I wanted to reflect on an area of my life, and what I believe. I spent most of my life partying and living the life most people live today. Oh yeah Sex, Drugs, Rock n Roll, or in my case Hard Core Metal, and Thrash. Until 8 years ago, wow it's been so long? I finally gave my life to Christ. It can function as a shock to some of you, but I hated the church - the sermons asleep, nerdy people, and oh man, sounds scary music church pipe organ. Oops, did I say that? Lol - Yes I did! I spent a very hard time with people like church, said that the world Hypocrites! They went to church on Sunday and live like the devil for the rest of the week. It was really for me to come to Christ. I was in a drunken, stoned out of my brain, and continued to hear that voice. "Will you stop drinking and you go to church!" What? What's that? (Well, it was other words, I had to tone it down. I do not speak anymore. Lol) Anyway I told my wife. She said: "Do not even say that. You're never going to stop drinking. I know, it will not last even a week. "To make a long story short, a guy invited me to church. I agreed and took my wife and children. The pastor was talking right in our lives. My wife went up to pray as I stood there in tears. Then the guy who made us came and prayed with us. We've accepted Christ into our lives last night! We loved. Then about 3 days later, we went back to this revival. A Guy Called people to stop smoking. "Yeah lets see if it works." I said. Then the guy stopped and looked dead at me. He said, "You!" I looked behind me, beside me. There was nobody. lol I looked again and said, "No, you!, God told me that if you do not leave the alcohol, you gonna kill you! You know you do not? "I said" yes "with a smile on my face. How my father died of drinking himself to death. (Literally!) Then he said: "He also told me that you have a good heart! He has special plans for you! "Then the tears came out of nowhere! The guy went to preach. Of course, piercing my heart, I know that this guy had to know who I was. But he did not. It was Las Vegas! The guy who invited me said, "Come lets go." "You're right! It's time. "I replied.Snot and tears flowing, my body trembled, something in me was the packaging of the output. Hard to explain, but that's what he felt. The next day I went for my 40 days. (For those who do not know that it is a 40 cl bottle of malt liquor.), I must have this to get rid of the greenhouse before noon every day. I was an alcoholic, full blown. It is a disease. I could not stop. I knew it, and therefore everyone. As I drank, it was wicked! The nastiest taste I've never tasted. So I pounded all for getting rid of the shakes. Because they were coming on fast. Something that had never happened before. It all came right back. I can not explain the taste, or what I want. It was extremely gross.At this time, the shaking stopped. It was over. The need at the same time as the taste in my mouth, I realized it was over. God delivered me in a instant.It shocked the heck out of me.I told my wife it's over. "Get rid of everything. Now! "She said what on the pot. (Yet another thing I never wanted to stop.) Lol I said: "Everything" From this moment, we paid all the beer I had just bought. All pipes and bongs and we had weed. I could not flush. So I gave it to all my friends. lol Hey I just got saved. It was the courtesy thing to do. I knew what had happened. Jesus saved me, literally, kill me. I went to have a beer in his hand a Bible. lol It lasted over well with all our friends. They all saw it and ran! (Literally) Everybody tells me. "Ahh you'll be back in a man of the week!" "When you come around, we're here for you bro!" A week, month, and so on. I have not returned since. I did not want. I started reading the Bible! For the first time he really was. I wanted to know who Jesus really was. It took over a year to go through all this. Then I went back and started again. Finding Jesus in the Old Testament threw me for a loop. We continued to go to church. Every time the doors were opened we were there. Yeah I know I'm a monster! Thank you God! It allowed me not only to know that I actually loved my wife. But kept us together for 12 almost 13 years now. The man of God is good.Awhile after the division of church! The pastor decided he wanted to preach the Bible instead of what the organization made him want to preach. He knew he had been held accountable for what he was preaching and teaching the congregation. I did not know what to do. I prayed. God told me flat out "Stay" if I did not know, I obeyed. (Yes God speaks lol He is very much alive!) We stayed over the left half of the congregation. People who try to quote the Bible to leave me. But it turned into a question of money instead of God! I had to pray much. Confused, but I knew what he preached was right! I read it myself! What he said up there is right on! As time went on. The church had a new freedom in Christ. We had fun at church instead of burdens. The church doubled. seen many miracles and we loved it. Finally, my wife and I both wound up on the platform help with praise and worship. The love. Then God began to deal with me about writing songs again. The next thing you know my wife and I play music and write me that God was touching many hearts. I was surprised since'm not perfect, started.I, not will I ever claim. Nobody is perfect but the Father! God! Why he chose a life like I do. Is beyond my understanding.But Some friends came and asked. "Do you want a bassist and a drummer?" I said 'Sure! Let's see what happens. "The next thing you know in 2002, our group has been formed Sanctyfied! A few weeks later, someone gave me an electric guitar still in the plastic and said: "Behold, God bless you!" A few days after that we went straight into a studio and began recording. When it was done. I decided to put it on Myspace. After that people started to contact me, saying, "Hey you can play here?" Or "We would be happy to air on the radio!" So that stations and places have begun to play mad. I've never seen anything like this since I started music. Way back when. But I will not go into that right now.The special schemes which has been promised, is still being led by God! Jesus literally changed my life upside down. It went from a downward spiral to hell! For road and impressive sky! We spent the last few years moving around the country. The entire group is no longer with my wife and me, at least for now. They all have a life as well. lol Through our travels we have seen so much. But we continue to make songs that God gave me for Sanctyfied! We have band members more and more musicians to record with. It was a great tour with Jesus until now. I do not want to ever end. He has plans for you too. Talk to him! He knows you better than you know! Ask Jesus to be your Lord and Savior. Let him into your heart. Know who he is. Read the Bible for yourself! Do not let a man a platform will be your judge! May your God judge you! Jesus is alive. I know it must be done. There is nobody who can tell me otherwise. They try, but everything they say can not compare what happened to me. This is a very short version of my testimony. If you want to know more, just ask.Most important., When you pray, listen! God speaks to you. It always has. We just tend to ignore it. He created you. He loves you. He is dad - everyone. It is not a guy that with a stick waiting to bash your head every time you do something wrong. He cares and loves you. He wants the best for you. Does life change for the better? We still have to reap what we sow! My life is far from perfect. I also always a bad attitude at times. I'm not holier than thou art. But mostly, I am much better than I used to be. God has yet to notch the old part of me that still loves to get up from time to time.Whether you are Christian or not! (Do not expect Christians to be perfect.) We all make mistakes. Most likely we will all die and until we go home! I just want to share with everyone. To let people know who I am. I live for Jesus. I play music for God and love to so.I think it should be a fun thing to go to church. It is a festival not a hammer time! lol. I believe what the Word of God says. (The Bible). Not this verse or that verse, but as a whole.I believe playing music for him should be enjoyable. Not a moment of struggle about who is better, who plays bad and worse, or fight to be perfect. Got news for you Nobody perfect.I also believe that God forgives the mistakes of the past, when we ask. Although we still have to reap what we sow. It is unforgiving. Thank you Jesus. believe that Jesus died for our sins. old and new. Yes I still sin from time to time. But I realize that it is a sin and I feel bad for her. So I repent. I do my best to never do it again. Not as an excuse, but because I'm human like everyone else. Being a musician for Christ, I do not change the human being. What do I believe? I believe Jesus!