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I’m bored at work so Meta for The All Fathers Treasure about Loki’s background. 

                “ ah. ”

     perhaps a little worry sounded in his      voice as eyes fell on a FAMILIAR face.

How does it feel to treat me like you do? When you've laid your hands upon me And told me who you are I thought I was mistaken I thought I heard your words Tell me, how do I feel? Tell me, now, how do I feel?

How does it feel How should I feel Tell me how does it feel To treat me like you do

Those who came before me Lived through their vocations From the past until completion They'll turn away no more And I still find it so hard To say what I need to say But, I'm quite sure that you'll tell me Just how I should feel today

I see a ship in the harbor I can and shall obey But if it wasn't for your misfortunes, I'd be a heavenly person today And I thought I was mistaken And I thought I heard you speak Tell me, how do I feel? Tell me, now, how should I feel?

Now I stand here waiting

I thought I told you to leave me When I walked down to the beach Tell me how does it feel When your heart grows cold (grows cold, grows cold)

How does it feel How should I feel Tell me how does it feel To treat me like you do

How does it feel How should I feel Tell me how does it feel To treat me like you do

brontideking

Iðunn remembered all too clearly the weeks and months leading up to ‘The Break-Up’. All through their relationship, they had fought--- nothing too serious, more squabbling than anything. It didn’t worry her then, but when their fights became a more common occurrence, lasting for hours and then days until finally it was the same fight over and over, never reaching any resolution. He began to pull away from her, and she did the only thing she knew to do in response. She held on tighter.

She remembered a time where they were the best of friends. She remembered the laughter, how their smiles touched their eyes whenever they were together. She hadn’t even noticed when they lost all that, when the foundation they’d built their lives on had crumbled under their very feet. It hadn’t mattered that they didn’t have money, could barely scrape together enough to get by, as long as they were together.

Iðunn had always been hopelessly naive, especially with regards to Thor.

And then the night came that he walked out, didn’t come back until he realised there was nowhere else to go. They were both tied to the apartment, but it was too late for them. Everything had shattered the moment he walked out of the door, the moment his resolve snapped and he told her exactly how he’d been feeling. Exactly why he’d spent their meagre income on going out drinking. His words still hurt, no matter the time that had passed since. Iðunn didn’t smile at him, not now. The bitterness that lingered between them, resentment that they’d harboured for too long, it made her feel sick. Every morning she found herself heaving over the toilet bowl.

They were supposed to be happy. They were supposed to be in love, and yet they weren’t. It couldn’t be love, not the fairytale version of it she knew. It was dark and twisted, and they were both of them counting down the days until he’d be gone. That was what he wanted, after all. 

So when the pregnancy test was positive, Iðunn cried. She’d always wanted a child, though the doctors told her the chances of her ever being able to conceive and carry a baby to term were slim. And now, as her life began to fall apart at the seams, a new life was growing inside her. She shoved the test in the bathroom bin, wiping her eyes and drawing in a deep breath. 

Loki had very bad experiences with his parents. Well, with Laufey. Farbauti died when he was small, so Loki only experienced happiness for a few years. When his dam died, Laufey grew cold and started to take it out on Loki. His brothers were soon to follow. When with his biological family, Loki is beaten a lot and yelled at, which is why he moved to Asgard. His father was a ruthless killer and abused Loki in every way known to man, but Loki finally escaped him. If Laufey were to ever return for Loki, no doubt he would be terrified. Because Laufey is king, Loki knows he does have a lot of power, so it’s risky being in Asgard at all, but it’s all Loki can do to live a content life.