your suitcases into the hotel room, the two of you havenât set foot outside the confines of your suite.Â
Youâve lost count of the number of orgasms youâve been given, on the bed, in the shower, up against the wall, and one or two on the carpeted floor â you have rug burns to show for it.Â
Itâs truly impressive, the way your boyfriend can go round after round after round. Sure, he takes a break every once in a while, orders room service, takes a few sips of water, but every time, heâs back to being fully hard in time to enter you again. Despite the soreness you know will make you limp tomorrow, you have no complaints.Â
After so many rounds and various positions, Buck decides to try something a little bit different. Itâs nothing too crazy, but somehow, the two of you had never done this before.Â
Buck leads you to the vanity unit, and in one smooth motion, his large hands manhandle you, turning you around to face the mirror, then bending you over the vanity table.Â
Looking up through your eyelashes at the reflection, you can see the little smirk on his face; the one he makes when he was about to rock your world. One hand holds your hip, while the other soothingly rubs your lower back. You can see the mischievous glint in his eyes as he leans down with his mouth at your ear, gently moving your hair off your back and over your shoulder.Â
âLook at you,â He whispers, an edge in his voice, âwhat a pretty girl.â
He kisses a trail from the back of your neck to the point where your ear meets your jaw, tugging your ear lobe gently between his teeth.Â
âI love seeing you like this, so wrecked for me,â he continues, âbut it isnât fair you donât get to see what you look like, is it? The way your lips part when I hit that spot, the way your face scrunches when you cum.âÂ
The words alone are doing something to you, and itâs evident from the way heâs looking at you, that he knows exactly what effect his dirty mouth has on you.Â
He teases you, rubbing the head of his cock between your folds, seemingly amused by just how wet you are for him. Then, seeing the look of desperation and need on your features, he pushes himself inside you. You drop your head down as you try to adjust to his size â it always takes you a moment, even after a year.Â
Buckâs hand grabs your hair, at your scalp, and tugs, pulling your head up.Â
âNo, baby, none of that. Look up, look at yourself. You have to see. See how pretty you are taking my cock. God, youâre tight, but you can do it, canât you? You can take it all, right?â His tone is teetering the line of condescension, but it makes your stomach tighten just the same.Â
âThatâs it, thatâs my girl,â he whines, pushing a little deeper, âso perfect, so good for me.â
You moan in response, watching. Your eyes flit between your own reflection and Buckâs. Your drooping eyelids, his furrowed brow, your kiss-bitten lips, the tattoo on his chest that moves with every laboured breath.Â
As your orgasm approaches, you have to fight harder and harder to keep your eyes from closing, but you try your best, wanting to do what he asked, but also just enjoying the unusual point of view. Eventually, your legs begin quiver and shake beneath you, your body held between the vanity table and your boyfriend. His thrusts make everything shake, blurring the reflection with each push. His fingers are still wrapped around your hair, but it doesnât hurt, only adding to the overall experience.Â
When you finally cum, it feels like the usual pleasure but amplified. Looking at Buckâs red face, painted in satisfaction at witnessing your climax, then a second later, giving in and coming deep inside you.Â
The hand in your hair relaxes, and he collapses forward, his chest pressed up against your back, kissing your face, neck and shoulder while making eye contact with your through the mirror.Â
âYou did so good for me,â he praises softly, âperfect.âÂ
The satisfied groan you let out seems to please him, his mouth turning into a goofy grin as he slowly pulls out of you, still holding your body up.Â
âLetâs get you to bed,â He coos, âI think we can both use a little nap.â
Hey love, I'd like to request Buck xreader, with enemies to lovers. Reader and Buck are co-workers, not in good terms tho. After an office/firehouse party they wake up next to eachother!! Reader want to leave before he wakes up, but Buck actually has a crush on her!! If you feel like it, maybe you can use the:ă"haven't you seen the way he looks at you?" "how does he look at me?" "like he's hoplessly falling in love." ă, perhaps between Hen or Athena and reader either at the party, or after the incident. Anyway, whatever you feel like writing! Thanks for your time and your work â€ïžâ€ïž
Blame It (on the Alcohol)
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A/N: Iâm baaAack!Â
And we got our first request!!!Â
I was so excited I literally screamed when I saw it in my inbox, thank you, Anon
Then... I wrote the first bit and promptly procrastinated finishing it for over a week. But fear not â It is here!
I decided to make it a little longer than my usual one-shots. Thought it was only fair since I took so long to post it and also just to show gratitude to whoever sent it <3. Iâm truly geeking over the fact that people are actually enjoying my writing.
When I read the req I thought it would be more fluff/plot/Teen&Up Rating, but then I started writing and it becameâŠwell, this.
So, now itâs rated E â again, wanted to treat whoever is reading these and enjoying them, so there is some smut towards the end. Also, the Title obviously is from the song, but as the author Iâve decided itâs specifically the Glee version (Yes, I am a Ryan Murphy victim, and you probably are too if youâre reading this for fun).Â
I hope you enjoy this one, lovelies. Itâs a little enemies to lovers moment. Little bit of fluff, little bit of smut. No âY/Nâ stuff bc personally that really takes me out of it when Iâm reading.Â
Is it weird to you if I spell in British English even though the characters are technically American? Iâm not American myself so I just write the way Iâm used to usually, but I wonder.Â
AlsoâŠTears by Sabrina Carpenter is so fitting for Buck/Oliver to me. Like, idk about you, but personally, the thought of (both of?) them does, indeed, get me wet :/
Blame It (on the Alcohol)
18+| One-Shot | Evan Buckley x Reader | Requested| 7.3KÂ
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âSeriously?!â He complained, like he so often did.
âWhat now?â You asked, feeling obliged to since you were the only one within earshot of his whining.Â
He just glared at you, with his lips pursed and nostrils flaring. This is how the majority of your interactions with Buck played out.Â
Ever since youâd joined the 118, you had found a second family at the firehouse. Everyone was so warm and welcoming, you could hardly believe how close you had grown to these people in such a relatively short period of time. Everyone, that was, except for Buck. God, even his nickname was stupid.Â
It felt like Buck enjoyed being unpleasant to you. He was curt and critical of everything you did, even when you hadnât done anything wrong. It was really starting to get on your nerves.Â
You had heard through the grapevine that Buck was tough on probies. Someone had even mentioned the words âchased aroundâ and âchainsawâ in a sentence once, and you thought it had to be a baseless rumour, except after experiencing being a 118 probie, you were inclined to believe that there was truth to it.Â
Except, you had finally worked your last shift as a probie.Â
Having completed a whole year on the job, you were about to be properly welcomed into the Los Angeles Fire Department, and consequently, hopefully, gain the respect of your peers. Or at least you hoped so.
Now that you were no longer a probationary firefighter, you would no longer Buckâs subordinate, and he had to start treating you as an equal.Â
There was a small formal ceremony where you were officially promoted, but the 118, being a tight-knit bunch, took every opportunity to party, so they planned a little get-together to celebrate your achievement.Â
Over the past year, you had become well-acquainted with the friends and family of the 118, and this was not the first time you had been to one of their houses to celebrate a milestone or holiday, but you were touched when they decided to throw a party in your honour; a sign that they had truly embraced you into their little group.
The party was set to be held at the end of the week, so, before celebrating anything, you showed up to the firehouse to work your first shift as a proper, honest-to-God, non-probationary firefighter.
You walked in with your head held high and a renewed sense of confidence. Up on the loft level, Bobby, Chimney, Hen and Eddie were sat around the table drinking coffee and when you climbed up, they each congratulated you with warm smiles.Â
Then, a loud, bellowing voice called out your last name from the staircase, followed by the sound heavy boots marching up the stairs. Buck appeared at the top of the stairs with a scowl painted on his face.Â
âFloor needs mopping,â He grunted in your general direction.
You just stared surprised, expecting him to maybe soften up a little and congratulate you like the others had, before barking out orders to mop. So, you waited a beat, thinking maybe he was razzing you, and was going to burst out laughing any second âHe didnât. The rest of the team seemed equally puzzled.Â
âSheâs not a probie anymore, Buck,â Chimney chimed in to your aid.Â
âI know. Thatâs why I used her last name,â he said matter-of-factly, walking right past you to the kitchen.Â
You swallowed your pride and made your way to the stairs before Bobby told you to stay and drink your coffee first, before starting the chores, then reminded Buck that he is not the Captain and doesnât get to give orders.Â
As the day went on, you began to realise that Buckâs attitude towards you had not changed with the end of your probation. If anything, the way he was acting around you during this shift was a digression.Â
It bothered you that he would be so blatantly rude, especially now that there was no longer a professional hierarchy for him to uphold. He was just purposely being an asshole.
Despite what you had heard, about Buckâs treatment of probies, you had also heard that he was a goofball with a heart of gold to the rest of his coworkers. People actually used the words âgolden retrieverâ to describe him. Well, with you, he was acting more like a rabid Rottweiler. Okay, maybe thatâs a stretch, but you still couldnât believe that anyone would ever be inclined to compare the person you knew as Buck to a golden retriever.Â
You had seen him interact with the rest of the team. He was always sweet to them. You seemed to get on his nerves. Even the cadence of his voice changed when he spoke to you. Deeper. More intimidating. You found yourself wishing you could uninvite him to the party, like a middle schooler holding a grudge, but despite how unprofessional he seemed to be, you refused to stoop to his level.Â
The weekend rolled around, and it was the day of your party. Bobby and Athena graciously offered to host the party in their backyard, which was decorated with twinkling lights and a banner of congratulations. When you got there, the yard was already crawling with people: your coworkers, their spouses, and a small army of children wreaking havoc.Â
The smile on your face widened when you realised that none of the faces in the small crowd of people belonged to Buck. The joy is short-lived, though, when soon after, Buck strolls in, fashionably late. He seemed different than he did at work. More relaxed. He evenâŠsmiled at you? Was your vision playing tricks on you? Did he have something in his eye he was trying to blink away?
Buck came up to you, handing you a cold beer, then clinked his own beer bottle against yours. You fought the reflex to thank him, instead taking a long swig. He smirked like he was amused at your little act of defiance, but you didnât engage. Instead, you turned your attention to Eddie, continuing the conversation the two of you were having before you were rudely interrupted.Â
As the party went on, you had a few more drinks, but nothing too crazy. It was a work event, after all. At your Captainâs home, no less.Â
It started getting late, and, not wanting to inconvenience Bobby and Athena by hanging around too long, people began to slowly file out. You were still full of energy and suggested that you move the party to a bar. Hen and Karen declined the invitation, seeing as they were there with their kids. Chimney and Maddie too. Eddie, however, agreed, since Christopher already had plans to sleep over at Hen and Karenâs place.Â
Unfortunately, wherever Eddie goes, Buck follows. When he heard Eddie agree to extending the party, Buck was quick to swoop in and invite himself too. The three of you took an Uber to a nearby dive bar. Unbeknownst to you, you were out with the party kings, as it turned out. The night quickly got out of hand. You attracted a crowd of partygoers who were buying you drinks left and right, shooting shots together, and dancing to every song.
All three of you became heavily intoxicated. So drunk, in fact, someone had decided it was time to end the night and call an Uber home. You, Buck and Eddie swayed on the sidewalk, trying to figure out how to order the cab and add each of your addresses to the destination, typing into the phone.Â
You remembered that part semi-clearly, in fact. You definitely put in your address. Which is why what happened next was all the more confusing.Â
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You stir awake slowly, eyes still closed and face smushed into the pillow. You can already feel the way your head is pounding, and you would rather postpone opening your eyes to sunlight as far as possible. The first thing you notice is that your pillow feelsâŠdifferent. You can also tell that you are completely naked under the covers, which checks out. You probably got home too drunk to change into your pjs. Typical after a night out.Â
Then, something really weird happens. The covers move, pulled slightly off your body. The unmistakable sound of a personâs shifting body weight and a soft groan coming from your left. Now you have to open your eyes.Â
You brace yourself, lifting yourself a little to look over. You can barely see anything under the mountain of white fabric, but you see enough. A little tuft of dark blond curls peeking through between the sheets. Your eyes are now wide open and you feel frozen in place.Â
It canât beâŠbutâŠbut.
The sleeping giant next to you shifts again, this time turning his body towards you, arm coming around and dropping over you, almost crushing you.Â
Yeah. It definitely is.Â
Heâs very clearly still fast asleep, but his arm grabs onto you, his body pulling yours closer in sleep.Â
You contemplate your life choices and how the hell you ended up in bed with him. You try to recall anything that could maybe explain this away. Nothing resurfaces. The last thing you remember is leaving the bar, typing your address into the Uber app on someoneâs phoneâŠEddieâs phone? Then you seem to remember flashes of being in a car, sitting in the middle, smushed between your two coworkers. Thatâs all you can come up with.
The torn up piece of foil shining on the nightstand and the soreness you feel between your thighs confirm what you already know to be true.Â
You had sex with Buck last night.Â
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This cannot be happening.
You feel like screaming but you definitely canât risk waking him up. How much did you drink? You didnât think any amount of alcohol could convince you to do this. Him. Itâs not like he was unattractive. In fact, you hated just how hot you thought he was. How infuriating it was that the jerk from work was so undeniably sexy, casually lifting your body weight in his stupid cutoff shirts that showed off his stupid sculpted shoulders and stupid veiny biceps in the middle of the firehouse gym.Â
He stirs in his sleep, tightening his grip on you, and you can see a fresh little lovebite right on the edge of where his shoulder meets his neck. It almost makes you groan out loud âfrom embarrassment, of course.Â
He seems so different this way. His face relaxed, lips slightly parted. So pink, and bitten and close. He snores softly, too, which almost makes you giggle. You wish the snores were the only sounds to come from those lips, instead of barked orders and quiet murmurs of disapproval.
He looksâŠcute?, You think. All peaceful and flushed and pretty. Definitely pretty.Â
You quickly snap out of it. You need to get out of his bed. Out of his apartment. Out of his arms. That was gonna be tough. His arm was heavy, draped over you, pulling you close. You wouldnât be able to slip out without moving him and moving him would wake him. You definitely donât want to wake him.Â
You decide to do the only thing you can do and just wait it out. So you stay still, waiting until he shifts again and moves his arm off you so you can slip out inconspicuously.Â
Except he doesnât. It seems like an eternity. The only times he moves, he somehow pulls you in closer, and at some point he nuzzled his nose into the crook of your neck. You just lay there, trying to ignore the way his hot breath on your skin makes something flutter in the depths of your stomach.Â
Then something weird happens. He shifts a little again, his hand caressing your arm, and nose still pressed into your neck. Thatâs when you feel it. The gentlest, softest kiss, planted right in the crook your neck. For such a light touch, it knocks the air from your lungs.Â
Then, while youâre trying to recalibrate yourself, something even stranger happens. He says something. His voice is gravelly and quiet, but itâs unmistakable.Â
He says your name.Â
Your first name. Not âprobieâ. Not your last name. Just your name, plain and simple. Just one whisper, but for a second you think it was the only way you ever wanted to hear your name spoken from now on.Â
Then he finally shifts, moving his arm off you, freeing you from the embrace. You snap into focus, slipping away until you roll off the bed. You begin the search for your clothes, shuffling around stark naked in his room. You find one shoe next to the stair, your bra on the nightstand, and your dress on the floor, in a pile with his pants. Downstairs you find your other shoe and your jacket. You get dressed quickly, realising you never found your underwear. Youâre torn between going back up to look for them or leaving, but you hear the bed creak again and decide to just cut your losses and run out of there.Â
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Itâs now a new day. You walk into the firehouse once again, for the start of a new shift, a little nervous about seeing Buck again. You two didnât speak about whatever happened. In fact, you hadnât spoken at all since that night. It wasnât unusual, after all, you werenât exactly close. Except now you knew what his lips felt like on the skin of your neck. And, presumably, your subconscious knew what his lips felt like on other parts of your body, too.Â
When you step into the locker room, Buckâs there, back to you, with his shirt off. Of-fucking-course. You can see the fading bruise of the lovebite on his shoulder when he lifts his arms up to slip on his LAFD T-shirt.Â
You clear your throat to alert him of your presence, and he glances towards you. Thereâs no scowl on his face this time. In fact, his expression is unreadable.
The rest of the day, thereâs no snide remarks, no jabs, no teasing. In fact, it seems like heâs avoiding you. Your stomach is in knots. Did he remember? Did you forget something important? Something bad? You hated not being able to remember; forced to wonder what could have possibly happened to change his attitude towards you so drastically.Â
In the evening, you try to get some rest in the bunks but you canât seem to sleep. You grow frustrated and decide to go to the kitchen to make yourself some tea instead. When you get there, you find Buck at the table, sitting alone in the dim light. You contemplate turning back down the stairs, but he already looked up at you, and it would be weirder to leave now. So, instead, you walk past him casually, turning on the kettle.Â
âHey, uhâŠCan I ask you something?â He asks from behind you. You groan inside.Â
âYeah, sure. What is it?â You answer, turning and steadying yourself against the countertop. His gaze is still focused away from you as he speaks.Â
âAfter your partyâŠâ
Oh, God. Here we go. You think.Â
âDid we, uhâŠâ He continues, ââŠHave sex?âÂ
You try to keep your expression neutral. So, he didnât remember it either?Â
âWhy do you think that?â You ask, trying hard to keep your voice steady.Â
Thereâs a hint of a smirk on his face, âFound a pair of lacy panties tangled up in my sheets when I was making the bedâŠthey werenât exactly my size, soâŠâÂ
You purse your lips, âThatâs it?âÂ
âAnd someâŠother stuff. Anyway, did we?âÂ
âWhy do you assume it was me? We were drinking with all those people at the bar.â
âYes, right. Exactly. And thatâs what I thought too, butâŠâ He begins.Â
âBut what?â You ask, and his brow is furrowed but the corners of his mouth are upturned.Â
âWell, I seem to remember an Uber ride, after we left the bar. With you and Eddie. And unless Eddieâs started wearing lacy thongsâŠâÂ
The kettle finishes boiling and you thank your lucky stars for the distraction, turning away from him to steep your tea, hiding the way your face was burning.Â
âItâs not a big deal. I justâŠI canât really remember what happened. I just woke up alone really confused. So, if you can shed some light,â he says.Â
âWell, I canât.âÂ
âNo, yeah. It must have been someone else, then I guess.âÂ
Did he sound disappointed?Â
âNo, I meanâŠâ You take a deep breath, and a sip of tea, hoping it would help calm your nerves but it just scalds your tongue, âI donât remember much either.âÂ
His eyebrows shoot up at your words.Â
âS-so it was you?â
You cringe a little, âUh, wellâŠyeah. I woke up in your bed,â You whisper, desperately hoping the ground would open and swallow you whole, âdidnât exactly remember how I got there. Or why.âÂ
His expression turns coy, ââwhyâ?â He echoes.
âYeah, âwhyâ. Youâre not exactly nice to me, usually. I mean you-â
Youâre cut off by the alarm, signalling a call coming in. You drop the mug of tea in the sink and the two of you rush downstairs, putting on your turnouts.Â
The next morning, you sit on the roof watching the sunrise. Youâre exhausted, having gotten no sleep the whole shift. You hear the door swing open and you hope itâs not Buck. When you turn to look, youâre pleasantly surprised to see Hen coming to sit next to you.Â
She takes one look at you and knows something off. God, did you really look that mopey?Â
âCome on. Say it. Whatâs wrong?â She asks.Â
âWhy do you think somethingâs wrong?âÂ
âOh, please. Do not pretend right now. Save us both the time and just tell me what happened,â She orders.Â
âFine.â
âI knew it!âÂ
âKnew what? I havenât said anything yet,â You protest.Â
âOkay, but I knew something was up. Go on. Spill,â She encourages.Â
âWellâŠyou know how after the party last time, Eddie and Buck and I went to a barâŠâ You begin. The look on Henâs face tells you she already understood exactly where this was going.Â
âBuck or Eddie?â She asks simply. You groan.
âBuck.â
She looks like sheâs stifling laughter, pursing her lips with an amused look on her features.Â
âI know, I know. Stupid. I justâŠI donât know. We got really drunk. I donât even remember it,â You explain and she frowns.Â
âWait, did heâŠtake advantage of you?âÂ
âNo, no. Itâs not like that. He doesnât remember anything either. I just think I momentarily forgot that he hates me around the 6th drink.â
âYou mean you forgot that you hate him,â she corrects.Â
âWhatâs the difference?â You ask.Â
âThe difference is Buck definitely doesnât hate you,â she asserts.Â
âOh, come on, Hen. Youâve seen how he talks to me. How he treats me.â
âWell, Buck doesnât exactly have the best track record when it comes to this kind of thing. He just gets weirdly jealous and destructive. Which, I know, is ridiculous, but that doesnât change the fact that heâs totally into you.â
You scoff.Â
âI know he has aâŠstrange way of showing it, but trust me. I mean, weâve all seen the way he looks at you.âÂ
âAnd, how does he look at me?â You ask.Â
âLike heâs hopelessly falling in love,â she states, matter-of-factly.Â
You want to protest, scoff again, or roll your eyes into the back of your head. Maybe even fling yourself off the roof just to prove a point. But it was almost like her words froze you solid.Â
Could it be? Was Buck in love with you? Sorry,âhopelesslyâ in love with you. It didnât make any sense. What did Hen even mean by that? You barely ever saw him look at you. Every time your eyes were on him, he seemed to look right past you, averting his gaze to anything else, unless he was scowling, in which case his eyes would turn to daggers pointed right at you.
Except the way he kissed your neck that morning still rings through your mind. Impossible to forget or ignore. Your name on his tongue. He may have been asleep but even in sleep he knew it was you he was kissing. Or if he didnât know, he certainly wanted it to be you.Â
âHenrietta Wilson, have you lost your mind?â You ask with a smile.
âCall me that again and see what happens,â she threatens and you laugh. In fact, you couldnât close your mouth if you tried. As much as you didnât want to admit it, the idea of Buck being in love with you, at the very least amused you. At the very worst, terrified the shit out of you.Â
âI think you need to talk this out with him,â She continues.Â
âAnd say what?â
âWell, first you should probably figure out what you feel,â she states, âSo, how do you feel? Do you like Buck?âÂ
âN-no, well, maybe, kinda. No. Heâs so mean to me. ButâŠHe is really, you know, attractive,â your cheeks feel boiling, âAnd yeah, when Iâm around him sometimes itâsâŠa little hard to breathe, but thatâs only because heâs so infuriating andâŠâ
ââŠAnd?â Hen wills you to continue. You can only think about how his arm felt around you. How his body heat felt against yours. How his lips on your skin left invisible ink, electrical impulses. How the way he whispered your name made you finally feel like your name suited you. How you wanted so desperately to recover the missing memories, to know what it was like to have him.
ââŠAnd, I think I maybe doâŠlike him, yeah.âÂ
âGreat. So, talk to him. Ask him what heâs thinking and feeling. See if you two are on the same page,â She suggested. You just nodded silently.Â
A few days passed since your conversation with Hen on the roof. Despite her counsel, you hadnât made time to speak to Buck.Â
Now, you were home, in your own apartment, finishing up some dishes and getting ready for a quiet night in. Thatâs when the doorbell rings.Â
You dry your hands on a tea towel and head to the door, looking through the peep hole.Â
Buck?!Â
You open the door, confused more than anything.Â
âHow do you know where I live?â is the first thing that comes out of your mouth. He grins.Â
âGood evening, to you, too. Is this how you greet all your guests? Not very hospitable, are you?â He teases.Â
âGuest implies invited,â You retort.Â
âI asked Hen,â He answered your first question.Â
âWhat are you doing here, then?â You ask.Â
He holds up a pair of lacy black panties, which he seems to have washed. âCame to return this to its rightful owner.âÂ
You grab his wrist and pull him inside, hoping none of your neighbours were in the hallway and saw any of that. He just laughs.Â
âWhat is wrong with you?!âÂ
âOh, come on, are you actually upset? Donât you want them back?â He sees the frustration on your face, âOkay, hey. Listen, I know we kinda got off on a weird footâŠâÂ
âBuckâŠweâve known each other for a whole year. I donât think âgot off on the wrong footâ applies here.âÂ
âYouâre right. Yes. But, considering recent developments, maybe we should justâŠtalk about it. Squash thisâŠthing between us. Whatever it is.â
Your heart sinks at the idea of âsquashingâ whatever was going on between the two of you, but you kept your expression stoic.Â
âIt was a drunken mistake, Buck.â
âYeah, no. I didnât mean that. I mean, me. Okay, Iâm making this about myself, arenât I. Damn it. What Iâm trying to say is, Iâm sorry. Okay? Iâve been a dick to you. I tried to convince myself I was just trying to be hard on you to train you well, butâŠâ
âBut what?â
âBut, now youâre not a probie anymore. So, Iâm out of excuses,â He explains.Â
âSoâŠyouâre just a dickâ you clarify.Â
âYeahâŠâ He scratches the back of his neck, âExcept also, maybe Iâm an idiot, too?âÂ
âMaybe?âÂ
âOkay, Iâm an idiot. Can I be honest with you for a minute?â He asks, and you just nod. âI think maybe the reason Iâve been such a dick to you is because I have someâŠcomplicated feelings.â
âComplicated? Complicated how?â You ask, trying not to sound too eager.Â
âComplicated like the day you walked into the firehouse for the first time I couldnât take my eyes off you.âÂ
âohâÂ
âYeah. And, listen, I know you donât like me. I mean, why would you. Iâve made an ass of myself for an entire year-â
âYeah, you have,â you cut him off.Â
âRight. Uh, I just mean, I know itâs not an excuse. Iâve been trying to work on it. But I just wanted you to know that you didnât do anything wrong and thereâs no bad blood on my end. I justâŠlost my mind a little,â a faint pink hue brushes over his cheeks.
âAnyway, uhh, here. I washed them for youâŠHope thatâs not weird. It seemed weirder to return them used. Donât worry, I used the delicate cycle on the washing machine and some really nice fabric softener. Itâs meant to smell like peonies. I know you like thoseâŠso, yeah. Iâll let you get back to whatever you were doing. And, again, Iâm sorry.âÂ
âNo, Buck. Wait!â You call out, holding your arms steady on your side so they donât shake, âDo you want a drink? Maybe something non-alcoholic this time?âÂ
He raises his eyebrow confusedly, but the smirk on his face tells you he will take you up on the invitation.Â
The two of you sip tea on the couch. Itâs a little awkward. After all, youâve never really spoken much to each other, and the fact that you had sex that neither of you remembers it hangs over both of your heads like a dark cloud.Â
Except, you say something dumb and it makes him laugh, and he whispers your name again. The way he said it in bed that morning. And it sends a shiver down your spine, which he noticesâhe notices everything about you.Â
Few words are exchanged after that.
Your name, again. A smirk on his lips. Another shiver down your spine. The smirk grows into satisfied grin.Â
His finger on your cheek. Bated breath. A âw-whatâre you d-?â from you, cut off by the creak of the sofa when he scoots closer, finger still resting gently on your face.Â
A âcan I?â from him. You just nod minutely, like you donât want to be implicated if things go south.Â
Then his lips, your lips. Touching. Kissing. Crashing. Familiar in taste, like an old perfume that transports you back in time. Youâve kissed those lips before. Hell, youâd tasted every part of him. Still, you want more. He seems to have the same idea, you think as his tongue licks into your mouth.Â
His strong hand is on your thigh, fingers digging into the skin, nails bitten to the quick, just as they always were. You relish the familiarity.Â
He doesnât push further, keeping his hand at a respectable position on your thigh. Definitely suggestive, but not imposing. Heâd never impose. Not this. The ache in his core was hard to ignore, but that was his own problem to deal with if you werenât up for more.Â
Luckily for both of you, you definitely are up for more.
Your hands cup his face on both sides, and you push yourself closer to him, simultaneously pulling him closer to you.Â
âWant youâŠagain,â you whisper breathlessly into his mouth. This seems to fan the flames, making him audibly groan back into your mouth, and his hands moves with a renewed sense of purpose slowly up your thigh. You tug desperately at his shirt, wanting to rip it off him. He helps you undress him, then yourself.Â
You keep kissing, skin, lips, all of it, tangled up on the couch, until he breaks the kiss, pulling away from you a little. You almost begin to blush until he makes his intentions clear. He wasnât about to stop this. Not even close.Â
âI wanna do this right,â he professes, fighting his urge to look down at your naked body. He does surprisingly well at maintaining eye contact despite how badly he ached to ogle you. Can you blame him?Â
âWhat does that mean?â You ask with a little giggle that sounds pornographic to him in this moment. He goes to speak, getting a mischievous glint in his eye, and a goofy grin on his lips.Â
âYou like me back, right?â He asks coyly. You roll your eyes and he protests.Â
âNo, donât be like that. Come on. I was so vulnerable, telling you how I feel. Just give me one moment. Be real with me. Can you do that for me, sweetheart?â He waits for you to answer.Â
Your lips part but your tongue is tied for a second. Then you finally speak, âyou were vulnerable after a year of machismo bullshit-âÂ
âYeah, yeah. I know. I was a dick. But, please, sweetheart. JustâŠsay it,â He cuts you off, pleading for you to say what he already knows.Â
You sigh defeatedly, âYes, Buck, I like you back.âÂ
That immediately makes his face light up. He leans in and whispers, âGood girlâ before capturing your lips and resuming the needy kiss.Â
His hands wrap around your body and, without breaking the kiss, he picks you up, lifting you onto his body.
You knew he was strong âone look at him was enough to deduce thatâbut you didnât realise heâd use that strength to gently manhandle you like this. The feeling of being suspended makes you giggle, âBuck, what are you doing?!â you ask through laughter.Â
âHey, I told you. Wanna do this right,â He grins against your lips and your teeth clack a little, ânow, which doorâs your bedroom?âÂ
He carries you through the hall and into your room, before gently setting you on the bed, then taking a step back, eyeing you with intensity, making you blush crimson.Â
âJust wanna make sure I remember every part this time,â he speaks softly, leaving a trail of kisses from your knee up to your upper thigh, âWanna memorise your body. Your pretty sounds. What you like,âŠAll of it.âÂ
His fingers ghost over your panties, applying pressure. He smiles amused, âSo wet for me already, sweetheart?â His lips continue kissing your thighs, as he murmurs perfect over and over, like a broken record.Â
You mewl softly each time his mouth inches ever so close to where you need him most, not quite touching. Youâre still in your underwear but you can feel the heat from his breath through the fabric, which is only making this more torturous.
âBuckâŠâ You plead.
âWhatâs that, sweetheart? There something you want,â He grins, and you want to reach out and slap that smile right off his face. Havenât you suffered enough because of him?Â
He seems to have the same epiphany, because he hooks his fingers under the waistband of your panties âwhich are unfortunately decidedly less sexy than the lace thong he had you in last time but he doesnât seem too concerned with that at the moment â and begins to pull them down your legs.
Once youâre free, he wastes no time, burying his face right into the spot where your thighs meet. You feel his nose first, before you feel his tongue, then after a beat, his fingers begin circling around your opening. You canât deny that he knows what heâs doing, expertly working his tongue, rocking his whole head against you, drawing obscene sounds from your lips. Your noises make all the blood in his body rush to one single region, and now heâs lightheaded, but heâs never been happier.Â
He laps over your clit in a relentless rhythm, kissing it like he was kissing your other lips earlier. At some point, his fingers stop tracing your opening, and instead, he slips them into you, one after the other. He curves them up, massaging the spongy texture inside you. His fingers on your g-spot combined with the clitoral stimulation from his tongue make you writhe under his touch.Â
He can tell youâre close, which only eggs him on to keep going steady, stimulating you from inside and out. You feel the pressure build at the base of your core and your fingers tighten around his curls as your toes begin to tingle and the dam breaks. Your impulse is to squeeze your thighs shut, but Buckâs strong hold keeps them pushed open, presented like a meal to him, and he doesnât let up. Your legs quiver and vibrate as his tongue works your through your orgasm, and you have to physically tug him off you from his hair to stop him when it becomes too overwhelming. Â
When you look down at him, that goofy grin is plastered right on his pretty face and you have the urge to both smack it off him with a pillow, and simultaneously to kiss it off him. He doesnât give you much time to decide which one to go with, climbing up to face level and kissing you deeply. He tastes like pussy and you canât help but moan a little, which obviously pleases him from the way he hums.Â
You want him. Need him. So, you tug gently on his boxers but his hand swats yours away, calling you âgreedyâ between kisses. Instead, he moves his focus to your chest. His hands cup your boobs through your bra, then slip under the fabric, pinching your nipples between his fingers just enough to make you feel electrified. His hand slips under your back and you arch off the mattress to give him access to the clasp. Soon, the bra is on the bedroom floor and his soft, pink lips are latched onto your nipple, while he plays with your other breast. When he switches, he lightly grazes your nipple with his teeth. It doesnât hurt but the sensation shoots directly to your still-sensitive clit, making you mewl.Â
âThatâs it, sweetheart, make those pretty little noises for me,â he coaxes. You canât help but oblige.Â
His mouth moves on you, from your nipple, to the flesh of your breasts, all the way up your neck. He shifts for better access and his clothed cock brushes against your bare cunt, making you arch your back and push your hips closer to his. He doesnât tease or stop you this time, clearly his self-control is also hanging on by a thread. He wants this. He needs you. Now.Â
He tugs off his boxers in on fell swoop and his cock springs out, already hard and throbbing. The tip glistens with precum. Teasing you had just as much of an effect on him as it had on you. You canât help but stare at his cock. It doesnât surprise you that itâs pretty â that much you assumed, just from looking at the rest of him. What really renders you speechless is the size of it. You canât believe youâd taken that, and even more how you could have possibly forgotten taking that. No wonder the soreness that lasted for a couple days after.Â
Buck noticed your admiration, clearly enjoying the stroke to his ego. His hand wrapped around his cock, tugging just slightly, spreading the precum onto the rest of his length.Â
âDonât you want me to give you head?â You ask. He just chuckles softly, like what youâre suggesting is so completely ridiculous.Â
âNot right now, baby. Right now I just need to have you,â He confesses, âCome closer, sweetheart.âÂ
His arms grab your thighs and pull you closer to the edge of the bed, spreading you open. He slips his cock between your slick folds, rubbing both his own length and you with your arousal. Then he stops moving altogether.
âFuck!â He grunts. You just raise your eyebrow quizzically.Â
âWe used a condom last time. I didnât bring one with me, today. This isnât exactly where I thought tonight was heading,â he explains.Â
âNightstand. Bottom drawer,â You breathe out, staying still while he reaches over to open the drawer, âbut, BuckâŠI donât, I meanâŠI have an IUD.âÂ
He freezes, foil wrapper still in hand, âA-are you sure?âÂ
âYeahâŠI mean, I havenât had a new partner in a while. Not since the last time I got tested. Apart fromâŠwell, you,â You blush.Â
âMe neitherâŠâÂ
You watch as he tosses the condom, hovering over you instead. His gaze is focused on your face, burning holes.
âI wanna see what your face does when I fuck you, sweetheart. Wanna save the memory,â he says, brushing a stray strand away from your face. Â
âJesus, fuck!â You exclaim, partly from his filthy comments and partly from how heâs pressing his tip just barely into you.Â
âDoes it hurt, baby?âÂ
You shake your head, no. âFeelsâŠgood,â You pant, and he pushes in a little more. This time the noise it louder.Â
âThatâs it. Yeah, let me see that pretty face. So good, lemme hear those noises,â he coos, pushing himself slowly into your warm, wet cunt. The way your body welcomes him makes him see stars. He fights against the impulse to squeeze his eyes shut. He was serious about remembering every moment. He needs to see you through every moment of this.Â
He buries himself completely inside you and a mangled groan comes out of his throat. Your nails scratch his back as you claw at him to pull him impossibly closer.Â
âFuck, babyâŠHow the hell did I forget this?â He groans.Â
âN-need more. Please, Evan,â you plead. His real name on your tongue makes him shudder. Heâs not sure why but he likes it coming from you. Although, heâs fairly certain there wasnât anything you could do right now that he wouldnât like.Â
âPatience, sweetheart. Just, let me enjoy you like this first,â he whispers.Â
His hand comes up to cup your cheek and he kisses you. Slow this time. Tender. It almost feels wrong, a kiss that intimate, when a second ago you were about to start begging him to fuck you. But, of course, itâs perfectly right. He channels all his confusing, overwhelming emotions into the kiss, and soon, it turns desperate. Thatâs when he gives you what you want.Â
He thrusts his hips, in and out. He starts off slow, but very soon, heâs fucking you at a steady pace, making obscene slapping sounds with each contact of his skin with yours. His cock pulls back almost all the way out of you each time. Then, each time, it returns with a driving force, stopping only when the tip of it comes into contact with your cervix. You cringe a little on the first few thrusts, bracing yourself for pain or discomfort, but it doesnât come. Pretty soon, the only look on your face is bliss.Â
Buck can see the effect heâs having on you. How youâve come undone beneath his body, like putty in his hands. He looks at you with nothing but affection. Adoration. Something close to worship. You have all his attention.Â
âLook at you, taking me so well. Youâre my good girl, sweetheart,â he coos into your ear. You canât bring yourself to try to speak.Â
âYou know what you have to do now, right, sweet girl? You know how to be a good girl for me?â He asks in such a sweet and sexy voice, it makes you short-circuit. You shake your head a little and he chuckles.Â
âThatâs okay, sweetheart. Iâll tell you, then.â He speeds up just slightly, making you moan louder.Â
âWhat you have to do now, sweetheart, isâitâs really simple, you just have to cum on my cock. Dâyou think you can do that, baby?âÂ
Your eyes roll back. What kind of a fucking freak is this guy? His words alone push you closer to the edge. You manage to nod this time, letting him know youâre close. He smiles, bringing his fingers to your clit. Thatâs all it takes. In a matter of seconds youâre writhing and gasping, grasping at him while he keeps you steady, clenching and cumming on him.Â
He leans in, lips brushing your ear, and asks, âCan I cum inside you, baby? Or do you want it somewhere else?âÂ
You nod frantically, trying to recover from your second orgasm of the night, âInside,â you manage to croak out.Â
It doesnât take long before he stills deep inside you, hands holding your body as close as he can, while he spills deep inside you, filling you like you belong to him.Â
The two of you are still, tangled up in each otherâs limbs. His softening cock is still buried deep in your cunt, where he prefers it. His big arms hold you against his chest, and you let yourself relax into his embrace. His lips press soft, chaste kisses all over your face.Â
Then, he says it again. Whispers your name in his wrecked voice. It makes you shiver, like clockwork.
You want to hear that sound about a million more times. Which is great, cause all he can think is how badly he wants to make you shiver with his words like this every day of his life.Â