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"Timeout, timeout" "timeout?! who said you get to make the rules?" Kendall asked raising one eyebrow. "Umm… Maybe because I’m older" you said with a playful smirk. "Wow 2 days doesn’t count (y/n). Nice try though" he said and soon started to chase me around the yard with a bucket of water. Kendall and I have been best friends ever since our toddler days. Our parents were all best friends throughout college and remained that way till this day. Our families always grew up around each other so me and Kendall are practically brother and sister. He’s been there for me since day 1 and although I am 2 days older than him, he always played the role of an older brother. "Kendall Francis Schmidt!!" I yelled after he threw the bucket of water on me leaving me soaking wet. After a few minutes of chasing him, I finally tackled him to the ground. "You are so dead Kendall" I said through gritted teeth. "Maybe but it was totally worth it" he said with a smirk. After a few attempts of throwing some playful punches to his chest, Kendall tried to push me off of him with a blank look on his face. I got off of him dusting myself off noticing Logan standing in front of the backyard porch door looking straight at us with a clearly pissed look. "Oh hey babe, when did you get home?" I asked trying to lighten the mood a little between him and I. No answer. He simply went back inside, slamming the porch door behind him. "I’m sorry, I better go." Kendall said with sorry in his voice. I took a deep breath. This wasn’t the first time Logan’s acted like this. He’s always been jealous of Kendall & I’s relationship. He always thinks I’ll leave him one day to run away with Kendall because we’ll finally confess our love for one another one day. But I’m not in love with Kendall, I’m in love with Logan. "Don’t be, I’ll talk to him. Drive safe." I told him before making my way into the house. After changing out of my wet clothes, I headed upstairs to Logan & I’s bedroom. "Logan, open the door please" "Why should I? Aren’t you a little busy?" he said in a angry tone. "Babe, we were just playing around. Why do you always think there’s something going on between me and Kendall?" "Just leave please" he said. I started to cry because he always acts this way whenever he sees me and Kendall together. We always get into arguments where hateful things slip out of our mouths only for apologies to follow right after. I always tell Logan that Kendall’s like a brother to me, & I’d never date or have feelings like that for someone who’s like a brother to me. Or anyone else but Logan. But he always feels that jealousy feeling in him no matter what I tell him. I just sat outside our locked bedroom door crying my eyes out. Hearing him crying in the room made me cry even more. It’s been 3 hours since our argument and Logan’s been kinda quiet lately. “Logan, can we please talk babe” I said lightly knocking on the bedroom door. Within a few seconds Logan opens the door then walks back to sit on the bed. His eyes are all red and glassy, you can tell he’s been crying really hard. "Do you love him" he asked as I took a seat next to him on the bed. I took a deep breath before answering. "As a brother, yes. Anything else, no." I said grabbing a hold of his hand linking our fingers together. "Then why does it seem like you do?" "What makes it seem like I do?" "You guys are always with each other, doing so many things together. Sometimes it feels like you’re slowly replacing me with him." Logan mumbled out. "Baby no, no one could ever replace you. No matter how hard they try to, they’d never be able to. You’re the only one I’m in love with and has been ever since we first met. I want to spend the rest of my life with you. I want you to be the father of my kids. I want YOU and ONLY you." I said looking him in the eyes, meaning every single word. "It just hurts because before we used to do everything and anything together, I was the center of your attention & now that Kendall’s back, he’s been getting all your attention an doing everything with you. It’s not that I’m selfish, I just feel like I’m being shoved to side all of a sudden." "I’m sorry I’ve been making you feel this way. I never ment to shove you to the side. It’s just that Kendall’s always played a big part in my life, and then he leaves for the military for over a year, now that he’s back I try to spend as much time with him before his time runs out and he has to leave again. I promise to spend more time with you, & focus more on you. I love you and please don’t ever forget that" I said leaning in or a kiss. "Im sorry I got jealous. Even though I shouldn’t have." "Don’t be, because I’d feel the exact same way if roles were switched. You being jealous just shows me that you care. and I love that about you." "I love you too soon to be Mrs. Henderson, future mother of my kids, and mine and only mine forever and ever" he finished off before attacking me with his lovable kisses.

Friday, September 13, 2:45 am "Logan Henderson’s room please" I said out of breath to the lady at the counter. "Room 203" she replied after looking up from her computer. "thank you" I said before sprinting to the elevator. Friday, September 13, 2:52 am "Room 203, 203, 203…" I kept mumbling to myself while running down the hall of the quiet hospital. "203!" I said as I barged into the hospital room. *beep… beep…* There layed a bruised, cut up, pale Logan hooked up to many machines surrounding him. He looked so broken. "Ahh.. You must be Miss (y/n)" the doctor said before turning around from one of the machines Logan was hooked up to. "Yes, how is he?" I said as closed to door and took a step closer to him. "Badly bruised in many areas, shattered right leg, and has slipped into a coma." "When will he awake?" I said tears already forming in my eyes. "Hard to say. A coma depends on the subjects condition and body. In Logan’s condition, he’s not severly broken, which could be in it for about 3 or less months. However, there’s no guarentee. It mainly depends on Logan’s body. Usually when in a coma, you are kind of ‘trapped’ we say. Which means you’re still aware of things occuring around you, thus you can still hear. However, it’s as if you’re trapped in a huge dark room, usually you’re yelling and screaming for help, but no one can hear you. Scientists say sometimes it takes a certain voice, memory, or touch, to trigger the patients brain. So again there is no time frame I can give you before he wakes up. I’m truely sorry." he said before he made his way out. "Thank you doctor" Friday, September 13, 3:20 am "Logan… If you can hear me, please listen to me. Logan I’m so sorry. This is all my fault, if I didn’t convince you to stay over an extra hour, maybe you wouldn’t be here right now suffering. Or maybe if we haven’t been sneaking around, you wouldn’t be here either. Or maybe if we just never met, you wouldnt be here… Maybe you’d be lying in your own bed versus this one. I’m sorry I’m bad luck. I’m always the one to blame when something goes wrong. It’s my fault. And that should be me lying in this bed, not you. I don’t blame you if you don’t want anything to do with me after this, I understand if you want to leave me. Us. Im used to it. I just pray that you please wake up because someone as beautiful and great as you, don’t deserve to have a second of their life take away from them. Please, just please wake up Logan." I said a I balled my eyes out onto his cold body still holding his hand. *Rewind* Thursday, September 12, 11:50 pm "What are you doing here?" I whispered as I pulled Logan into my apartment. "I just had to see you. It’s been too long since I’ve felt your touch, and with tour rehersal & promoting, I’m literally about to go berzerk. I needed to see you. You calm me down & whenever I’m with you, nothing else matters but us." He said pulling me into his famous big hugs. "It’s late, you should be sleeping. Management won’t like it if you’re late again. Or if we can’t get caught." I mumbled into his chest. "Just give me one hour" he said looking into my eyes. All I could do was smile and lead him to the living room couch to watch movies with me. Friday, September 13 1:15 am "Baby you should just stay please. It’s late and I don’t want you driving out this late" I said trying to convince him. "It’s fine babe, it’s only a 10 minute drive. I’ll call you when I get home, I promise okay?" "Logan please" "Maybe another night babe. I have to go home and pack for tomorrow’s flight." he said giving me a kiss on the lips. "Please drive safe. Please." "I will" he said closing the door behind him. *Present day* "Breaking news!! Famous teen nick boy band member, Logan Henderson induced into a coma early this morning after getting involved in a head on collision accident. The driver appeared drunk and swerved into Mr. Henderson’s lane. The driver was pronounced dead at the time of the crash. Sources report that the boy band member left the dance studio with the rest of his bandmates at 11:30 pm Thursday night. Sources also say he then went to visit a long time friend & rumored girlfriend. It appears he didn’t leave till around 1:30 am, as paparazzi caught some photos of him pulling out of her garage. The accident didn’t occurr till around 2 am this morning." every television news reporter stated. *3 weeks later* It’s been 3 weeks since Logan has been induced into his coma. And everyday I go and visit him before work and after work till visiting hours end. I pray to god everyday that someday he wakes up and is able to enjoy life once again. Not a day goes by where I don’t regret letting him drive that night. Every night I get vivid dreams about him. Whether it’s his collision replaying in my head over and over again, or it’s me trying to talk to him, but he can never hear me. It’s eating me alive knowing this is all my fault. "Good afternoon (y/n)" said every nurse and doctor I walked passed while making my way to Logan’s room. This was my daily routine. To visit Logan before and after work. "Ahh Miss (y/n) just who i was looking for" Logan’s doctor said to me before I walked into Logan’s room. "Is eveything okay, doctor?" "Yes, i actually have good news for you. Mr. Henderson has finally woken up from his coma. We’re just performing some tests to see how he & his body is. However he will have to stay an extra night so we can monitor him for a full 24 hours. He will be able to leave tomorrow afternoon" he said with a big smile. "Are you serious?! Thank you so much doctor!" I said jumping into his arms to give him a big hug. I was literally crying out buckets of tears. "Hey you." I said as I made my way into Logan’s new room. "(y/n)! Oh god I missed you" he said giving me a tight hug. "Doctor said you can go home tomorrow" "I know, I’m so happy." he said smiling big. "me too" Saturday, October 5 3:45 pm "Logan, Im getting worried, where the hell are you?! You aren’t home, no one knows where you are, you aren’t answering any of my calls or texts, please just let me know you’re okay. Logan I’m going crazy. This is like the 100th time I’ve called you, please just answer. Logan, please." I said leaving yet again another voicemail. ——— (Logan’s POV) I let out a big sigh as I hung up my phone. (y/n) & the guys have been blowing up my phone ever since the hospital released me this afternoon. I told them I had a meeting with management & I’d meet up with them after. Only thing is after the meeting & I didn’t meet up with them. I just had to get away from everything and everyone. I needed to think but clear my head at the same time. I went to the only place that could help me do that. A place no one else knows about but me. I can’t do this. How am I supposed to tell (y/n) that management don’t want us together anymore. They’re blaming my whole accident on (y/n). They said if I didn’t go out to see her, I wouldn’t have been hit. They said she’s bad publicity for me. And its best if we just cut ties between us and went our seperate ways. But I don’t blame her. Not one bit of me blames her & no matter what anyone says, I’ll never blame her. But I can’t just give up (y/n) just like that. I’m in love with her. And letting her go would be the biggest mistake of my life. The number one thing I promised myself I wouldn’t do since I first met her. But if I don’t let her go, the company will let me go. Do I stick with the girl I love or do I stick with my career, something I’ve been dreaming of since I was 3….

"You know she’s not going to wait forever right?" Kendall said. "I know, I know. I’m just trying to figure this all out." "Figure what out?! Dude, she likes you, you like her. What’s to figure out?" Kendall argued back. "What if she doesn’t Kendall? What if taking us to the next level ruins our friendship? (Y/N)’s and I’s friendship isn’t something that can be taken for granted. She means the world to me. I can’t live without her. I just can’t." I whispered back. "Well, all I know is that if you want to take yours and (Y/N)’s friendship to the next level, you need to act fast. Cause word getting around is that Matt asked her on a date for Friday night." "Ha. Like she’ll say yes to Matt." I scoffed. "Well, according to twitter, she just did." Kendall said showing me her tweet, a photo of her and Matt hugging attached to her tweet. 
“(@YourTwitterName) Cause I can’t wait for Friday😊”
“What the hell, she said yes?!” I said freaking out. “Better act fast” Kendall said smirking. And with that I bolted out my front door. "James! James! James!! Where’s (Y/N)?!" I said out of breath. "Last I saw her Matt was walking her to period 1. Hey, I thought you guys had a thing?" He said closing his locker. "We do. Well at least I thought we do.. Or did. But I guess not, since she said yes to a date with Matt." I said resting my head against the lockers. "Maybe she got tired of waiting. I mean it has been, what, 3 years since you guys been ‘flirting’?" "I know, I’m stupid. I took her for granted, and I lost her. Maybe for good.." "Man why are you doing this? You know (Y/N) and Logan have a thing right?" said Matt’s best friend Luke. "I know, but it’s only to get Jess back." Matt said. "I still don’t think this is right man. Don’t you know that Logan will beat your ass when he finds out you asked (Y/N) out? And even more when he finds out you played (Y/N) just to get Jess back?" Luke said. "No he won’t." "Whatever man." Luke said walking away. "(Y/N)! (Y/N)! (Y/N)!!" I yelled while runnin down the school hallway. "Logan! Where’ve you been?" (Y/N) said. "Can I talk to you in private?" "Sure. What’s all this about?" she said while walking outside to a bench under a big tree. "Please tell me you’re seriously not going on that date with Matt." "Why not?" she replied with a curious look. "He’s just trying to get Jess back. I overheard him and Luke talking. Just please trust me." I said placing my hand on her shoulder. She moved her shoulder away and took a step back. "Logan are you jealous? Are you jealous because Matt beat you to the punch?!" she yelled at me. I was completely silent. It was true, Matt did beat me to the punch. I was jealous. "That’s what I thought. You thought I was just like to rest of the girls who fall for you. Once they fall, they’ll never get up and move on. They’re always going to be there waiting on their hands and knees for you. Sitting on your front door porch like a lost dog, waiting for your command. Waiting to be loved by you. Well guess what Logan, I’m not like the rest. Yes maybe I fell for you, yes maybe I thought there was a chance between us, but I got tired of waiting! Because waiting for you, is like waiting for it to rain in this desert town of Texas. It’s time for me to move on, and the time is now." she said stepping backwards with tears streaming down her face. "(Y/N)" I said trying to stop her. But it was too late. She started running towards her car in the parking lot. I’m the most dumbest, dummy, dumb, dumb of dumbest people ever. "Heard about you and (Y/N)’s fight yesterday, how you feelin?" said Kendall as he sat down besides me on the bleachers watching the football game. I sighed. "She was right. I am jealous that Matt beat me to the punch. I was stupid for waiting and thinking she’d never move on. But I was wrong. Majorly." I admitted. "I have to agree with you on that one man." He said with a slight chuckle. "Speaking of (Y/N), have you seen her tonight? I kinda wanted to apologize." I asked Kendall. "Come to think of it. On my way to finding you I did see Matt with Jess. It seemed to me like they’re back together. I guess it never really registered to me now. Maybe she turned down him down?" Kendall said. And with that I was sprinting to my car in the parking lot. "(Y/N)" I whispered while knocking on her bedroom balcony door. "Logan.." she said opening the door, embracing me with a big hug. She nuzzled her face into my chest continuing to cry. "You were right. Matt was just using me." She sobbed out. "Shh… It doesn’t matter, because I’m still wrong for taking my time in waiting to do this." "To do what?" She said looking up at me. "This" I said leaning in for a kiss. And she was more than happy to return it. "I’m sorry I waited for the rain" I said breaking the kiss with the biggest smile on my face as it began to rain down on us. "Well, it was definately worth the wait." she replied with the biggest smile I’ve ever seen on her face.